Obsession, Loving An Alpha Male(24)

I knew he felt the garter belt I wore. I felt the sharp intake of his breath on my neck.

“So you wore this for me then…”

“No I…” I stopped talking the moment I felt his finger graze me. My hand instantly went to his wrist. “What are you doing, Josh?”

“So you didn’t wear this dress, this…” he snapped the strap holding my thigh high stockings in place. “…for me?”

“No,” I said with a quiver in my voice I knew I couldn’t hide.

“Huh… you know I don’t believe you. I think you wore this dress to seduce me. To make me lose my mind…” Josh kissed my ear and said softly, “turn around, Sweets…”

I didn’t move…

Josh moved his hand from under my dress and started to pull down my zipper. That caused me to turn around quickly.

“Again, what do you think you’re doing?” I asked him, eyes wide as saucers.

“Trying to seduce you…”

He moved closer to me, backing me up against the door. He leaned down and lightly kissed the side of my mouth.

He said softly, “Do you want me, Sweets?”

“Wh–wh…” I swallowed and cleared my throat. “What?” I managed to finally get out in between him kissing my neck, my face…

“I didn’t think I asked a trick question… It was a very simple question with a yes or no answer…” he said to me, stopping his lip assault and bringing his eyes to mine.

My words caught in my throat at the deep darkness in his eyes. The desire for me was shadowing him, draping him. It seemed to be consuming him, and I felt he was almost over the edge.

This was what I wanted, wasn’t it? I just… I didn’t want it because he thought I was going on a date with someone else.

I said to him, “I don’t think me wanting you is the right question.”

“It’s not? What is then?”

I took a deep breath and said as strong as I could, “Do you really want me?”

Josh smirked at me. “I think that’s evident, Sweets.”

I quickly shook my head and brought my hands to his chest, trying to create space between us.

“No, it isn’t really. You’re only doing this because I told you I was going out with someone else.”

“Do you really believe that?”

“Josh, you were planning to say goodbye to me tonight. Don’t deny that,” I said to him.

I tried to push him away from me, but he just moved closer to me and placed his hands along my face.

“Yeah, well, I changed my fucking mind the moment I opened my front door. And I’ll be damned if you think I’m going to let you go out with another man. You belong to me, Sweets, but it seems you’ve forgotten that…” Josh leaned in to me, bringing his lips inches from mine. He said, “I guess I have to show you, so there will no longer be any doubt.”

His kiss didn’t start out soft…no, it went straight to hard and possessive and down right mind blowing. I couldn’t do anything but wrap my arms around his neck and hold on for dear life as his tongue claimed my mouth, my soul…

The remaining parts of my thong were melting into me I was so soaked with need. I could feel a hard bulge pressing in my lower stomach, and I really wanted to find out just how blessed Josh was.

When he pulled apart from me his hands were still on my cheeks.

“Fuck, I’ve missed you,” he said to me.

I smiled. “I’ve missed you too.”

We stayed that way, his hands on the side of my face, thumb caressing my cheeks, and I had my hands resting on a well–defined lower back.

“Tell me you want me…”

I looked in his eyes, and I couldn’t lie to him… I didn’t care anymore if I make a fool out of myself… this was where I wanted to be, and he was who I wanted, so I nodded.

“I want you…” I said softly.

“Tell me you wore this dress for me…” Josh gripped my hair and pulled my head back.

His lips went to my throat, and I finally let out the moan I’ve been suppressing the moment his hands touched me.

“Yes… I wore this for you…” I admitted.

Josh looked at me. “You’re not going out with Stanley!”

I sighed. I know it wasn’t a question but more like a proclamation, but I still shook my head and said softly. “No.”

Josh smiled and again went for the zipper to my dress.





Chapter 10


Kenya


Josh didn’t waste time getting the zipper down, and I didn’t stop the dress from falling. Josh’s hands roamed down my arms to my back and cupped my butt. He pulled me flush up against him and then lifted. I got the hint and wrapped my legs around his waist, and he walked us to his bedroom.

As he kissed my neck, I felt like it was time to tell him what I tried to before, however, I need to approach it differently. When we got to his room, I unraveled myself from him, and he stepped back. His eyes raked over me from head to toe, and he shook his head.

“Sweets, you are so beautiful…”

I blushed, as usual, and turned my head.

He removed his t–shirt, and I finally got to see this phenomenal upper body I knew he kept hidden behind his clothes. Josh looked like his chest was carved by God himself. He was cut everywhere and his abs, oh my…

Josh walked up to me, or rather stalked, however way you want to say it, which made me back up until I felt my legs hit his bed. Josh’s hands then ran all over my body slowly and methodically as if he was memorizing every curve I had.

I said, while he was distracted touching me, “Josh, I have to tell you that I’m not as experienced as you’re probably used to.”

Josh looked in my eyes. “I know, baby.”

He couldn’t possibly understand, I knew, and I couldn’t let him go further until he did. Josh moved his hands to the back of my head and was bringing me to his lips when I slipped away from him.

“No, Josh, just let me say this.” I took a deep breath and said, “It’s not just that I’m not as experienced. I mean, I’m not experienced at all.”

Josh’s face frowned confusion etched on his face. “I’m sorry what?”

I sighed deeply. “Technically speaking, I have never been with a man, sexually.”

Josh, probably stunned into silence, sat down on his bed. He sort of looked through me instead of at me.

“Technically speaking?”

“Okay well, technically and officially,” I added.

Josh remained silent, which was making me extremely nervous. Why in the hell did I say something? Because idiot, he would have found out on his own anyway.

I watched Josh run his hand over his face, and he sighed.

Trying not to sound panicked, I said softly, “Josh, please say something.”

He shook his head and looked at me. “I mean, what can I say? You’re telling me you’re a virgin, Sweets. You have to know that changes things.”

Oh no! Think, Summer.

I walked up to him said quickly, “No Josh, this doesn’t change anything. Okay look, this wasn’t by choice. I’ve tried to get rid of this burden… I mean, there was this one time in college…”

“Whoa, Sweets,” Josh said, quickly putting his hands up. “I really don’t need to hear about you and someone else right now or how about ever… I really don’t need that visual…”

I moved closer to him. “Okay well, what can I say to you, Josh? Because all I know is how happy I am that I get to experience this with you. You’re the one I want to give myself to, Josh. You’re the one I trust and no one else.” I ran my hands through his hair as he looked up at me. “You’re the only man I want to touch me; the only one I want to learn how to please. I want to be yours in every way. Please let me.”

Josh put his head down and then closed his eyes. I concentrated on the rise and fall of his chest as I tried not to let the anxiety creep up in me. When he looked back at me, I could see the sincerity as well as uncertainty in his eyes.

“Sweets, I’m flattered, really I am, you have no idea how much, but…”

“No, Josh, no buts.” I started pacing emphatically, waving my arms, hoping what I was about to say would convince him. “I don’t want to hear you tell me that we should wait, or that my first time should be special. To me, this is special. Being with you is what I want. I want you to be the first man to truly touch me in this way, and I want you to teach me how to please you. Don’t deny me this.”

I finally stopped in front of him when he didn’t respond to me. I met his eyes, and he intently focused on my face.

“Are you finished?” he admonished.

I nodded because quite frankly I was. I had nothing else to say to convince him. I was standing in front of him half naked, just like I was with Wayne before. If he doesn’t want me, then I’m doomed to be a virgin forever.

Josh moved me closer to him and positioned me between his legs. His hands traveled up my stocking leg to the guarder belt on my waist.

He unclipped the clasps. “As I was saying before, Sweets, I am flattered beyond belief, but…” he looked up at me and held my eyes. He then reached down and removed each of my five and a half inch heels one by one. “Did you really think you being a virgin would stop me? I’ve been thinking about this moment for a long time, and there is no way I’m not exploring this fantastic body of yours.”