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"I don't want her to go …  but I also know that she needs her mom."

"What does that mean?"

"I don't know. I guess it's something we'll be discussing. To be honest, I don't know anything about this entire process."

"Have you spoken to an attorney yet?"

"No," I said. "She didn't mention divorce until yesterday. And before that, I was in no condition to do much of anything."

By then, I could see the clubhouse in the distance. I wasn't sure how  far we'd walked, but we'd been out there for over an hour. My stomach  gurgled.

Emily must have heard it. "Are you hungry? Why don't we grab a bite to eat?"

"I don't think we're dressed for the country club."

"We'll sit in the bar area. It's casual. It's where golfers end up after they finish their rounds."

As much as the walk with Emily had felt necessary, having lunch-just the  two of us, at the club-made me feel as though I was crossing a boundary  of sorts. I was still married. Vivian and I weren't even legally  separated. Hence, this was wrong.

And yet …

The other side of the equation was obvious, even to me. What would  Vivian say to me if she found out? That I was crossing a line? That  rumors would start?

I cleared my throat. "Lunch sounds great."





The clubhouse was imposing and somewhat stuffy on the outside, but the  interior had been recently renovated and was lighter and airier than I'd  expected. Windows lined two of the walls, offering a spectacular view  of the eighteenth hole. I spotted a foursome making their way to the  putting green as Emily pointed to a table in the corner, one of the few  that wasn't already occupied.

"How about over there?" she said.

"Fine."

I followed her to the table, my eyes drifting lower to the once-familiar  contours of her legs, glad she was in shorts. They were tan and lean,  the kind of legs that had always caught my eye.

After we sat, she leaned across the table. "I told you we wouldn't be  underdressed. That group just came in from the tennis courts."

"I didn't notice," I said. "But good to know."

"Have you ever eaten here?"

"Once, in the dining room. Jesse Peters has a membership here and we met with a client."

"I see him every now and then. Or used to anyway. I would catch him staring at me."

"That sounds like him."

"Oh, if you're interested, the burger here is out of this world," she  said. "The chef actually won a burger competition on one of those shows  on the Food Network. It comes with some amazing sweet potato fries."

"I haven't had a burger in a long time," I said. "Is that what you're getting?"

"Of course."

I couldn't help noting that Vivian would never have ordered a burger, nor would she have approved if I'd ordered one.

The waitress came by with menus, but Emily shook her head. "We're both  getting the burgers," she said. "And I'd like a glass of Chardonnay."

"Make it two," I said, surprising myself. Of course, the whole afternoon  had been bewildering to that point, but in a good way. Emily, I  noticed, was gazing out the window, toward the putting green before she  turned back to me.

"I guess our children are done with art class by now. What do you think London is doing?"         

     



 

"Vivian probably took her out to lunch. As for what's next, I have no idea."

"Didn't she tell you?"

"No," I said. "Our lunch on Friday was a little tense, so we didn't get around to discussing their plans."

"They were tense with David, too, for a long time. It's just a hard and  awful thing for anyone to live through, even if it has to be done. And  only people who've gone through it can understand how terrible it really  is."

"That's not very encouraging," I said.

"It's true, though. There's no way I could have made it without the  support of some really good friends. I probably talked to both  Marguerite and Grace on the phone two or three hours a week-maybe more,  in the beginning. And what was strange was that prior to my divorce, I  wasn't particularly close to either of them. But I ended up leaning on  them, and they were always there to prop me up when I needed it."

"They sounds like lifesavers."

"They are. To this day, I'm not sure why they were there for me the way  they were. And I'm guessing that you'll probably need the same thing-two  or three people that you can really talk to. It was strange-I thought  that my sister Jess or Dianne, who was probably my best friend at the  time, would be my stalwarts. But it didn't work out that way."

"What do you mean?"

"It's hard to describe, but Marguerite and Grace always knew how to say  the right thing at the right time, in just the right way. Jess and  Dianne didn't. Sometimes, they offered advice I didn't want to hear, or  they questioned whether I was doing the right thing when what I really  needed was reassurance."

Considering this, I wondered who I would lean on. Marge and Liz,  obviously, but they sort of counted as one person. I already knew my mom  would get too emotional, and my dad wouldn't know what to say. As for  friends, it dawned on me that I didn't really have any. Between work and  my family, I'd let most of my friendships wilt on the vine in the years  since London was born.

"Marge and Liz have been great," I said.

"I figured they would be. I always liked Marge."

The feeling is mutual, I thought.

The waiter delivered two glasses of wine. Emily reached for her glass.  "We should make a toast," she said. "To Marge, Liz, Marguerite, Grace,  Bodhi, and London."

"The kids, too?"

"Bodhi was the real reason I didn't fall apart. Because of him, I couldn't. It'll be the same with London."

I knew she was right as soon as she said it. "All right. But then, I  feel like I have to put you in there, too. You've been pretty supportive  so far."

"And you can always call me any time."

We fell into small talk then. I told her about London, while she spoke  about Bodhi; she told me about some of the places she'd traveled in the  years since we'd last seen each other. Perhaps because we'd already  spoken exhaustively about Vivian and David, their names didn't come up,  and for the first time since Vivian had walked out the door, the anxiety  I'd been feeling seemed to dissipate entirely.

The burgers eventually arrived and we each ordered a second glass of  wine. The burger, as she'd predicted, was among the best I'd ever had.  It was stuffed with cheese and topped with a fried egg, but because my  recent lack of appetite had made my stomach shrink, I couldn't eat more  than half.

Our plates were cleared, but we lingered at the table, finishing our  wine. She told me a story about Bodhi giving himself a haircut, laughing  aloud when she showed me the picture on her cell phone. He'd lopped  off, nearly down to the roots, an inch-wide chunk of hair in what used  to be his bangs. His forehead shown through like a gap between teeth,  but what made the photo priceless was his grin.

"That's great," I laughed. "How were you?"

"Initially I was upset, not only about his hair but that he'd gotten  hold of the scissors in the first place. When I saw how proud of himself  he was, though, I started to laugh. The next thing I knew, we were  laughing together. Then I grabbed my phone. Now, this photo is framed  and sits on my bedside table."

"I'm not sure how I would have reacted if London had done that. And one  thing I can say for sure: Vivian would not have laughed."

"No?"

"She wasn't a big laugher." In fact, I couldn't remember the last time I'd heard her laugh.

"Even with Marge? Marge used to crack me up all the time."

"Especially with Marge. They don't really get along that well."         

     



 

"How is that possible? Does she still tease you?"

"Mercilessly."

Emily laughed again and I was reminded of how much I had always liked  the sound of her laugh, melodic and genuine at the same time.

"You know what?" she said. "This day turned out a lot better than I  thought it would. If you hadn't come along, I don't know what I'd be  doing. Probably staring at my paintings in frustration. Or cleaning the  house."

"I'd probably be working."

"This is way better."

"Agreed. Would you like another glass?"

"Of course," she said. "But I won't. I have to drive. But go ahead if you want one."

"I'm fine, too. What are you doing tonight?"

"Like you, I'll be hanging out with my sister. You remember Jess? She and Brian invited me to dinner."

"That sounds fun."

"Mmm …  not so sure. I sometimes wonder if Brian thinks I'm putting ideas in Jess's head. Like about getting divorced."

"Are they having troubles?"

"All married couples have troubles now and then. It kind of goes with the institution itself."