Love My Pain (Cape Falls Book 6)(3)

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Isabel stared at Edward, and wondered what the hell she could do to make him happy. She was such a disappointment. Her heart felt heavy as she watched him continue to clean her wounds. She was a complete and total fuck up. Everyone had told her that her whole life. Everyone left her, and she would fuck up this thing with Edward just like she messed everything up. All she ever did was try to help, but she just couldn’t stop ruining everything.

“You don’t have to help.”

He paused, and stared at her once again. “I want to. I’m not here out of any obligation to you, or to anything. I’m here because I want to be here.”

She licked her suddenly dry lips, and couldn’t look away. She was trapped within his gaze like she had been so many times before.

“Okay.”

“So, I’m thinking you should come and spend some time at Control. I think it will work for you.”

“The BDSM club?”

“It’s more than just a club. I think you mingling with other women will help you. You no longer have to work at that diner. I’m taking care of you. How is your studying going?”

“Slowly.”

“Well at least you’re studying. You’ll be working with me, and you’ll get to see what I do. There’s always something to be done. Paperwork, cleaning, stocking the bar in the main night club. The BDSM part of the club doesn’t allow alcohol. I know you’re going stir-crazy here without doing anything.”

And he needed her close to make sure she didn’t hurt herself. The shame swamped her. She had disappointed him again, and now he didn’t trust her.

What do you expect? You took a sharp knife and dug it into your skin!

“Okay.” She didn’t know what else to say.

“Have you been around the town yet?” he asked.

She shook her head. “Not for a few weeks. No one mentioned anything about me living with you. That’s new.”

She had been living in a trailer with her sister in a really bad part of Cape Falls. It was easier and cheaper living in an old trailer. Also, her parents had owned the trailer before they rushed off, and she was able to get a good deal with the lady who owned the land. Not everyone in Cape Falls was horrible. Cape Falls was a town with old fashioned values. When Edward had asked her to move in with him, she had been concerned about what the town would think. Usually they would have called her a whore, or a woman with low morals, and pretty much every name you could think of because she was living with a man she wasn’t married to.

“Yeah, it’s taking its time, but Cape Falls are finally coming into the twenty-first century. Some parts they are going to hate, and others they’re going to enjoy. I wonder if they’ve ever heard of porn.” He looked at her, placing a hand in front of his mouth, and gasped with his eyes wide.

She burst out laughing. “I think they know what porn is.” This was what she loved about being around Edward. He was fun, and he didn’t make her feel like a freak. Even when he was cleaning her thigh, she didn’t feel weird about it. In fact, she loved the feel of his hands on her thighs. His hands were large, and they were so gentle. He didn’t hurt her, and her body always came alive underneath his touch. She loved the way his hands felt on her body.

There were many nights over the past year that she thought about him, even before she moved in with him. Being in the trailer she had found herself wondering what he was doing, if he was thinking about her. Lying in her bed down the hall from his bedroom, she wondered what he did. She wasn’t stupid. Men needed women, and she had heard her mother and father all night long. She had never been with anyone, and until Edward came into her life, she never really cared about it before. There was no other man who made her body come alive at his mere touch.

Sucking her lip between her teeth, she wondered if Edward ever thought of her. The moment she thought about it, she cut it off. That was not possible. Someone like Edward would not think of a woman like her. He could have anyone he wanted. He was a dominant man after all, and that kind of men had a lot of women sinking to their knees at their feet. They didn’t have to worry about leaving them alone because they hurt themselves.

“You’re doing a lot of biting of that lip, babe,” he said, securing the bandage to her thigh.

“It’s nothing.”

“I’ve told you to tell me when something feels wrong, or you don’t like anything. Now is one of those times.”

Again, he wanted her to talk about what she thought.

Well, Edward, I was wondering what it would be like for the two of us to have sex, or fuck.

While he was out of the house, and when she didn’t want to study, she went to his office where he had a very nice computer, that searched everything. She started with the Dom and sub stuff. Then she went a little deeper looking at the porn. She loved watching couples together, and the thrust of a cock inside a woman.