Mystery Lover(18)

Her purpose was to let him know that she wasn't wasting away without  him; that she had a full and busy life and that she was happy with her  environment. At the same time she let him know she missed him and wished  he were there to share some of those good times with her.

He never responded.

Jennifer refused to become disheartened. She couldn't expect to break a  twenty year habit in a couple of months. Time was on her side. Actually,  she knew that whether or not he would admit it, Chad was on her side,  too.

It wasn't that he didn't love her. He was afraid of the commitment.  Nothing new about that. Almost every magazine she picked up had an  article or two about men and women who were afraid to make a commitment.  She could understand and appreciate where they were coming from. If she  hadn't grown up with Chad in her life, she would no doubt feel the same  way. But because of Chad, her life was different.

Her commitment was made. That commitment had begun years ago when a  teenage boy reached out to her in her loneliness and sorrow and tried to  ease her pain.

Now it was her turn to reach out and ease his loneliness and sorrow.

He'd been back home from one of his trips two days when she sent him a  message late one night. Jennifer was lying in bed and had been thinking  about him. Hocusing her thoughts to project to him, she said, "I wonder  what it's like to sleep with someone, to actually share a bed. Are you  used to sleeping with anyone, Chad?"

"What sort of crazy question is that?" was his immediate response.

Good. Many times he ignored her. She must have gotten under his skin with that one.

"That's not crazy. You're thirty-seven years old. I'm sure you haven't spent all that time in bed alone."

"You might be surprised."

"I lie here at night and pretend you're here with me, but since I'm not  sure whether you're used to sleeping on your back or your stomach, or  whether you'd curl up to my back or perhaps I'd curl up to yours.. . "

No response, but she felt his reaction, knew he was visualizing them together.

"I don't think I'd want to sleep in anything. Not with you here to keep  me warm. You certainly do have a way of doing that. Every time you've  kissed me my temperature has gone up a few notches. I can just imagine  what it would be like for your hands to touch and explore me, to-"

She felt a very heated response, but no words.

"Good night, Chad. Pleasant dreams."

Actually Jennifer had discovered that her plan had somewhat backfired.  She was finding that her sleep was filled with dreams of Chad and some  of the books she had read came to life with her and Chad as eager  participants.

She would wake up and find herself trembling, oftentimes aching with  need. The mind and the imagination were the most erotic part of the  body. Jennifer had absolutely no doubts on that subject.

And she wasn't going to be able to continue the torture she was putting  them both through. After one particularly graphic evening, Jennifer  ended up crawling into a cold shower for several minutes before going to  sleep.

So much for trying to use their unique communication abilities to convince him they belonged together.

To make matters worse, once she managed to fall asleep she had slept so  heavily she did not hear her alarm go off. Eventually Sam was able to  get her awake by tromping up and down her back and meowing until she  opened her eyes and saw the time. There was no way she could make it to  work on time.

C. W. Cameron was already at his desk, with his cup of coffee, talking  on the phone when she came in. That was the first time since she'd been  working there that he had beat her in. Of course it was also the first  morning she had been late.

He glanced up when she walked into her office, nodded and continued to  talk while she hastily put her purse away and sat down. The mail was  piled high on her desk and she automatically started sorting it, wishing  she'd taken the time to swallow a couple of aspirin tablets before she  left home.                       
       
           



       

Jennifer felt defeated. She had been so hopeful that in some way she  would reach the stubborn, lovable, opinionated, tenderhearted,  irritable, adorable man she loved. However, at the moment she was at a  loss as to what to do. Nothing worked.

For the first time Jennifer faced the fact that she might need to quit  her job. If she accepted that there would never be anything more between  her and Chad than their working relationship, she wasn't sure she could  continue.

Jennifer heard her employer hang up the phone but she didn't look up. When he suddenly spoke in front of her, she jumped.

"Leave that and get your purse."

The words were quiet but there was no doubt in her mind that he meant  every word. She looked up at him, horrified. Granted, she had been  considering leaving the agency, but she needed time to find other  employment. Besides, how could he even consider firing her for being  late, when it was the first time in all her years of working there?

His expression gave nothing away.

Are you firing me? she thought in a rush.

"No," was the equally quiet answer.

Jennifer got up and reached for her purse. He held out his hand as  though for her to precede him. They paused at the receptionist's desk.  "Ms. Chisholm and I will be out for the rest of the day. Please take our  calls and tell whoever asks that we'll both be in on Monday."

The look of astonishment on the receptionist's face probably mirrored  Jennifer's own expression. Chad had never before asked her to go  anywhere with him. As a matter of fact, he hadn't asked now.

Trying to keep up with his long stride, she hurried beside him. When he  noticed that she was almost running to keep up with him, he slowed his  pace somewhat and politely took hold of her elbow. They stopped beside  his car.

The sporty lines of his Nissan did not look in any way damaged, she thought as he unlocked the door, then held it open for her.

Jennifer settled in, made sure her safety belt was fastened and waited  for him to explain where they were going. And waited. And waited.

When he pulled into the airport she glanced at him in alarm. "Are you going out of town again?"

He waited until she had gotten out of the car, made sure both doors were  locked, then took her elbow once again, motioning her toward the  terminal. "We are going out of town."

"But where?" She glanced down at the neat suit she wore. "I don't have anything to take with me."

"You won't need anything," he assured her blandly.

He kept walking past the ticket counters and toward the gates. They went  through the security check in silence; When he stopped at one of the  gates and gave his name she heard the announcement of the last call for  the flight leaving for Las Vegas, Nevada.

Once again he ushered her through the gate and down the passageway to  the plane. He gave their boarding passes to a smiling steward, who  pointed out their seats. After making sure she was strapped in, he  pulled some papers out of his inside coat pocket, unfolded them and  began to read.

"Is Tony still having problems?"

He continued to read for a moment, then reluctantly raised his gaze to meet hers. "Not that I am aware of."

Clearly he wasn't in the mood to talk. Well, quite frankly, neither was  she. Her head was pounding, her heart was racing, and she didn't  understand what was going on.

They were already in the air before Jennifer realized this was her first  flight. She'd been too confused and mystified to give it much thought.

Since Chad had given her the seat by the window, she spent most of her  time looking out. Jennifer was determined not to give him the  satisfaction of pleading to know what was going on. He paid her salary.  If he decided to take her away from the office on one of their busiest  days, she supposed that was his business.

Forcing her mind to quieten, Jennifer continued to stare out the window  until she fell asleep. She woke up as they were making their final  approach to land. Now she had plenty of time to worry about how well the  pilot knew how to fly, if all the mechanics had been alert when they  checked over the plane, and if anyone would think to notify her mother  if something happened to her.

Chad obviously knew his way around an airport. Within minutes he had  stopped to pick up the keys to a rental car and they were quickly  outside.

The weather was much nicer in late October, Jennifer noted with  something like relief. She started to make a comment along those lines  to Chad when she caught a glimpse of his face. The aloof, thoughtful  expression did not remind her of a man who was interested in passing the  time by discussing the weather.

Jennifer waited to see where they were going.

Her first surprise was that they didn't go on the Strip. So they weren't  going to see Tony, she decided. Her second surprise was when they  parked near a very official building downtown and Chad escorted her into  the courthouse and down the hall to the license bureau.