Complicate Me(29)

“Yeah the only ones that don’t seem to know are your good ol’ boys.”

I sighed as we both looked over at Lucas, who was now sucking face with the same girl.

“Ugh! He’s an asshole,” she breathed out.

“Legit.”

She linked her arm with mine, turning us around to walk toward the doors to leave. “Come on, no need to watch the shit show that he so desperately wants you to see,” she dramatically stated.

“You think?”

She shook her head and glanced over at me. “No, doll, I know. You have so much to learn about boys, Alex, so much,” she exasperated.

Maybe she was right.

And it only added to the sting I felt in my heart.





I knew she watched from afar. She was always watching from afar. It made it easier for me to behave the way I was. Bad. It was a mixture of being torn, confused, angry, and just plain hatred. Not toward Alex but for the situation at hand.

No, I’m lying.

I fucking hated Cole.

Maybe a part of it was also spite and heartbreak. Things were never the same after we left our abandoned house.

I was over the games.

I was over the bullshit.

I was over the back and forth mess between us.

I needed to feel in control again, so I did the only thing that I could. I pulled away from her. It made things simpler that way. I didn’t have to watch her and Cole become closer, but looking away sure as shit didn’t take away the pain it caused me. I despised him. I loathed him now more than ever. He took her away from me, and I never thought that would happen. The boys never called me out on the fact that I went from just having sex with Stacey to sleeping with any girl that would open her legs to me.

And trust me they did.

It took away the emptiness I felt in my heart. The space that seemed hollow without her.

“You smell nice,” I murmured to the side of Celeste’s neck with my lips.

She giggled. They always giggled. High school gossip ran rapidly and my reputation grew overnight. I never felt bad about what I did. They knew what I wanted and pretty much threw themselves at me. I didn’t do relationships, they knew that too.

“What are you doing tonight?” I asked, trailing soft kisses down the spot under her ear.

She shivered. “Anything you want.”

I smiled against her skin. “Good, I want you.” I pulled back and brought my mouth up to meet hers. She tasted like cherry lip-gloss, which immediately made me think of Alex. I couldn’t get away from her and a huge part of me didn’t want to. The bulge forming in my pants was from the taste of the lip-gloss, not this girl.

It was Friday and the end of the day, teachers wanted to get the fuck out of here faster than the students. Or else I may have gotten in trouble for sucking on her tongue on school property, which happened before.

A lot.

“Come on,” I whispered into her mouth, grabbing her hand and tugging her with me.

I caught Alex and Aubrey walking side-by-side a few feet in front of us, and I would be lying if I said it didn’t kill me to not be the one walking by her instead of Aubrey.

But that was another time.

We weren’t there anymore.

I walked faster and with purpose, and I felt Alex’s eyes burning a hole in my back as we made it out to my truck. Celeste jumped in, and I followed suit. I tried not to acknowledge the sad look on Alex’s face as we drove away.

We went back to her house and got right down to business once we entered her bedroom. Good thing her parents weren’t home. I kicked the door closed with my foot as I took her in my arms. Laying my body on top of hers, we started to make out on her bed. Which quickly led to her only wearing her bra and panties and me with no shirt.

I cupped her breast through the lace material and she moaned in my mouth, beckoning me to linger.

“Is this okay?” I groaned, asking her anyways. I wasn’t a total asshole.

“Yes…”

Her bra came off, and I softly made my way down to her breast, licking her nipple before sucking it into my mouth, making her back arch off the bed.

My assault continued toward the edge of her panties. “What about this?” I rasped, peering up at her, faintly blowing on her other nipple.

She nodded, not being able to form words while she licked her lips from the delicious torment I incited through the lace of her panties. I pushed aside the silky fabric, touching the moisture that pooled in between her folds.

“You’re so fucking wet,” I breathed out, repositioning my body on top of hers and shoving my tongue into her awaiting mouth.

“Play with me,” she encouraged against my lips, and I did just that.

I stimulated her clit with the palm of my hand, getting her ready before I pushed my index and middle fingers into her tight heat, fighting the urge to not give her the shocker.

“That feel good?”

“Yes,” she purred.

I finger fucked her until she shuddered beneath me, closer and closer to the brink of climax that I delivered.

“Do you have a condom?” she huskily whispered. Her head rolled back while her hips rocked back and forth fucking my fingers.

I didn’t have to be asked twice.

She came hard and fast, exactly how I craved. I sheathed myself, not bothering to completely take off my jeans. I flipped us over so that she was now on top ready to ride me. She effortlessly slid herself down my shaft.

“Fuck,” I growled, big and throaty, gripping onto her hips and gliding her the way I wanted.

She placed her hands on my chest, and I loved feeling the weight of her against my ribs. It made it much easier for her to ride my cock.

“Fuck, that feels good,” I groaned, making her smile. She bit her lower lip, and I shut my eyes. It didn’t take long for me to picture someone else.

I don’t have to tell you who that was.

There were times when this happened. As always, it was replaced with images of her with someone else, someone that wasn’t me. The thought was always too much to bear. It released a primal urge to literally want to fuck her out of my system, and heart. I immediately opened my eyes and peered back to the reality playing out before me. It was simpler.

“Where did you go?”

I shook it off and flipped her over to thrust her harder and with more determination.

“Don’t worry about it, baby.”

I kissed her just to feel anything other than what was going through me. Angling her leg higher I tried to hit the sweet spot against the head of my dick. It always made them come, taking me right with them. She shivered and pulsated, as her pussy gripped my dick like a goddamn glove, I thrust in her a few more times. We simultaneously found our release together, falling right on top of her. With my body sweating and my balls empty, I decided to spend the rest of the afternoon.

Wrapped inside her pussy.





Alex working at the restaurant was supposed to be a summer job, but we were more than halfway through the school year and she was still working there. Not sure exactly why she still did, but I assumed it had something to do with me.

At least I hoped it did.

I started looking at colleges to apply to. After much thought and serious consideration, I decided that I wanted to get the hell out of Oak Island and North Carolina in general. I didn’t foresee anything changing between Alex and I. I imagined it would be easier if I didn’t have to see her every day. I knew her and Cole were getting closer because the boys talked about it. For some unknown reason, they fucking liked him, too. I figured it was only a matter of time before they started dating.

I sure as shit wasn’t going to stand by and watch that happen. One more year and I could get the fuck out of here, away from her and the inevitable fact that they might actually end up together.

I sat looking at colleges with the boys at our usual table, even though I tried to avoid being in situations where we were near each other. I expected the boys to call me out on it, but they never did. I blamed it on us being busy with our own lives and deciding where we would be going to college since it was fast approaching.

“Hey,” Alex said to all of us, but I couldn’t look up from the catalog in front of me. There was too much that would be written all over my face. I felt her eyes on me nonetheless.

Maybe she didn’t have that problem.

It hurt either way.

“I’ll put in your usual’s,” she added.

“Don’t bother with mine. I’m not hungry,” I replied, turning the page and not paying her any mind.

She didn’t say anything, but she didn’t have to. I already knew what she thought. She knew I loved it when she fed me, I told her often. When I heard her footsteps leave I finally looked up and right at Aubrey, who sat in front of me, scowling.

I raised an eyebrow and cocked my head to the side, and she challenged me right back like she knew. I immediately looked over at the boys, alarmed that they were staring at me the same way but they weren’t. I locked eyes with Aubrey again and she shook her head no, silently answering my question.

“I’m going to go to the bathroom,” she said to Dylan, but it was really meant for me.

I waited a few minutes, debating on what to do. In the end, my curiosity peeked more than my reasoning, and I followed her down the hall.

“Stop being a dick to her,” Aubrey roared from behind me. She hid behind a blocked wall by the payphone. No one could see us unless they needed to use the phone.

“What the fuck are you talking about?” I questioned, taken aback.