Raging Kane(24)

After the explosion, I had a world of explanation to do to my children who couldn’t understand how their daddy almost died. Our oldest was only five, so we just told her that there was a gas leak. I don’t know if that helped because we’d been staying with Arabella and she kept looking worriedly at the stove.

“Carolyn, don’t worry. It’s better than her thinking someone was there to kill you two. As the Alpha, Kane will have those that want his power. She will have more to fear by thinking someone came close to succeeding.” Arabella said.

“This is just so terrible. I feel like crying, but I need to remain strong for them and Kane. He’s just gone back to his office.”

“He’ll be fine. He’s worried about you. You’ve shut him out, haven’t you?”

“How do you know?” I asked, sipping my tea. This baby wasn’t giving me a hard time yet, but I was so sad lately. I missed Kane.

“He’s been asking me how you’re doing. Since you two can talk to each other, I can’t see how he wouldn’t already know,” she said accusingly.

She was right. I was keeping him out. “He’s got to recover physically and emotionally and my fears won’t help him.”

“I don’t think he can do it without you by his side, sharing your fear and pain.”

“I don’t know…” I wasn’t sure about her theory, but there was something he needed to know that I’d been masking this last week.

Kane

I heard his gasp. Caro. What is it, my love?

I’m sorry for being so evasive. Can you forgive me?

As soon as you let me in.

When will you be home tonight?

I’m on my way now.

You don’t have to rush.

Yes, I do. Yes... I do.

My heart was full. He missed me. I could feel his emotions pouring from him. It didn’t take more than ten minutes before he was walking through the door and into Arabella’s kitchen. He didn’t stop to say hi or to make small talk, just stalked to my side, gripped my face, and kissed me with angry pain. I melted into his arms. It had been three weeks since we made love and it was the first time where I’d let myself go. Once I dropped the wall, it was like a flood. Kane picked me up in his arms and carried me out into the warm night. We walked hand in hand without saying a word.

When we reached an alcove, there was a blanket out there with a little basket.

“You knew I would talk today?”

“No, I’ve had it prepared every day this week. I just want my wife back.”

“I’m sorry, Kane.”

“Don’t. Just explain to me what I did. What can I do to fix us?”

“You didn’t do anything. You’re perfect. What happened scared me. I watched our life blow up in front of my eyes.” He tried to respond, but I stopped him. “No, you have to listen.” I paced around, turning back to him I said, “I trivialized your fears and concern, and you were right. Our threats were still very much real. I should have agreed to keep the security we had, but I felt safe. I love you and you were so sad once you healed that I was worried about you and didn’t know what to do. I thought that if you knew how frightened I’d finally gotten that you would’ve lost it, and I didn’t want to add that pressure to your healing process.”

“Caro, you are my everything. When you shut me out like that, I felt lost. I’ve never felt fear as strong as I did when you pushed me away. My greatest fear is losing you, and I thought I was.” He slowly wrapped his big, strong arms around me. The warmth and love that I missed were going straight to my bones.

“I wouldn’t ever leave you. I need you so much. In six years, I’ve lived for our love. There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do to keep you with me.”

“Let’s have some wine, my love.” I paused because I couldn’t drink. I had to tell him something.

“Kane, I don’t want to drink.”

“Come on, love. It’s a special occasion.”

“Kane, I’m pregnant.” The look on his face was the one I feared. He doesn’t want the baby.

“What? How could you even think that? I love getting you knocked up. I’m just shocked.”

“Really?”

“Yes. The last time we had sex I knew we’d made another baby.”

I eyed every inch of his muscular form and wanted him. He felt my desire pouring out of me as he listened to my wicked thoughts. He slid the zipper of my dress down, pulled the straps off my shoulders and let it fall to the floor. My bra did little to support my breasts, but it was sexy as hell and Kane thought so, too.

Sexy, climb on. I jumped on his body, wrapping my legs around his waist and my hands around his neck. His lips attacked mine. He dropped to his knees and collapsed forward, lowering us to the ground without manhandling me. Knowing that I was carrying his babe turned my rough lover into a teddy bear. He cuddled and caressed me. Our loving was usually slow when I was pregnant, but tonight he wasn’t in the mood for slow.