Imperfect Truth(80)

I will start from when everything started to unravel with Alexandre. From back when his indifference and my own jealousy caused me to see things that were never there. From when I became so blinded by my own guilt that I almost rewrote my future.

That will be the beginning.

The moment it all changed.

The day I met Ryder.

I glance across the couch, and our eyes meet. A soft smile lines his face. Our hands rest within each other's. I can feel the gentle friction of his hand drawing circles on mine. To think how far we have come. I close my eyes to savor the moment, and opening them I look into his. The love that fills them lifts me higher, and I know it's time, time to finally move forward and bury my demons. He leans forward, his mouth grazing mine. The invasion of his lips is welcome. A soft whimper escapes. He lovingly caresses my back as he pulls away and places his lips gently on my forehead. His lips proclaim what his words can't say, giving me the encouragement I need to do this.

As I gently release his hand, he nods with approval as I collect my laptop from the ottoman sitting at my feet.

Sometimes I still can't believe we have made it here, but we are stronger now, finally, and if possible I love him more today than I ever did in the past.

Placing my finger on the keyboard, I start. My fingers are ready to type, taking on a mind of their own. My life once an untold story, now will forever be preserved on paper.

I realize now the most liberating moment, is the moment you finally let go.