Saving Us(20)

I climbed out of the tub and got dressed before grabbing my phone out of my purse.

I had seven messages from Conner.



What happened?

Why did you guys leave?

That girl meant nothing, Blaze. I swear it.

Please call me

I'm getting worried about you. Randa said you went back to Mom’s alone. On way home now.



I heard the door opening and sat the phone down on the bed next to me. Conner flew into the room and looked right at me. "What the hell happened?"

I shook my head. "Nothing! Don't even worry about it."

"The hell I ain't. You just got up and left. Are you pissed about Amber? Is that it?"

I held up my hands and could feel the baby moving around again. "Conner, please! I don't want to talk about it."

"What did she say to you? Amy, it was a long damn time ago. I never lied to you about my past. You told me it didn't matter. Now you're changin' your mind."

I stood up and looked right at him. "No, I'm not! I'm sorry that I wasn't prepared to run into one of your ex's."

"She ain't an ex. I just fucked her a couple of times."

I could feel the bile making its way to my mouth. I hated when he said it like that. "Just shut up! I don't want to hear about it."

"If you can't handle hearin' about my past, then why are you even with me?"

His words were cold and defensive and after feeling upset from before, this only added to my emotional breakdown. I covered my face with my hands and cried harder. When I felt Conner's hands wrapping around me, I didn't fight him. As disgusted as I was, I just wanted to feel him this close.

"Darlin', I can't change things. You have to know that you're all I want. Everyone has a past. I ain't that proud of mine, but if I didn't have a fucked up past, I would have never found you. I knew this day would come, I just didn't think it would be right now."

I pulled away from him so I could see those beautiful green eyes. "I want this."

He kissed my forehead and pulled me against his chest again. "It ain't like I would have let you walk away. You know I get what I want, Blaze."

I finally relaxed enough to let myself laugh at his sarcasm. When I sat down on the bed, I grabbed his hand and pulled him down with me. "There's something I want you to feel."

I placed his hand on my belly and laid down flat. I wasn't sure if he would be able to feel it. I knew it wouldn't be as strong as it was for me, but I was hoping he could feel something. I saw his eyes light up, when I felt the fluttering again. "Is that our baby?"

I shook my head. He placed his hand and his head on my stomach and just kept it there. The baby barely moved again, but Conner seemed like he never wanted to move away. I pulled his ball cap off his head and massaged it with my fingernails. My confrontation with Amber was suddenly put aside for what was really important. Conner and I were together and we had a little baby coming that we made out of love, which was something that he had never felt with anyone else but me.





Chapter 10

Conner



The restaurant had turned out to be a bad idea. After the drama with the girls leaving, Colt finally got a hold of Van who explained what had gone down in the bathroom. I couldn't' say that I was surprised about Amber being a bitch. Like me, she sort of always got what she wanted. Too bad she wasn't going to get me anymore. If I was single and never had met Amy, I would have given the girl a good time.

Moving out of state had changed my life. Aside from pool league, I never went out anymore. Instead of looking forward to parties, I looked forward to relaxing at home. I used to make fun of Ty for losing his man card, but soon realized that he traded in for a family. He was still a tough ass, who would fight for what he wanted, except his wife and kids were his number one. If he could change, then so could I.

After Colt filled me in, Amber got an earful. I excused myself from the table to find her ass. She knew that I was pissed and I didn't care how scared she was of me. I'd never wanted to hit a bitch so much, not even Heather. "What the fuck did you say to my girlfriend?" I assume it was the fact that I used the term girlfriend that made her look at me the way she did.

"Calm down, baby. I was just warning her. It's what girls do." She tried to put her hand on my arm.

I pulled away and took a step closer to her. "If you did anything to ruin my relationship, I will ruin you. You think I'm the only one in this town with skeletons? Don't forget I know about you and your step-daddy. Fuck with me again and I will go to your momma."

She crossed her arms. "You wouldn't dare!"

"Amber, we were friends a long time ago. I have a life now. I'm goin' to be a father. Maybe you can't understand what that feels like, but I ain't about to let my past dictate my future."