Alexia Eden(103)

“I understand Lex, he just went too far this time, I get it. You’re not a slut, you are surrounded by gorgeous guys, of course you’re going crush on a few. You’re young and haven’t really experienced as much as the rest of us so now that you are doing things you usually wouldn’t do, you’re belittling yourself. You aren’t like that whore Chelsea, you’re so much better than that! You are allowed to have a little fun Lex and maybe along the way you will meet the right guy…if you haven’t already. Jax is going to regret fucking this up with you, because he missed out on someone great! I have your back girl, guess that means more time with me if you’re not going to be spending all your extra time with Jax now.” She teases.

“Sorry Ron, you still gotta fight Drake for my time while I'm here.” I giggle.

I hear footsteps coming up the stairs to the front porch outside. Drake appears in the door way and I run up to him and jump into his outstretched arms.

“Lex! Ah I missed you so much babe!” he says as he swings me around in his arms, I hear his deep inhale as he breaths in my scent.

“Missed you too.” I speak into his chest.

“I'm going to go and let you two catch up, don't forget our dinner tomorrow night and you both are coming – no excuses or I’ll carry you there myself.” Ronny says as she walks past me.

Drake drops his bag off in my room and then heads back into the kitchen as I'm cleaning the dishes. Its dark outside now but the evening is still pretty hot. Drake comes behind me and wraps his arms around my waist, I turn to look into his eyes and he gives me a soft kiss. I’m so nervous about talking to him and I guess deep down I’m a little afraid of what he might do or say. He promised never to hurt me again and I believe him but there’s a little part of me that doesn’t trust him to keep his wolf from taking over.

He lifts me up and sits me on the table and slides his large hard body between my legs. His hands are on the underside of my knees as his lips kiss down my neck before meeting my lips.

He’s pushing harder and harder against me and I can feel he wants to do more but I can’t continue this without telling him about the kiss I shared with the twins and the feelings involved. I don’t feel the intense need and sparks with Drake as I do when I’m with the twins, its just not there anymore. Maybe Talon was right after all. I pull away from him breathing hard and I rest my head on his shoulder.

“I’m going to shower, I’ll be quick I promise.” I say as I give him another quick peck and make my way to the bathroom.

After I finish showering and getting dressed, I make my way to my room to find Drake sitting on my bed with my phone in his hands. Even though I always delete any messages I get from Alex, Johnny or the twins I also have a lock code on my phone in case I let a message slip by undeleted.

I’m not sure why he’s holding my phone in his hands, and he doesn’t seem fazed that I caught him with it. “Why do you have a lock code on your phone?” he asks me.

“Because I do? Why do you have my phone?” I ask him snatching it from his tight grip and putting it on charge on the other side of the bed.

“Because I do?” he echoes in a cocky tone.

I figured this is the best time to spill the beans so I stand in front of him and say. “We need to talk Drake.”

“What?” he says flatly.

“We need to talk about us and what’s happening with us. I know I love you there’s no denying it but I’m not sure we should…I mean…argh.” I stumble with my words.

“Spit it out!” Drake roars.

“My head is so messed up…I’m so conflicted and I don’t know what the fuck I’m feeling anymore. You know I care about you but I also-”

“Is this about Jax? You love him too? I saw how you two were those days before you left, I’m not stupid Alexia.” Drake spits out.

“No…I mean yes, it is about him too. I do care for him and I think I do care for him more than you would a friend but that’s just it. If I was so in love with you then how can I fall for someone else when I have you?” I push my hair out of my face as I pace the room.

“You do love me Lexi, you do! I don’t care what feelings you have for Jax, you’re mine! I know you love me, I love you and you know that too!” he shouts as he stands up from the bed. I turn and watch as his chest rises and falls with his deep breaths.

“No I don’t think that’s it. Of course I love you and care for you but I’m not sure I’m in love with you. If I was in love with you then I wouldn’t of kissed-” I love up to Drake just in time for him to gasp and his eyes to widen, I cover my mouth. “Shit”