Underestimated Too(105)

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I really hoped her brother Justin would be at the funeral. I could tell she was looking around for him. He never showed, not that I was all that surprised, Callaway wasn’t the most liked man in Vegas.

I was going to do everything I could do to keep Morgan right here in Vegas with me. She belonged with me. She didn’t belong in Maine with that cheating ass.”

‘You cheated too, Drew,’ I reminded him. I liked being on the phone and not in front of him. I felt like I could say more without his eyes being on me.

“Yes, I know. I did it, but not after I fell in love with you. I did it when I was young and pissed that I was being forced to marry you, and I thought I loved Skyler. I never loved Skyler, not like I love you, Morgan. And if you want me to get technical about it I can. You did it too. You cheated on me as much as I cheated on you.”

“Really, Drew? You’re going to play that card? I hated you, I left you, I wasn’t with you anymore, and I don’t feel as though I cheated on you at all.”

“You think that’s how it was, Morgan? You don’t think the nine fucking months that I spent waiting, trying to let you make your own choice wasn’t cheating? You fucked us both for practically your whole pregnancy.”

“How do you think that what you did was any different from what Drew did?” Deidra asked. Was she really going to take his side?

“You have no idea what went on in this house for six years. You have no right to judge me for anything,” I yelled getting angry. Yes. I liked the phone barrier that we now had.

“I don’t know because every time I ask you to talk, you shuffle it over to Drew. You don’t want to talk, and I can’t make you. Do I think Drew has issues? Hell yeah I do, but so do you.”

“My issues stem from Drew,” I argued. Was she really going to jump on his bandwagon? How dare she. We were friends. We had drinks together.

“I’m sure you have issues from Drew, but I don’t think they all came from him. I think you had abandonment issues long before Drew. I think they emanate from early on in your childhood, starting with your grandmother Joyce.”

“You know nothing about my grandmother.”

“I know you told me she was the only one who ever cared, the only one who was ever there for you, and I know she was the first person that left you that cared about you.”

“I cared about my mother and brother.”

“I didn’t say who you cared about. I said who cared about you. You’re mother left you to tend to an infant while she was out drinking.”

“She has nothing to do with Drew and me. We’ve mended our fences.”

“Morgan, you don’t have to get defensive with me. I’m not saying that the relationship you have with your mother now is not amazing. I’m saying that you too have buried issues that you’re not willing to let go of. Like your part in leading two men on while you were pregnant.”

“That is not how it was. That was all Drew’s fault. I was doing just fine staying away from him. He’s the one that wouldn’t leave me alone long enough to figure things out.”

“Morgan, you’re not seeing things from how they really went down,” Drew debated.

“Yes, I am. You’re not seeing things from how they really were. I never called you. You always called me.”

“And when I didn’t, you gave me hell. Did you really think I was going to lie down and let you be with that cheating slime ball? You wouldn’t let me lay down. You didn’t have to jump on a plane and go every time I told you to, but you did. You came to me, fucked me like no one else, and told me that you loved me, many times. Remember that, Morgan?”

Well, hell.

“You think I wasn’t going off the deep end, thinking about that lowlife being in bed with you? I made myself sick, thinking about him kissing all over you and then hopping next door.”

“So this is something that you harbor ill feelings towards Morgan over?” Deidra asked.

“Fuck yes, I do. She kept us both on a string until she knew who fathered Nicholas.”

“And what if Nicholas would have belonged to Dawson, would you have left her alone then?”

“Probably not,” Drew replied in a defeated tone.

“You were willing to raise another man’s child just to have Morgan?”

“Yes. I would do anything to keep Morgan. I didn’t care about what blood ran through Nicholas’s veins. He’s mine. He’ll always be mine.”

“Nobody’s taking Nicky from you, Drew,” I said through the phone. I would never be one of those mothers who put their child in the middle. Nicky loved his daddy, anybody could see that.