The Husband's Secret(53)
There was much shrieking. Husbands were telephoned. Lifts home were negotiated. Rachel sat on the couch happily eating her way through her pile of chocolate coins.
“What about you, Rachel? Have you arranged a lift home?” said Cecilia, when Marla was at the front door shouting good-byes to her tennis friends. Cecilia had all her Tupperware packed away into her black bag and was still as immaculate as at the start of the night, except for two spots of color high on her cheeks.
“Me?” Rachel looked around and realized she was the last guest. “I’m fine. I’ll drive home.”
For some reason it hadn’t really occurred to her that she needed to find a way to get home too. It was something to do with her sense of always feeling separate from everybody else, as if things that worried them couldn’t possibly worry her, as if she were immune from the ordinariness of life.
“Don’t be ridiculous!” Marla swooped back into the room. The night had been a triumph. “You can’t drive, you crazy girl! You’d be way over the limit. Mac can drive you home. He hasn’t got anything better to do.”
“That’s okay. I’ll catch a cab.” Rachel roused herself. Her head did feel fuzzy. She didn’t want Mac to drive her home. Mac, who had stayed in his study throughout the Tupperware party, was a man’s man and had got on great with Ed, but he was always so painfully shy in one-on-one conversations with women. It would be excruciating being alone in the car with him.
“You live down near the Wycombe Road tennis courts, don’t you, Rachel?” said Cecilia. “I’ll drive you home. You’re right on my way.”
Moments later, they’d waved Marla off and Rachel was in the passenger seat of Cecilia’s white Ford Territory with the giant Tupperware logo along the side. The car was very comfortable, quiet and clean and nice-smelling. Cecilia drove just as she did everything, capably and briskly, and Rachel put her head back against the headrest and waited for Cecilia’s reliable, soothing stream of conversation about raffles, carnivals, newsletters and everything else pertaining to St. Angela’s.
Instead, there was silence. Rachel glanced over at Cecilia’s profile. She was chewing on her bottom lip and squinting, as if at some thought that was giving her pain.
Marriage problems? Something to do with the kids? Rachel remembered all the time she used to devote to giant-seeming problems about sex, misbehaving children and misunderstood comments, broken appliances and money.
It wasn’t that she now knew those problems didn’t matter. Not at all. She longed for them to matter. She longed for the tricky tussle of life as a mother and a wife. How wonderful to be Cecilia Fitzpatrick driving home to her daughters after hosting a successful Tupperware party, worrying over whatever was quite rightfully worrying her.
In the end it was Rachel who broke the silence. “I had fun tonight,” she said. “You did a great job. No wonder you’re so successful at it.”
Cecilia gave a small shrug. “Thank you. I love it.” She gave Rachel a wry smile. “My sister makes fun of me over it.”
“Jealous,” said Rachel.
Cecilia shrugged and yawned. She seemed like a different person from the performer at Marla’s house and the woman who zoomed around St. Angela’s.
“I’d love to see your pantry,” mused Rachel. “I bet everything is all labeled and in the perfect container. Mine looks like a disaster zone.”
“I am proud of my pantry.” Cecilia smiled. “John-Paul says it’s like a filing cabinet of food. The girls get in terrible trouble if they put something back in the wrong spot.”
“How are your girls?” asked Rachel.