The Forsyte Saga, Volume 3(313)

And Dornford, on his way to Harcourt Buildings, thought even more intensively of himself and her. Rising forty! This overmastering wish of his – for its fulfilment it was now or never with him! If he were not to become set in the groove of a ‘getter-on’, he must marry and have children. Life had become a half-baked thing without Dinny to give it meaning and savour. She had become – what had she not become? And, passing through the narrow portals of Middle Temple Lane, he said to a learned brother, also moving towards his bed:

‘What’s going to win the Derby, Stubbs?’

‘God knows!’ said his learned brother, wondering why he had played that last trump when he did, instead of when he didn’t…

And in Mount Street Sir Lawrence, coming into her room to say ‘Good night’, found his wife sitting up in bed in the lace cap which always made her look so young, and, on the edge of the bed, in his black silk dressing-gown, sat down.

‘Well, Em?’

‘Dinny will have two boys and a girl.’

‘Deuce she will! That’s counting her chickens rather fast.’

‘Somebody must. Give me a nice kiss.’

Sir Lawrence stooped over and complied.

‘When she marries,’ said Lady Mont, shutting her eyes, ‘she’ll only be half there for a long time.’

‘Better half there at the beginning than not at all at the end. But what makes you think she’ll take him?’

‘My bones. We don’t like being left out when it comes to the point, Lawrence.’

‘Continuation of the species. H’m!’

‘If he’d get into a scrape, or break his leg.’

‘Better give him a hint.’

‘His liver’s sound.’

‘How do you know that?’

‘The whites of his eyes are blue. Those browny men often have livers.’

Sir Lawrence stood up.

‘My trouble,’ he said, ‘is to see Dinny sufficiently interested in herself again to get married. After all, it is a personal activity.’

‘Harridge’s for beds,’ murmured Lady Mont.

Sir Lawrence’s eyebrow rose. Em was inexhaustible!





Chapter Thirty-seven




SHE whose abstinence from interest in herself was interesting so many people, received three letters on Wednesday morning. That which she opened first said:

DINNY DARLING, –

I tried to pay, but Tony would have none of it, and went off like a rocket; so I’m a wholly unattached female again. If you hear any news of him, let me have it.

Dornford gets more ‘interesting-looking’ every day. We only talk of you, and he’s raising my salary to three hundred as compensation.

Love to you and all,

CLARE



That which she opened second said:

MY DEAR DINNY, –

I’m going to stick it here. The mare arrives on Monday. I had Muskham down yesterday, and he was jolly decent, didn’t say a word about the case. I’m trying to take up birds. There is one thing you could do for me if you would – find out who paid those costs. It’s badly on my mind.

Ever so many thanks for always being so nice to me.

Yours ever,

TONY CROOM



That which she read last said:

DINNY, MY DEAR, –

Nothing doing. He either didn’t, or else played ‘possum,’ but if so it was very good ‘possum.’ All the same, I wouldn’t put it past him that it was ‘possum.’ If you really set store by knowing, I think I should ask him point-blank. I don’t believe he would tell you a lie, even ‘a little one.’ As you know, I like him. In my avuncular opinion he is still on the gold standard.

Your ever devoted

ADRIAN



So! She felt a vague irritation. And this feeling, which she had thought momentary, she found to be recurrent. Her state of mind, indeed, like the weather, turned cold again and torpid. She wrote to Clare what Tony Croom had written of himself, and that he had not mentioned her. She wrote to Tony Croom, and neither mentioned Clare nor answered his question about the costs; she concentrated on birds – they seemed safe, and to lead nowhere. She wrote to Adrian: ‘I’m feeling I ought to be wound-up, only there’d be no dividend for the shareholders. It’s very cold and dull, my consolation is that little “Cuffs” is beginning to “sit up and take real notice” of me.’

And then, as if by arrangement with the clerk of the course at Ascot, the weather changed to ‘set warm’; and, suddenly, she wrote to Dornford. She wrote on pigs, their breeds and sties, the Government and the farmers. She ended with these words:

‘We are all very worried by not knowing who had settled the costs in my sister’s case. It is so disquieting to be under an obligation to an unknown person. Could you by any means find out for us?’ She debated some time how to sign herself in this her first letter to him, and finally wrote ‘Yours always, Dinny Charwell.’