Perfect Chaos(54)

“Sure, but the judgement it still out.”

I tightened my hands on her ass and squeezed. She yelped and I grinned.

“Fine. I may have said I thought you were a boring missionary-position kind of guy.”

I’d never laughed so hard in my life because that was the furthest from the truth and had been one of the many reasons I’d kept clear of Georgie. I was demanding, controlling and most of the time I liked it hard and rough. I wondered if that was part of the reason Connor never wanted me with Georgie.

A wave of pain hit me as I thought of my friend who was no longer the carefree, smiling guy I’d once known. Then I pulled her close and kissed her forehead. Jesus, I’d wanted to do that for so long. I didn’t realize how badly until right at this moment. She’d always been mine, but now I owned her and no other was getting a piece of her. Kai, I’d have to deal with—fast.

“I need to see Robbie again, Deck.”

I stiffened. “No.”

“You can’t take that away from me.” She pulled back a little and her hand stroked down my arm over my ink, her finger tracing the images.

“Georgie.” I got up, taking her with me and setting her on her feet before walking away. “No.”

“Deck—”

I stormed back toward her and grabbed her by the shoulders. I knew my fingers were bruising, but I was so pissed off even thinking about Georgie getting close to that bastard. Getting close to anything as tainted as what I was going to do to that sick bastard.

“Out of the question. Not up for discussion. I know you think you need to, but the answer is no. I don’t want you anywhere near that piece of shit.”

Her voice was soft as she stood in front of me, meeting my eyes and not once wavering under my intensity. “I need this.”

I abruptly let her go and walked away then kicked out at the small glass coffee table. The vase in the center teetered for a second and then toppled over. “You’re already on shaky fuckin’ ground, Georgie. Might want to curb the wants and needs.”

She placed her hands on her hips and glared. “My ground has been shaking for years; I’m used to it. You can’t tell me what I can and can’t do.”

“Damn right, I can.”

“Why are so you angry over this?”

I strode to the door. I didn’t know why. Her mentioning going near Robbie had made it so real. The fear she’d lived in. The pain. Then her need to purge. Jesus, I hadn’t protected her at all. And I knew that was the reason I was so angry. “Whatever shit you have with Kai has ended. Ideas about going near the bastard who hurt you—ended. And this is the end of the discussion.”

She got red in the face and if I wasn’t so mad, I’d think it was adorable. Shit, it still was adorable. There I go again with adorable. What the fuck was happening to me? “I’m not the girl you think I am, Deck.”

And that right there pissed me the fuck off. Because no matter what lies she spun, she is the girl I knew. The weak, drinking, insensitive girl was never Georgie. It was why I’d always been able to resist her. I didn’t like that girl.

“Yeah, you are. You’re everything I knew you were but were fuckin’ hiding from me.” I kept my voice real quiet and controlled.

She stormed toward me and for a second, I thought she was going to slap me—or at least try to. But I saw the fire in her eyes and it wasn’t just anger, it was heat.

Georgie leapt on me and wrapped her legs around my waist and then her lips were up against mine. It was the fuckin’ hottest thing ever. I had no choice but to grab her under the ass or she’d slip from my arms and I sure as hell wasn’t letting her go.

I kissed her back, a thirst for her so powerful it was like I’d been without water for years. Unable to get enough. Unable to stop the want. The need. It had been denied for so many years that stopping it now was like trying to stop a herd of elephants.

“Baby,” Georgie murmured against my mouth.

I fuckin’ loved her calling me that. Never thought I would, thought it sounded pussyish, but from her lips, it was heaven. I drove my mouth into hers, sucking the air from her lungs, making it mine. I staggered into the wall and then quickly turned around so her back was against it and I had leverage.

“When Kai finds Robbie, I need to be there,” she murmured against my lips.

“No,” I growled.

“We can—”

“We? You mean you and who—Kai? Fuck, no. You’re living on another planet if you think you’re ever seeing either of those bastards again.”

“I won’t get hurt.”

“Stop fuckin’ asking.”