Forever Dark(81)

For once, his blue gives way to darkness. His hand moves slowly over my body and nudges my legs apart for him. Dropping forward on his elbows, he stares at me, eyes watching me until his voice drops lower. “You sure?”

I nod. “I’m sure.”

This feels right. I know now just how right this feels with him.

Drawing himself from me, he leans over the side of the bed to find his jeans and retrieves the condom.

That’s when I start to freak out.

It feels so right, but yet, wrong in some ways. Were we rushing into this?

I push back on his shoulders. “Cash… wait.”

He stops and looks at me. “What?”

“Is this too soon?”

“Huh?” He’s confused now, his brow scrunched staring at my lips, and I can feel him right at my entrance trying not to push forward.

“I mean, shouldn’t we wait?”

“No,” he shakes his head and goes for my neck. Biting me.

He bit me.

It’s distracting.

“Are you sure?”

“I’m positive.” He groans and takes a firm grasp on my thigh angling my hips.

“But you don’t think we should date first then like ease back into this?”

I’m never like this but the last thing I want to do is fuck this up.

Cash shakes his head. “The only easing into anything I want right now is easing into your pussy.” I laugh at his bluntness but he continues. “I’m going to date you, Madison. Whether you want to or not. I’m going to bring you coffee in the morning, walk you to class, and take you to dinner. I’m going to hold your damn hand and kiss your cheek. I’m going to be there. Night and day.” He raises an eyebrow. “But right now, I’m fucking dying here. I had to sit on a plane for seven hours and think about that kiss at the stadium. We’re having sex. We’ll date tomorrow.”

Drawing in a deep breath, I laugh and take a moment to really watch him right then as Sam Bradley plays in the background softly.

He’s absolutely right.

We can date tomorrow.

Once he’s inside me, it’s everything I remember and cherish about him. Maybe because it had been awhile but still, nothing could compare to the feeling of Cash entering me.

He smiles against my lips. “You wanna know a secret?”

I nod, like I did that last time hoping this isn’t the same.

He pulls back from my lips. “When I would first slip it in, you’d sigh, like there was nothing better than having me inside you.”

He’s watching me, his knuckles raise running over my heated cheek. Instinctively, I lean in. “There is nothing better than that.”

His body feels heavy, his grip strong and his hands, rough. But I am in no position to stop him. I need this. His lips move from my face to my neck with a frustrated groan.

My nails dig into his shoulders as he pushes in and out of me, carefully, but still, it’s been a while and I can tell by the way his hips shudder with each thrust that he’s holding back as much as he can. He’s breathing rapidly and giving me a look I don’t understand and then his face contours in determination. “Are you gonna come? I can’t make it much longer.” He whispers and then dips his head forward to bury it in the crook of my neck.

I moan into his shoulder, his hips undulating, creating the right amount of friction. It rises quickly and I finally let go as the warmth spreads throughout my entire body. His fists clench the pillow beside my head as he throws himself into his movements, chasing the need. I hold onto him any way I can, my grip slipping slightly.

He comes then, groaning and jerking forward, his lips at my ear. My body shakes too at the emotions coursing through me right then. When Cash pulls back, I see it. He loves me more now than ever before.

He rolls over, careful not to fall off the edge and then brings me flush against his chest, his lips lingering at my shoulder. He was still trying to catch his breath. “Nice play.”

“Thank you,” I say, watching him, but laughing remembering our first time when I said that to him.

He kisses me, grinning against my lips. When he pulls back, his knuckles brush over my cheek gently, his eyes fluttering closed. “I love you.”

I’m going to give my heart to him all over again. I have to. I need to and what he does with it is up to him because I’m giving him forever.

Everything is different in one month.

Everything.

Just like the night Steven died.

Everything changed.

Only now it was finally for the better.

We’re getting ready to go over to Landon’s house for New Year’s Eve when Macy sends me a text. They have something to tell us.

Cash smiles. “I know what it is.”

When he smiles, I watch the corners of his mouth, a secret tugging at them.