Ruined: Loving An Alpha Male(83)

“Look, I know it’s no one’s fault Alex is dead but the person who pulled the trigger. It still doesn’t take away the fact that he shouldn’t have been there in the first place. As a matter of fact, no one should have. I knew something was off…I knew it. The op just didn’t feel right, even when Roland explained it at the club. I should have been there, Max. I shouldn’t have been here fighting against these fucking low lives. I should have been there with them. Maybe if I was, I could have prevented…”

I sat up. “Could have prevented what? Alex from getting killed? Mason, for all you know you could’ve been killed right along with them.”

“Yeah, well, there are worse things than dying,” he muttered

“Mason…”

He rose from the chair and said, “I need some air.”

He walked out of the hotel room, leaving me sitting there stunned. I was losing him. I could see it in his eyes. He was letting that darkness he always talked about consume him. I wasn’t sure what to do, but I knew I needed to do something.



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Mason didn’t return back to the room until well after midnight. I was curled up on the couch when he walked in. He jumped slightly when he saw me but didn’t say anything.

He made himself a drink at the bar across from me, took the liquid back, and then said softly, “I’m going to bed.”

That’s it? That’s all he’s going to say to me after being gone for hours? Oh hell no! I jumped up and moved to block his way. He sighed but didn’t look at me.

“Maxine, I don’t have the energy. I just want to…” He tried to move around me. I moved in his way again, and then placed my hands on his cheeks. He tried to remove my hands, but I grabbed on to his hair and pulled. That seemed to get his attention, and a blazing set of dark blue eyes met mine.

“Well, I see now I have your attention. Mason, I’m only going to say this once. Then I’ll let you be.” I made sure I had his attention, and I did. I inhaled and said, “I love you, baby. Okay, what happened is completely fucked up. I know you are going to find whoever did this, and I have no doubt in my mind that you’re going to make them pay.” I saw the acknowledgment in his eyes, so I continued. “But you can’t get lost in this.” He tried to move away from me, but I still used my body to block him. “No, baby, you can’t. I love you so much, and I don’t want to lose you to some shit you probably have going around in your head. You’re mine, remember? Fucked up and all, you’re mine. I won’t lose you to the darkness. You hear me? I refuse to lose you, so please don’t let it consume you completely. Don’t push me away, Mason. Please don’t. I need you, and you need me. And I’m here, okay? I’m strong; I can take whatever you have to dish out.”

I felt my eyes water. But this wasn’t the time or place to show that kind of emotion, so I blinked them back. I still had my guy’s attention, and I didn’t want to lose it.

I said, “Promise me you won’t give up.”

I moved closer to him, got up on my tippy toes, and planted kisses on his lips.

“Promise me, Mason.”

I felt him fighting me slightly, but I kept my lip assault going. I kissed his cheeks, his neck, his chest … Whatever I could find to get him to thaw out just a little.

“Maxine, don’t.”

“Come on, Mason. Please let me help you. Let me take care of you. Let go, baby.”

I jumped in his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist, forcing him to hold me. I continued to kiss his neck, and I grinded on him. When I found his lips again, he opened his mouth to me. I tasted his anger and felt his frustration through his touch. But most of all, I felt his need. He hugged me closer to him and deepened our kiss as I felt him move us into the bedroom. I didn’t let him go until I knew he wasn’t going to leave me. He pulled my t-shirt up and over my head, and started kissing down my chest. I didn’t have a bra on, so he had complete access to my girls, and he didn’t waste time getting lost in me.

I moaned my pleasure, as he took charge of my body. He roughly pulled and squeezed my breasts and sucked and licked my nipples.

“I’m all yours, Mason. I’m here for you, baby.”

It seemed that my words were affecting him. He slowed down slightly, but he continued to subdue me. He pulled my shorts and panties off, and I scooted up on the bed to give him room to do exactly what I know he loves to do. His tongue found its favorite spot between my legs, and he attacked with reverence. I came instantly and, as he let me settle, I sat up and moved to help him with his shorts. He pulled off his shirt, while I got his shorts and underwear completely down his legs. He removed his shoes and socks. As he lay on the bed, I returned the favor and placed my lips on his dick.