Three Thousand Miles(15)

“I do like Michael but I love Adrian, it’s him I want to be with.”

“If that’s true, you won’t need Michael in your life anymore.” Katharine’s words are icy and I feel awkward around her.

“What are you saying?” She leans back in the chair and folds her arms.

“I don’t think that you should see Michael anymore.” I gasp, is she really saying this?

“Why would you say that?”

“Adrian is correct in what he was saying, Michael won’t get over you, he needs space and you need to give it to him.”

“Katharine, I have known Michael longer than you, he is my friend, he saved my life and I won’t give him up.”

“How can I accept that you don’t love him, when you say things like that? I don’t understand the hold you have over him?” My face is hot and I feel flustered, my heart is racing, I cannot think straight. I wish that Katharine would just back down as I do not need this from her right now.

“We spent a lot of time together, we lived together, did he tell you that?” The look on her face suggests that he has not, her face is now like thunder and her eyes are raging.

“When did all this happen?”

“I left college for a break, remember?”

“Yes, but you were stressed and Sophie said that you checked into a hotel, what does that have to do with Michael?”

“It wasn’t a hotel, it was a condo in Soho, and Michael was there too.”

“I don’t understand were you two, together?”

“It’s hard to explain, we weren’t together but we did share a house for a while.”

“Alanna, you are making no sense, tell me what happened?”

“Adrian owns the condo; I decided to stay there for a while. Adrian is very protective and he would not let me stay there by myself. So he asked Michael to watch over me while I was there.” Katharine stands, she looks very annoyed, and I wonder why Michael did not tell her he stayed with me? Is he ashamed? On the other hand, is he just protecting Katharine from the truth?

“Alanna, did you sleep with him?” Katharine’s words have shocked me, she knows that I do not do that, yet she has the nerve to ask me.

“No, never, you know that I don’t do that!”

“I am sorry, but you have to see my point of view, I love him and although he is with me, he will always love you.”

“It’s not the ideal situation, but what can I do about it?”

“You cannot see him anymore, I won’t allow it.”

“You can’t really be asking me to do that?” I protest.

“It should not be a problem if you love Adrian, what use is Michael to you?” She says and her voice is harsh and sounds very informative. I shake my head, as I look at her, why is she acting like this? Is she that insecure about her relationship that she feels that I need to stay away?

“Katharine, no I won’t stay away from Michael. He has saved my life in so many ways, what kind of person would I be, if I just ignored him after all that he did?”

“I am asking you, as my friend, to please stay away from him.”

“No, I will always be your friend, but Michael means too much to me and I will not be without him,” I say firmly.

“If that’s how you feel then we are done here.”

“Katharine, don’t be like that,” she picks up her bag from the floor, walks over the door and looks back to me.





“Alanna, I gave you a choice and you chose to betray me. It is not my fault that things have gone this way.”

“You can’t just walk away.”

“Watch me,” she says as she opens the door and a second later, she is gone. I throw myself down into the bed and cover my head with the sheet. My life is ruined, I have no Adrian, no Michael and now Katharine is gone. My heart has collapsed at the thought of this. How I could have lost so many people, that are important to me, is mind numbing and I am plagued by the thoughts of not having them in my life. I think of the words I heard from Adrian, he thinks I am better off without him, I cannot see how that could be possible. If anything I am worse without him, I need him to realise that, I possibly could if he would just talk to me. Have Katharine’s words affected how he feels? Is there a slight chance now that he knows about Michael and Katharine being back together, could that bring back him to me? My mind spins and I feel a migraine coming on. I push the sheet from my face and sit fully up in the bed. I reach over to the sliding table and pull it towards me. I take two headache pills from the bottle that sits on the table. I sip a small glass of water as I swallow the pills. I reach out and lift up my white Blackberry, I scroll through my texts and emails, however, there are none from Adrian. I take a deep breath and compose a text to him,