Moonshine(44)

Dear Moon,

I’m sure that you’ve already noticed that I am a guy and you’re wondering what the hell I’m doing writing you this letter. I will first start off by saying that I’m Gay, because I don’t want you thinking that I want your girl or anything. That’s not why I’m writing. Shine has become a very good friend of mine since we have been held up in this place together. She is one of a kind and I love her a lot, as a friend I mean. I know that you write her letters every day and I don’t want you to be mad but I have read them, or at least most of them I think. Don’t be mad at her, I bug the shit out of her until she caves and lets me read them. She says that you won’t mind because you are wonderful and la-di-da. Since I have no family, I get to pretend for a minute that you’re my friend too.

Anyway back to the reason I am writing. I wondered if you knew why Shine was acting the way she was. By reading your letters I am guessing not. I have been trying to write this letter to you for many weeks now and each time I stop myself because I don’t want her to be pissed off at me. I don’t want her to stop loving me and being my friend because she is the only one I have. When she first got here, she was a broken mess. She is still pretty fragile, but she has came miles since the last time you saw her. When she puts her mind to it she really tries hard and you won’t believe the change in her. The first time I ran into her she was panicking in the hall and would not let me near her for shit. She freaked out. She wouldn’t even let me shake her hand. At first I thought maybe she just had a fetish about people, and then I realized that it wasn’t all people. She didn’t want to be touched by any man, ever. Once she got comfortable enough around me and realized that I wouldn’t hurt her she wanted me to protect her from everyone else. I don’t know if you understand what I’m getting at, but someone has done something to this girl to scare the life out of her. She hasn’t told me in so many words, but she has beat around the bush. I know that you probably think I’m crazy because you don’t know me from Adam, but I’m serious. This girl would shake until she passed out if you so much as put a hand on her shoulder. So long as she kept you at a distance she was fine. It tears me up inside to think that something like this would happen to a girl like her, but I know it did. I thought that you should know. When I read your letters and realized that you didn’t know I wanted to beat your face in because I thought, how could you not know. How could you be her best friend and not realize? Now I understand that she only let you in so far, and that you couldn’t have known these things without being inside her walls. She told me she wouldn’t let you in. I’m sorry, because I know you must be heartbroken over it.

Don’t lose hope for her yet. She has gotten so much better and she has come so far. She doesn’t melt down when someone brushes her in the hall, and she will sit next to anyone in group although she prefers me of course. She even shakes hands with people, you just wouldn’t believe it. I’m so proud of her and I know that you would be proud too. I haven’t taken your place as her best friend. She just added me to the list.

I get out of here in three days and I have nowhere to go. She wants me to stick around here and wait for her to get out because she swears her family will give me a home, but I don’t know if I can. I will have nowhere to go while I wait. I haven’t mentioned this to her because she expects me here on her graduation day. She won’t take no for an answer. I trust that you will keep my secret because I don’t want to let her down just yet. If I don’t find a place to stay then I will have to move on. No way am I breaking her heart while she is in such good spirits.

She is an amazing girl and you are so lucky to have her in your life. Always know that, Okay? Take care of her and love her like I know that you do. You may be fooling her, but you ain’t fooling me. Don’t wait to tell her that you love her too much longer I know that she would love to hear it, and please don’t tell her anything that I told you because I can’t lose my only friend. You know what that’s like and she is all I got.

I am sorry that it took so long for me to write. Thanks for listening.



Your Friend,

Bradley aka “Johnny”





P.S. I no longer want to kick your ass! We are cool now, bro!! Also, I’m not in here because I am mentally ill. This is serious!!



Well, that was not what I was expecting. Was this dude for real? I mean, how can he be sure that these things really happened? God it makes me sick to think about. I don’t see how it’s possible. I saw her the day of the accident right after school and she was going to practice. After practice Dad picked her up and they were in the accident. So between practice and being picked up something happened to her. I don’t understand how or who would be there. That would have to mean that something would have happened at school. It’s just not right. Something is off about this, unless it happened after the accident. My mind was running a million miles a minute. I don’t want to believe him, but how could I not. Now that he brought it to my attention it makes sense. She wouldn’t let me touch her. She flinched even when I came close enough to breathe near her.