Three Thousand Miles(4)

“I have to go now sweetie, is there anything I can bring you?”

“No, I am fine will you be back later?”

“Yes around five,” she kisses me on the forehead while she lifts her handbag from the table. She walks over to the door and smiles back at me as she heads out of the room.

When she is gone, I switch on the blackberry first and wait impatiently as it loads. When the screen comes on, I immediately check to see if there are any missed calls but there are none. I also check my texts but again there are none. I load my emails and sign in to find that I have over one hundred unread messages. I quickly scroll through them to see that I have a message from everyone except Adrian! My heart breaks as I come to fact that he has not contacted me. My stomach aches from the pain but the agony I feel about losing Adrian is far superior. I go out of my emails and into the call log; I seek out Adrian’s number and push send. I hold the phone to my ear as it rings and I hope for my sanity that he answers. The phone rings constantly but he does not answer. I hang up and try again but still no answer. After ten missed calls, I decide to text him instead. I quickly click on the message tab and I compose a text to Adrian,

Adrian I have tried to call you but you do not answer. I am worried why you are not here with me. The last time we spoke, you were here in New York and I cannot tell you how happy that made me. I want you to know that I am going to be fine and I do not blame you for this in anyway. I miss you and I need you please Adrian let me know that you are safe and that you still love me. I will not live without you, as you are my world. I love you and I will wait for your call all my love Alanna!

As I hit send, I cannot hold back my tears, they are flowing freely down my face, and I sob for what seems like hours. My tears finally stop and I pull myself up into the bed. I go back into my emails but there is none from Adrian. Thinking of my friends and of how worried they must be I open an email from Sophie to read,

Alanna I am so worried about you, I have been to your bedside every day and I cannot wait to hear your voice again. Everyone is wishing for you to get well soon. We all miss you and we are all waiting for you to get better and start to boss us around again!

Instead of replying to Sophie’s email, I decide that I will call her. She obviously does not know that I have woken up and I want to hear her voice I also feel that maybe she could know where Adrian is.

“Hello Alanna!” Sophie says and her voice is loud and gleeful.

“Yes Sophie it’s me.”

“Oh Alanna I am so relieved that you are okay, you are ok aren’t you?”

“Yes I am fine, a bit sore but I’m good.”

“I am so glad to hear your voice I can’t believe what happened to you.”

“I know it was awful. Sophie, have you heard from Adrian?”

“Alanna, it was more than awful I thought you were going to die!”

“But I didn’t I am fine and we have to move on from it now.”

“Alanna, I can’t understand how you are so calm about this. If it were me I would be a mess.”

“I have to be ok with it. It happened and I have to accept it.”

“You are the bravest person I know!”

“Anyway Sophie have you heard anything from Adrian?”

“He still hasn’t showed up?”

“No, I am worried have you spoken to him?”

“Alanna, the last time I spoke to him was after your surgery.”

“What did he say? You have to tell me everything!”

“I will Alanna but not over the phone are you allowed visitors?”

“I think so my mom was here all day.”

“Okay I won’t be long.”

I hang up the phone and I wonder what Sophie has to say. She must know more than my mom if she did not then she would just have told me on the phone.

“Miss Hart your lunch,” a small older nurse says as she walks in with a tray of food. She slides over the table and I sit up fully in the bed. She hands me a tray of food consisting of soup and yogurt I look at her.

“This isn’t what I ordered!”

“Sorry dear but the doctor has ordered this for you. He feels that what you originally chose would have been too heavy for you with the pills you are on.” I roll my eyes a little. I am starving and this little bowl of soup and the tiniest yogurt I have ever seen are most definitely not going to fill me.

“Thanks, I guess,” she smiles at me and then she heads back out of the room. I sip at the bowl of soup that has no taste. I remember the wonderful meals that Maggie prepared for me and I think back to the first night that I ate with Adrian. The massive, elegant, silver trays that were filled with every kind of food. I remember his voice and the way his eyes glowed. The first time he kissed me was that night and it was like fireworks. I am brought out of my thoughts by a knock at the door.