Perfect Chaos(56)

“So, is that a no?” I purred then slid my foot up the side of my naked leg. I was wearing his shirt, which hung down to the cusp of my butt. It may hide my breasts, but I suspected Deck was a leg man anyway.

“Why the hell would you pick it up in the first place?” He threw his towel onto the bed, unabashed at his nakedness and I was happy to see he had one hell of a hard-on. The question was could I get him to let the issue go and concentrate on much more productive things.

I turned around so I was on my stomach, facing the end of the bed, propped up on my elbows with the shirt bunched around my waist. I was giving him a real nice view of my ass, as I still hadn’t put on panties because I had intended on going for skinny-dipping sex. But Deck had taken a while in the shower and I’d been curious seeing his gun lying on the dresser.

I swung my legs back and forth, crisscrossing them. “You know, I was thinking I’d like to taste you. My fantasies can’t even come close to the real thing. The salty taste of your pre-cum and then when you come in my mouth …” I trailed off as I stared at him.

He’d been pulling on his black cargo pants. Now, he was standing with them partway up his thighs, his cock jutting out and huge. He tucked himself in his pants, did them up and walked straight to me, yanking me up so I was sitting on his lap.

I smiled. “Do you think I can even get that in my mouth?”

“Georgie.”

“Because it’s monstrous.” He was ignoring me despite my praise of his cock.

“We’re sorting shit out now.”

I sighed. It looked like I was losing this battle. “What guy refuses a BJ?”

“I love your sassy mouth, babe. Probably love it more around my cock, but let’s get something straight. I ask a question, … I want the answer. No sass. No bullshit. This is so we don’t have a problem. Have I been fair with you? Given you time to get your head straight?”

“Head’s not straight. It’s kind of in the candy land right now.”

His brows rose. “Candy land?”

“Yeah, you know, sexy, sweet fantasy. You’re my candy land. Finally I’m getting to taste it and I want more.”

The tightness around his lips eased and his eyes went soft on me. Yeah, he was my candy land all right. “Come over here.” He plopped me off his lap, pushed back further onto the bed, leaned back against the headboard, put his feet up and crossed his ankles. I crawled up beside him and he grabbed my thigh, put my leg on top of his, and then rested his hand on it. “Candy land or not, we need to talk, Georgie.”

Talking position. Not sex position. He was unmoveable on this; it was like trying to get a tree trunk horny.

“We’ll start simple … how did you hook up with Kai?”

I laughed because that was the hardest one. “I wouldn’t use the term ‘hook up’—”

“You’re right, bad choice of words. How did Kai find you?”

That was more like it. No one found Kai, he always found you. “Robbie.” The stricture in my chest tightened as I thought of those months when I was so distraught and broken I gave in completely to Robbie. “It had been three months of him doing shit to me in the shed, but one day he grabbed me then took me to his house after school. I didn’t fight him. I just walked along beside him like a puppy dog on a leash.” I felt the tears prick my eyes at how weak I’d been. I’d hated myself so much.

“That’s where I met Kai. He was talking to one of Robbie’s brothers in the living room.” Robbie had put his arm around my shoulders and pulled me into him then kissed the top of my head like I was his girlfriend or something. I almost vomited all over their carpet. “Robbie took me to his room where he cut me and then took pictures of his work. He had a binder. It was where he kept all the pictures. I wasn’t his only one.” I inhaled a shaky breath as the memory flooded back, the feeling of helplessness, of being separated from my body, of despair. “When Robbie let me go home, I was walking down the street when Kai pulled up and told me to get in. I didn’t think about it. I just did it. It wasn’t like anything could get worse. I think I wanted Kai to kill me, hurt me, anything to stop what I was already feeling. I missed Connor so much and I prayed for him to come back and help me. I know if he’d been alive …”

I looked up at Deck and his eyes were on me. I expected anger, but instead they were calming, as if he was giving me that part of him to get through telling him this. “But Kai knew. I don’t know how, but he knew what Robbie was doing to me and he gave me a way out. At first I refused. I was so lost and immune to the pain I didn’t care about anything. And I was terrified of Robbie finding out and going after my mom like he said he would. Connor was gone and you …”