Savage Awakening(13)

She clearly wasn't satisfied with his response. 'Are you sure?' she  asked, linking her fingers together at her waist. 'You're not-well,  you're not overdoing it, are you?'

Matt's lips twisted. 'Shelving books? I don't think so.'

'But you have been ill,' she pointed out reasonably, making him wonder  exactly what she'd heard about him. 'I can do this tomorrow.'

'Tomorrow?'

'It's ten past one,' she offered, with a swift glance at the workmanlike watch on her wrist. 'I usually only work mornings.'

He guessed she didn't know she had a smudge of dust on her cheek or that  her T-shirt had come loose from the waistband of her jeans, leaving a  wedge of creamy skin to tantalise him. Didn't she realise that in his  present incarnation, he was far more dangerous to both her and himself?  But no. Why would she? As far as she was concerned, he and Diane …

Dragging his thoughts away from that particular minefield, he made a  concerted effort to concentrate on what she was saying. 'Is that what we  agreed?' he asked neutrally, folding his arms across his chest, as if  by doing so he could somehow ease his aching back and subdue the  emotions that were roiling inside him. 'How many mornings?'

'Well, we did agree to two days a week,' she conceded. 'We could call  that five mornings, if you like. Until we see how it goes.'

'We could.' Matt considered. 'Is there some reason why you don't want to work all day?'

'I pick Amy up from school at three o'clock,' she said simply. 'And I make lunch for my father at one.'

'So you're late.'

'It's not set in stone,' she assured him quickly. 'He won't mind waiting.'

Matt arched a brow. 'He's retired, I take it?'

'More or less.' She looked a little uneasy now.

'More or less?' It was really nothing to do with him but he couldn't prevent the question. 'You mean he works part-time?'

'Sort of.'

Matt didn't say anything but she obviously realised he expected her to  go on. With a little shrug, she added, 'He used to own the village  pharmacy. He retired three years ago.'

Matt's brows drew together. 'I didn't realise a village of this size would have a pharmacy.'

'It doesn't now.' She hesitated. 'People go to the supermarket in Westerbury. It's cheaper.'

'So your father works in Westerbury?'

'No.' He could actually feel her frustration now, sense her  unwillingness to continue. But, with a sudden gesture of resignation,  she spread her hands. 'If you must know, he writes a weekly column for  the local newspaper.'

Matt snapped to his feet then, gasping as his back protested the sudden  move. 'Say what?' he croaked, against the pain that shot down into his  thighs.

'He writes-'

'I heard you.' Matt turned and braced himself with the heels of both  hands on the desk. 'Hell, no wonder you didn't want to tell me.'

'I didn't tell him about you!' Fliss exclaimed defensively. 'I could have done, but I didn't.'

'Why not?'

He heard her shift a little uncomfortably then. 'I-I didn't think you'd want me to.'

'Damn right!'

Matt attempted to move away from the desk, but for some reason his spine  appeared to have locked and he couldn't deny the sudden oath that  escaped his lips.

Oh, great, he thought bitterly. As well as being an emotional cripple,  he was now a physical one as well. God, how had he got into this state?                       
       
           



       

'Are you all right?'

Despite her obvious unwillingness to be honest with him, Fliss came  round the desk so that she could look at him. She seemed genuinely  concerned about him, but Matt wasn't in the mood for her sympathy-for  anybody's sympathy, actually-and the look he cast her way should have  shrivelled a hardier soul than hers.

'And if I'm not? What are you going to do about it?' he snarled, wishing  she would just go. He had to deal with this alone-and with the fact  that anything he'd said to her up to this point could find its way into  the local rag. Christ, what were the odds against him choosing the  daughter of the local hack to be his housekeeper?

'I could help,' she said quietly, and with an effort he swung himself round again to rest against the desk.

'Oh, right. You're a masseuse, too, I take it? Is there no end to your ingenuity, Ms Taylor?'

She held up her head. 'I do have some experience,' she said stiffly. 'I  was training to be a physiotherapist when my mother died and I had to  give up my work to look after my father and Amy.'

Matt was stunned. 'A physiotherapist?' he echoed half disbelievingly. 'But Diane said-'

He broke off, but she evidently knew what he had been about to say.  'What?' she asked drily. 'That I was a school drop-out? I was. Until I'd  had Amy, that is.'

He shook his head. 'I'm impressed.'

'Don't patronise me.' Her lips tightened. 'Now, do you want me to help you or not?'

Matt shifted against the desk. 'I'm just stiff, that's all.'

'I'd say you've overdone the lifting and bending.' She contradicted him. She hesitated. 'Can you stretch out on the desk?'

Matt gave her an open-mouthed look. 'What?'

'I mean it. I'll just wash my hands.'

She headed for the door and was gone before he could stop her, and Matt  made another attempt to straighten up. But the pain made him wince in  agony and he wondered if he'd done something stupid like slipping a disc  or trapping a nerve.

Yeah, that would figure, he thought grimly, regarding the prospect of  prostrating himself on the desk with mild incredulity. But, on the other  hand, he had to get mobile again.

She was back before he knew it. She came into the room smelling faintly  of lemon and he guessed she'd washed her hands in the kitchen.

'Will you be warm enough if you take off your shirt?' she asked briskly,  and he wondered if she had any idea what she was letting herself in  for. 'But what the hell?' he muttered under his breath. She was bound to  see his back sooner or later. With an effort, he managed to haul the  shirt over his head, wincing only when her soft hands brushed the back  of his neck.

She was trying to help him, he realised. Her nails scraped across his  nape and for a moment any pain he felt melted in the raw heat of his  reaction. It was as if an electrical charge had invaded his system and,  for a moment, he couldn't get his breath.

Then, with a jerky movement, he swung away from her, mumbling something  about not needing her assistance to take off his shirt. If she was hurt,  if her cheeks turned a little pink, that wasn't his problem. He had  enough to do handling the minor explosions that were arcing down into  his gut.

He couldn't help but hear the way she sucked in her breath when he  turned his back on her. It even made levering himself across the desk  that much easier to do. He sensed she was dying to say something, but  she held her tongue, and somehow he laid his shirt over the wood and  spread-eagled himself upon it. He stifled a groan as he did so. Dammit,  he was weaker than he'd thought.

'Right,' she said when he was lying on top of the desk, his muscles  trembling from the exertion. 'If I hurt you, let me know. Just try and  relax, hmm?'

Yeah, right.

Matt gritted his teeth. That was easier said than done. He reminded  himself that during his first few weeks with the guerrillas, he'd been  forced to march barefoot over what had felt like the roughest terrain  possible, until every nerve in his body had felt as if it was on fire.  His limbs had screamed for relief, but none had been forthcoming. He'd  learned not to complain. That had only brought him a beating. He'd  actually felt grateful when they'd thrown him into a prison cell.                       
       
           



       

So he could do this, he thought, even if the first touch of her hands on  his scarred skin had him grabbing the corners of the desk, digging his  palms into the sharp edges of the wood. He had to steel himself against  whatever pain she inflicted; create a barrier between his conscious and  subconscious self.

He soon discovered no barrier was necessary. The rhythmic kneading that  began between his shoulder blades had a mesmeric effect on his brain.  Her strong fingers curled into his flesh, finding and releasing the taut  tendons in his neck and shoulders, splaying over his torso, moving  smoothly down his spine.

He felt himself loosening, adjusting, relaxing, as that almost liquid  friction probed each vertebra in turn before gliding on. His muscles  still burned, but the heat spread smoothly over him. He felt a sinuous  feeling of inertia, and a mindless relief from the stiffness that had  almost paralysed him minutes before.

Then, just when he was wondering what he could do to thank her, he felt  her fingers slip beneath his waist and fumble for the buckle on his  belt. 'Can we loosen this?' she asked, not seeming to realise he had  stiffened up again. 'If you could just push your pants down around your  hips, I could-'

'No!' With an effort, Matt managed to grab her hand and shove it away  from him. He blew out a breath. 'What the hell do you think I am?'