Sinful Desires Vol. 5(3)

I put the flowers in a vase and set them on my kitchen table, then headed back out to the living room where Reed waited. His hands were in his pockets and it was then I realized that he was as nervous as I was.

“Ready?” He flashed me a charming smile and gestured toward the door.

His car was sitting at the curb, and I wasn't surprised to see that it was the latest BMW model. He wasn't a snob about the money he and his family had, but he didn't go out of his way to downplay it either. And he did like his cars. I smiled as he opened the door for me before hurried around to the driver's side.

“Since we're keeping it casual, I was thinking about Earth Bread and Brewery,” Reed said as he pulled out of his parking space.

“That sounds great,” I said. “I love their flatbread pizza.”

“And I figured a good beer might loosen things up.” He winked at me.

“Good idea.” I began to relax as we drove.

He kept the conversation casual, asking how dance was going and my job. I wasn't sure how to ask him questions about work and his life without bringing up his ended marriage or the fact that his parents had threatened to cut off his company if he didn't marry Britni. I was pretty sure their threat would carry over to divorcing, particularly if it was before they had a kid. So, I let him steer the conversation and didn't push when he skirted around the more serious topics. Once we got into dinner, I'd make sure we discussed the things that needed said, but I was glad we were keeping it light for the moment.

The place was packed, but Reed didn't have a problem getting a table rather quickly. I had a feeling the Stirlings rarely had issues pulling strings to get reservations. As we started up the stairs, I could feel Reed's eyes on me as I went in front of him. I wondered what he was thinking. Was he just admiring the view or was he remembering what it had felt like to have his hands on me? Heat flooded me, chasing away the last of the winter cold.

When we reached the top, the hostess smiled at us and asked us to follow her. Not surprisingly, her gaze lingered on Reed a bit longer than me. Even if she didn't know who he was, his looks alone were enough to attract attention. I gave him a sideways glance to see if he was flirting back, but his smile was only polite. He put his hand at the small of my back, not quite touching, but enough to guide me around the tables to a relatively quiet corner.

We each ordered a beer and then turned our attention to our menus. The nearly idle chatter continued until after we ordered and our food arrived. Only after we'd both had a few bites of the vegetarian pizza we were sharing did Reed's expression grow serious. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach. I knew what was coming.

“I'm starting my own business.”

Okay, maybe I didn't know what was coming. I leaned forward and he put his hand over mine. My skin tingled where it touched his.

“You were right to make me leave last week. I wasn't thinking clearly. There were things I needed to do.” He gestured toward the hand covering mine and I noticed for the first time that his finger was empty. “I hired two lawyers. One for the divorce and one to handle the business aspect of it. I took the papers to Britni two days ago and gave her my wedding band. The engagement ring went back to my mother for safe keeping.”

The way he looked at me told me that he had something specific in mind for it and those damn butterflies did another lap. His fingers tightened around mine.

“And I went to both of our parents and told them that I didn't love Britni and I couldn't stay married to her.”

My eyes widened. That had taken some serious guts to do that. I just hoped he hadn't mentioned me to them, especially since I wasn't sure how I felt about him anymore. I could only imagine how they'd feel if Reed did this all for me but I rejected him.

I almost winced. The word rejected sounded so harsh.

Reed continued, unaware of my internal conflict. “I knew my parents would try to threaten me with the same thing as before, so I handed in my resignation. I told them that I'd take the money my grandparents had left me to start my own business, and if they couldn't accept the decision I'd made, they could cut me off.”

“Reed, I–” I had to say something. He had to know that he couldn't do all of this for me, not when I wasn't sure where we were going to go, how I was feeling.

“I've never felt this free before,” he said. “You showed me that I couldn't just keep living the life my parents told me to live. I was suffocating and hadn't even realized it.”

I smiled. “I'm glad you feel free.” That much was true. I did still care about him. I was happy he'd started standing up to his parents and making his own choices. I loved how happy he looked. I just didn't know if it was enough to get past everything else.

He shifted our hands so that our fingers were laced together. “They may come around; they may not, but I've made my choice.” His eyes met mine. “And I choose you.”

Oh, fuck. My heart skipped a beat at his words, but I could feel that excitement was only part of it. Almost as significant was worry over what would happen if I didn’t choose him.

He sat back, releasing my hand. “I'm sorry. That was too much, I know.” He smiled and took a drink of his beer. “No pressure or expectations tonight. I just wanted to let you know where I am.”

I nodded and drained what was left of my beer, hoping the buzz would counteract my nerves.

“I know you probably have questions that you've been wanting to ask,” he said. “So ask away. Anything you want and I'll answer it honestly.”

I took a bite of my pizza as much to give myself a few minutes as anything else. I did have a million questions, but most of them weren't for Reed. There were a few though, that I needed answers to. I picked one thread at random.

“Why now?” I put down the slice I'd been eating. I didn't think I could eat any more. “You said it was because of what Brock had done, but you knew about what he did to me months ago. Back in Vegas, you made me believe that you were going to break off your engagement but went through with it anyway. And…” I was getting riled up now, counting his indiscretions off one finger at a time, “you've been married for nearly six months and keep claiming how much you wanted to be with me even though you didn't make a move to end things until last week. How am I supposed to trust that you won't do the same thing now? Get bored after a while, find some random woman to hook up with and string her along until you dump me.”

Reed's expression tightened. “I was afraid,” he said flatly. “Afraid to stand on my own two feet. But I'm not now.”

I didn't point out that his 'own two feet' included a hefty inheritance that he was keeping. People raised in families like the Stirlings rarely understood what it truly meant to be on their own. The family was always there to cushion the blow.

He continued, “I was terrified that if I risked everything for you, I'd lose you and I'd have nothing.”

“And now?”

A new, more grown-up look crossed his face. “You motivated me, but I did this for me too.” He started to reach for my hand again but pulled back before our fingers touched. “I know I fucked up with us. Badly. And I know there's a chance this isn't going to work between us. Even if it doesn't, I'm glad I filed for divorce and stood up to my family.”

I felt a measure of relief. At least I didn't have that pressure on me. I steered the topic away from choices so he didn't ask me to make one right now. “What type of business are you starting?”

His eyes lit up. “If I can get this off the ground in the next year, I might be able to start bringing over some of the people at my old company who wanted to stick with me.”

The atmosphere between us shifted to something much more relaxed as he told me his plans. I could definitely see why his parents were so adamant that he take over the family businesses. It wasn't just that he was their son and they wanted to maintain the family part of things. He knew what he was doing. I didn't have the first clue about what it took to run a business, but even I could understand the way he laid things out.

The discussion took us through the rest of the meal and our check. As we stepped outside, the brisk air made me shiver and Reed put his arm around my shoulder, pulling me to him to share his body heat as we walked toward the car. I flushed, warming up enough that when I got into the car, I wasn't shivering anymore.

“Smells like snow,” Reed commented as he started the car. “Real snow.”

I nodded in agreement. “The forecast said it'd probably stick tonight. Just an inch or two, but enough that they're going to pull out the salt trucks.”

“People forget how to drive on snow after summer,” he said.

We discussed the weather until we arrived back at my place. He turned down the one-way street and stopped in front of the house. The street was empty; everyone either tucked inside for the night or already wherever they'd be for the next few hours.

Reed turned in his seat, reaching for my hand. He warmed my chilled fingers between his palms. “Thank you for coming with me tonight.”

I nodded, suddenly aware of the silence that reminded me how alone we were.

“I've missed you, Piper.” He reached up and brushed his fingers down my cheek, leaving a blazing trail across my skin. He leaned toward me.

I closed my eyes as his lips touched mine. His mouth was firm, but the kiss wasn't forceful. He waited and couldn’t help myself. I parted my lips, tilting my head to change the angle. There was heat there, the pleasure of skin sliding against wet skin. Then his hand slid up my waist, his fingers brushing against the underside of my breast and I pulled back.