Xavier FINAL(86)
“Mood swings? I read about them too.”
She laughed, “No my purse, bag, whatever it just broke. I’ve had it a year and it broke.”
“You attached to it Irish?”
“It’s a Coach knock off, no I’m not attached I just liked it.”
“Me too.”
“What?” She looked at me like I was nuts.
“It slings across your body. The strap goes right here,” I ran my finger between her breasts. “It’s hot. You’ll need another.”
“I’ll go to China town and get two.” She closed her eyes and I cupped her tit and pinched her nipple. “Xavier.”
“I can make you come like this. Let me rephrase that. I will make you come like this.”
She nodded her head up and down quickly.
“One stop first.” I sent James a message.
I looked over at her and she smiled.
“What are you thinking?”
“I can’t wait to get…” She stopped and covered her face.
I pulled her hands away, “Don’t go hiding on me now you naughty little girl.”
“I shouldn’t have done that.”
“When you want to touch me Taelyn I don’t ever want you to think it’s wrong. I want you to do exactly what you did tonight. When I want to touch you I want it the same way I don’t want to hold back.”
“It feels wrong.”
“I need you to explain what you mean. Cause right now I feel like I just got shot down and I’m not cool with that.”
She was looking at me like she was thinking about what to say and that made me even more uneasy.
“My Mom always--.”
“If you’re gonna say she warned you about boys like me I can assure you she wasn’t talking about anyone like me. She couldn’t even begin to imagine the shit I want to do with you, to you.”
She smiled and took my hand. “Okay that makes me a little nervous.”
“Shouldn’t make you nervous. It should excite the hell out of you.”
She giggled and looked at me, “She said if I want something in my life I’d never experienced I had to do try things I had never tried.”
“Well damn I think I was wrong about your Mom.”
“You’d like her.”
“I like you.”
“I like you too.”
“Good, because I can’t get enough of you.”
“I just can’t believe.” She looked down at our hands and sat back, “Never mind.”
“Don’t do that. Talk to me. I can handle it. Whatever you have to say isn’t any worse than what I’m thinking you’re gonna say. I’ve never been so wide open to anyone Taelyn.”
“Less than three weeks ago I met you. I thought you were an ass--.”
“But you wanted me.”
“I found you attractive. I may have been curious about you but I was so sure of my relationship with Daniel.”
My entire body tensed at the sound of his name.
She squeezed my hand. “I’m not saying this to make you angry.”
“I’m not angry. What I am is--.”
“I feel very vulnerable. Like I should still be healing but instead I let a wound lay open inviting a more terrible disease to take over. One that it far more powerful. One that could hurt me so much more.”
“I’m that infection?”
“Yes.”
“What if I’m the cure for whatever disease it is you’re so afraid of?”
“What if I’m that to you? Xavier, I’m going to be honest here. I like you too much. I don’t want you to be a rebound. You are all consuming. You demand that. I never thought it would be okay with me but I love the way it feels. I like knowing that I can say what I want to say to you and you don’t find it offensive. I like that you want to take care of things but I can’t let you take over completely because you aren’t a rebound buddy. You’re –amazing. I know what you do and don’t want and I like who you are too much to expect any part of you to change. I don’t think I can possibly be enough for you.”