Forever Light(17)

I cup her breast in each of my hands and take one of her nipples into my mouth. I kiss it, swirl my tongue around it a few times before moving on to the other one. I start to make my way down her stomach but she puts her hand under my chin and stops me.

“My turn.”

My heartbeat picks up a beat.

I lie back on my bed as Macy climbs between my legs. She kisses me until her mouth reaches the waistband of my boxers. My dick is straining against them and it jumps as she kisses the head. Too worked up to take this slow I lift my hips and start sliding my boxers off not even waiting for her to move.

Macy leans forward and licks the bead of pre-come before she lowers her mouth onto me. I groan as shivers rack my body. She sucks me in until I feel the back of her throat. My hips arch off the bed wanting to go deeper but Macy places a tiny hand on my stomach stopping me. Once she knows I got the message she slips her hand down and wraps it around the base of my dick. She pumps her hand up and down while bobbing her head at the same time. My breathing is shallow and I’m close but I don’t want to come in her mouth. I’m just about to tell her to stop as she slows down and then swirls her tongue around the tip.

“Baby,” I pant.

Macy looks up at me with innocent eyes. She presses my dick forward and licks the underside causing my stomach muscles to clench. I can’t take it any longer. I reach down grabbing her under the arms pulling her towards me and then rolling us so I’m on top of her.

“My turn.”

I lean up but she grabs my wrist, “No, I just need you now.”

Nodding because I understand what she means.

I cover her body with mine once more but not before sliding a condom on. I can’t wait another second to be inside her. I move my hands and position her hips so that my head is at her entrance. Pushing in very slowly my eyes squeeze shut from the tight sensation. I wait a second giving her a chance to adjust before pulling almost all the way out and slamming back into her again. I lean down and rest my forehead against Macy’s rocking back and forth. Our eyes lock and the intense raw emotions are almost too much. Macy feels it too as tears pool in her eyes. This is the “us” from our first time. Nothing is tainting our lives in this moment.

Tears slip down her cheeks and she reaches up to wipe them away. “Don’t cry.”

Macy gives me a sad smile before wrapping her arms around my neck and pulling me closer to her. I can feel her heartbeat against my chest, that’s how close we are. She’s anchoring herself to me for however long this lasts.

Her body racks with sobs and I almost stop but then her hips starts meeting mine thrust for thrust. My body starts humming from the state of ecstasy she’s propelled me into and my tempo speeds up.

“I love you, Landon.” Macy’s muffled voice breaks through my fog.

Leaning up on my elbows I tell her what she needs to hear in this moment. “I love you, too.”

I shouldn’t have told her that but I do love Macy. I wish that I didn’t because I can’t ask her to live her life with me. I’ll just drag her down and she doesn’t deserve that. I’m too fucked up.

Macy’s body stills and her eyes fix on mine for just a second before she’s clinching around me. The sensation does me in and I pump faster and my release hits hard. My vision gets spotty as I continue to rock in Macy at a slower pace. My body gives out and I collapse on top of her. She runs her finger nails up and down my back as I try and get my breathing under control.

“Fuck,” I pant out. “I never wanted it to end.”

Macy doesn’t respond. She knows me all too well, she’s waiting for that wall to go up and block the world out.

I slip from Macy’s body with a hiss missing her warmth already and pull her to me. We wrap our arms around each other and fall asleep eventually listening to each other’s breathing.



September 23, 2013



I pull my cell phone out of my pocket and curse. I’m late meeting Jay, he hates that shit and I doubt he’s still waiting for me. I got held up by my professor. She’s concerned about me and my grades. Hell, I’m concerned about them, too. No matter what I do I feel like I’m always one step behind. I’m passing but just barely and I have to keep my grades up in order to keep my scholarship. I promised I’d get some help, it was a lie but she bought it. I don’t have time for help.

I walk quickly just off the quad in my normal meeting place with Jay and thankful he’s still there. I hand him the money, he hands me the weed and I take off in the other direction in a hurry because I’m going to be late for practice.

Colton and Jet greet me when I walk in. I throw my bag on the bench and pull out some clothes. The locker room is mostly empty except for Cash who is still getting changed himself.