Darkest Before Dawn (A Guardian's Diary Book 1)(27)

I pulled on one of his large shirts, and used a belt to keep it in place. I walked to the window and quietly slid it open, before climbing out and lowering myself to a second story rooftop. I tried to hold on to get to the other roof that sloped nearby. Something wasn’t right with Jaeden or any of the people here, and until I could figure it out, I needed to get away from them. I slid down the roof until I found an overhang, which was low enough to the ground that I could jump safely. I didn’t land gracefully; instead I landed on my ass in a bone-jarring fall. I stood up and pulled most of the leaves from my hair before turning to the woods.

I set off in the direction of the shelter, with the hope that Addy was safe and unharmed, that I hadn’t killed my best friend in an attempt to save her.





Chapter 14





The walk back to the shelter was an intense experience that took every scrap of patience and self-control I had. The sun was blinding and the sound of nature was deafening. I could hear the bugs, the animals, and see every tiny detail of the things that I had never noticed or were hidden to me before. I tripped several times, and each time I struggled to get back up as I made my way through the dense forest. It was a bit of an out of body experience as I felt like I didn’t have complete control over myself, my limbs, or my senses. Nothing. Maybe this was what it was like to be reborn. I covered my ears with my hands as I got closer and the shelter and the blaring noise of music assaulted me.

When I got through the brush, it was to find all of the residents of the shelter outside, with Lachlan seated at a picnic bench with Addy. In his lap no less! I struggled to make my legs move, and when Lachlan’s eyes zeroed in on me, it was intense. He stood too fast, which deposited Addy flat on her ass. Good, she deserved it for leaving me with Jaeden.

“Emma, stop. Dinnae make me do something we will both regret,” he warned.

I blinked at him in confusion. “This is my home!” I growled.

“Emma,” Addy whispered and tried to get past Lachlan as he held her back. His men stood with weapons at the ready. To attack me?

“What the hell do you think you’re all doing here? I’ve only been gone one night and you all move in? I seriously think you should reconsider shit.” Oh yeah I was angry, years of hard work, training, everything I knew was being tipped over and trampled on.

Addy stopped struggling and looked at me in shock. “Emma, you’ve been gone for over two weeks.” My heart stuttered as my head swam at this news.

“Bullshit,” I argued.

“Emma,” Jaeden called as he walked in on the precariously volatile situation. “Why’d you leave my bed?” His voice was filled with concern as I tried very hard not to reach out and throttle him.

I blushed from head to toe before scowling at him. I heard the gasps and comments which started to buzz right after the words slipped from his lips. I shook my head, and fought against the tears of anger. “Tell them it’s only been one day that I’ve been gone!”

“Emma,” he said as his eyes moved to Lachlan with a nasty glare that should have flattened him.

“Tell them!”

“Emma, you were severely injured,” he explained. “It took us a long time to fix you.”

“And she’s fixed, isnae she?” Lachlan spat out as if it was distasteful on his tongue.

“No, she’s just as she was before,” Jaeden looked meaningfully at Lachlan. “It’s a fucking miracle.”

“That’s bullshit ‘n ye ken it,” Lachlan growled.

I watched as Lachlan cut his forearm open and held it up in my direction.

“That’s crazy!” I snapped, pointing at Lachlan in disbelief. “Why the friggin’ hell would you do that?” I watched as his eyes narrowed and then grew wide. Addy stepped a good foot away from him, and looked from Lachlan to Jaeden. “I’m not sure what the hell you guys’ fetish with blood is, but it’s seriously disturbing.”



“That’s impossible, I saw her fall. Nae one could live through that,” Lachlan snapped.

I turned and looked at Jaeden as he watched me carefully. Was he expecting a reaction? Was I? I felt different; weird, strange, changed, and yet I was still me. Not that he could change me, but something inside was very different. I felt more alive, and more aware of my surroundings. I could also taste the anticipation and turmoil coming off Lachlan’s men, as well as uneasiness from Jaeden, directed at me.

I turned and looked at him. Really looked at him. He was beautiful, but deadly. I knew he was deadly, just not why he was. He could fight, sure. I’d seen him in action. He’d saved my ass, and yet there was something else I should know, but didn’t. There was something far more than the surface showed. I tilted my head, and watched as his eyes lowered down my body. There was something in the back of my mind that wouldn’t come out. Something that I should remember, but didn’t.

I could hear his heart beating, but I had to determine mine from his. I stepped closer, but then caught myself. “What type of blood did you give me exactly?” I asked as the weakness started to take hold of me again.

“I gave you a transfusion,” he replied, but I could tell that there was a gigantic something he was leaving out. I could hear it in his tone, in his voice. “You should get dressed in something other than my shirt, Emma.”

I looked down and yup, I was pretty damn sure it was still his shirt I wore while I argued with a bunch of men. I’d stolen his shirt and snuck away from his house like a thief. I wavered on my legs and he was there, catching and holding me upright. He barked out orders, which my people jumped into action with. He was a natural born leader, unlike me who fumbled with it.

“You can’t order them around,” I whispered as I lifted my face to his. His blue green eyes locked on to mine and he smiled.

“Just did,” he confirmed.

“I feel funny,” I admitted.

“Horny? Or just funny as in strange, Emma?”

“Why would I be horny?” I asked as heat flushed across my face at his question.

“Do you have any idea how hard it was to treat your naked body, without touching it? Even when you begged me to do it,” he whispered against my ear.

“If I was dying to the point I needed a transfusion, why the hell would I be begging you to bang me?” I whispered back, way beyond confused at the weirdness of this conversation.

He smiled, his lips pressed firmly against my ear as he opened his mouth to tease it. I moaned and jerked back from him as if he’d set fire to my skin. I was flushed, and wet, which sucked since I wore nothing under his shirt. His touch sent every nerve in my body to the ready, and he knew it. I could see it in the confident look he awarded me with.

“I saved your life, Emma,” he whispered.

“I know that,” I replied. I did, but if he thought that was going to get him laid, he was wrong. Why was my body on fire? By fire, I mean I felt as if I was burning alive. Moisture had pooled between my thighs along with a hammering heartbeat that was pulsing in my vagina. I wiped the sweat from my forehead which made the shirt rise.

He was fast as he pulled it back down and looked over my head. “I’ll expect you to come to me when you are fully healed, or if you have questions of how you are alive.”

“Why would I question the fact that I’m alive? I’m thankful, Jaeden, really, I am. I’m not gonna do the humpty dance with you as a thank you. I’ve told you before, I’m not that girl. If I want to fuck you, I will.”



“Do you want to? Fuck me that is,” he smiled seductively.

“That depends on if you really bit me.” I swallowed hard as I recalled an image from his bedroom and my time there.

His face went blank, and Lachlan, who I hadn’t heard move at all, placed his bleeding arm in front of my face. “Eww! What is your problem? Seriously! Stop it.” What the fuck did they think I was a vampire…? I snapped my eyes at Jaeden accusingly.

“You bit me! The blood, and oh my god! Please tell me you didn’t feed….wait!” I looked from Lachlan who I had a flash image in my head of green eyes of the wolf in the woods. I turned to Jaeden who was watching me. “Am I on pain medicine?” I asked; because that shit could make you think some weird shit. It had to be meds; it was the only thing that made sense. Because right now, I was seriously tripping.

“I gave you something for the pain, yes,” Jaeden supplied cautiously.

“Emma,” Addy came up behind me with a robe. “I’ve been so worried about you,” she breathed as she threw her arms around me. “I thought you were dead, and nobody said anything!” she sniffed, holding back tears.

Jaeden hadn’t told her I was alive? Didn’t he think I would make it? I looked over her head at him and narrowed my eyes. “Why didn’t you tell her anything?”

“Because we didn’t know if you’d make it or not,” he replied simply.

“Right, but nothing? You couldn’t tell them anything at all? Dick move,” I bit out.

He smiled but other than that, his eyes just watched me. I could smell everything about Addy, her fear, and happiness. I sniffed her, and caught myself doing it. “You’re fucking him?” I asked and leveled a murderous look at Lachlan.