Forever Light(72)

I make it back to my seat right before kickoff. I take a deep breath and push that encounter to the side. We have to show our support for Cash. He needs us all today

“Jay is here.” I announce as Macy leans into me when I sit down next to her.

I watch as Madison flinches. “Here? In Texas?”

I lean over and whisper in her ear. “Relax, okay? There’s security everywhere and he’d be stupid to try anything. He’s probably just here to watch.” I just lied. I don’t even believe myself for one second thinking he’s here just to watch the game. “I mean it, Madison. Relax.”

I watch as my teammates blow the Longhorns out of the water. We scored ten points in both the first and second quarters.

During half-time Madison asks Macy, “Did you take your test?”

I cock my head to the side and look over at Macy waiting for her to explain. I hadn’t realized she told anyone.

“I told her.” She shrugs then answers Madison. “No, but I will tomorrow when we get back. I wanted to do this first.”

I lean over and kiss Macy on the cheek. I’m glad Macy and Madison have their relationship back again. Things are still a little rocky but every day they are getting better.

It feels absolutely amazing to have things a little right with the world for once. Slowly but surely we are circling back around to what we used to be. I’d like to think that Steven is looking down on us and is proud of us. We are meant to be like this, there for each other facing our fears, reveling in our happiness, holding each other during our sorrows, and high-fiving each other over our triumphs. We had lost our way for a bit but we’re finding our way home.

The third quarter starts back up and we score another three points and seven in the fourth. The Longhorns got their single touchdown in the first quarter and couldn’t make any other plays. They won the game thirty to seven.

I’m the first one on the field to congratulate Cash. He did an amazing fucking job blowing the Longhorns away in their house. The crowd swarms in wanting Cash for interviews so I make my rounds to the other guys.

Once I’ve congratulated everyone I see Madison and Macy standing off to the side. I don’t blame them for not wanting to go into that shark tank right now. Those sports reporters will stop at nothing to get what they want.

“You ready to get out of here?” I ask them.

Madison shakes her head. “No, I’m going to wait here for him.”

“I’ve had enough excitement for one day. Take me to bed.” Macy laughs. “I barely slept and I’m exhausted.”

I look to Madison. “You going to be okay by yourself.” It makes me a little uncomfortable leaving her here but I want some alone time with Macy.

“I’m fine. Get out here.” She laughs.

“You don’t have to tell me twice.”

Madison calls over her shoulder. “Keep it on your bed though, alright?”

Macy and I laugh as we walk away with real smiles on our faces for the first time in three years.



December 31, 2013

Canby, OR



Macy, Madison and I flew back together while Cash had to catch the flight with the team. The first thing that Macy and I did when we dropped Madison off at their parents’ house was go to the store for a pregnancy test. When we woke up this morning Macy threw up. She blamed it on her nerves because she hates to fly. I’ve realized that Macy is avoiding this test. She’s afraid of the outcome, afraid that if it is positive that she’ll have pushed me too far and lost me for good.

I called her out on it and then she blamed it on the rough sex that we had when we got back to the room last night. I chuckle to myself sitting here on my bed while Macy’s in the bathroom. When Macy and I have sex it’s always slow and gentle. Macy needs that but apparently sometimes she needs it rough.

She made me have sex with her up against the wall. It’s not the first time for us like that but what was is when she asked me to put my hand around her throat. I couldn’t do it at first, this is the way with Macy but she wasn’t having it. So I did it. It was hot and I think it was the best sex of my life.

Macy steps out of the bathroom and holds the test in her hand. She’s looking down at it.

“I thought you had to leave it flat for a few minutes?”

She still hasn’t looked up.

“Macy?”

Finally, she looks up and a small beautiful smile graces her face. “I didn’t need to.”

“Huh?”

She looks back down at the test and leans against the door frame. “I think it’s broken maybe.”

“Broken?” I’m getting more confused by the second.

“Can you hand me my phone?” I reach over on the bed and bring her phone to her.