Three Thousand Miles(14)

“Adrian, you are fooling no-one. I know that you are still in love with Alanna, its time you got over yourself and came back.” Katharine’s expressions have also changed and I can tell that she is mad at Adrian. Her lips are white and her face is the same, her forehead is crinkled and stressed and the look she has in her eyes is the same one she usually saves for her outbursts towards her brother Leo.

“Katharine, you think you know everything but you know nothing,” Adrian says and his voice now sounds frustrated. I remember the tone he uses when he is angry and this is it.

“Perhaps you should tell me? If I don’t know anything then fill me in, I am all ears,” she says very sarcastically.

“I don’t have time, now leave me alone.” Adrian says back just as sarcastically.

“Don’t hang up, we are not done here,” she says and the desperation in her voice is deafening.

“What do you want me to say?” He snaps and now he is very annoyed. My mind flashes back to that day when he threw me over his shoulder. The way he pulled me after him was very surprising and the look that he had in his eyes was not something I had seen before. He frightened me that day and I saw another side to him. Although I was extremely angry with him for the way he had acted, I still had this unconditional love for him that I could never shake off. His words now have me just as annoyed and angry as I was that day, the love on the other hand is there even more so than it was before.

“Just tell the truth, you love her,” Katharine says.

“I do love her but I am not going to be with her, I cannot have her and I definitely don’t deserve Alanna’s love.”

“You are crazy you know that?”

“I know I am, but it’s the way I feel and nothing will change that.”

“Do you know that I am back with Michael?” The phone is silent and all I can hear is Adrian and his panting breath.

“I wasn’t aware of that, how long has this been going on?” He says in a quizzing voice.

“A little while, you know how Michael felt about Alanna but I want you to understand that I am now with him. He is committed to me, if there is even a slight chance that you are staying away because of Michael then I want you to know that it is not an issue any more. Michael has moved on and he has accepted the fact that Alanna loves you and only you.” She says in a pleasing voice.

“Katharine, Michael will always love Alanna and no matter how hard you try to make him happy, she will be in his mind every day and every second. He won’t move on from her.” I am little shocked at Adrian’s words, I feel he is being harsh with Katharine and he should not really be saying this to her.

“You are wrong, he has moved on, he wants you to be with her, stop being selfish and insecure and do the right and come back to Alanna,” Katharine says her nostrils are flared and hands are shaking.

“You only want me back, because you are the one who is insecure, you are scared that what I am saying is true and you fear that he will never love you.”

“You are totally wrong; I don’t think like that, Michael and I can be happy together.”

“Possibly, for a while, but you will never match up to Alanna in his eyes, the sooner you realise that the better.”

“How dare you, you don’t know anything.”

“Yes love, I do.” I look to Katharine and I make a signal for her to hang up. I do not like the way things are going and it is a little uncomfortable for me given what Adrian is saying.

“Adrian, I am going to hang up now, but please get in touch with Alanna, she misses you and she does need you.” The phone is silent as Katharine hangs up. She rushes over to the seat and I slide myself back into the bed. Katharine is annoyed and I can see that she is very frustrated about the talk that she just had with Adrian. I do not really know how to approach things with her however, she is my friend and I need to try.

“Katharine,” I say but she jumps in first and I do not have any time to explain what I have to say before she tells me how it is.

“Michael does care for you, a lot, but he and I are together now. I trust him when he says how he feels about me and I hope that you can understand that and hopefully you can move on from him.” What is Katharine saying; does she think that I love Michael?

“I am not sure what you’re saying, why would you think that I need to move on from him?”

“I feel that you care for him more than you say you do. Possibly you like the fact that he would do anything for you and I feel that you like the attention from him.” Her words have struck me hard, I try to come back with a suitable response and be respectful of her; however, my heart has sunk at the sound of the thoughts she obviously has.