Forever Light(39)

I look away when I say, “I want to feel what she feels. Even if it’s only for one night. I just want to shut my mind off.”

“I’m going to the bathroom.” She pins me with a look. “Do. Not. Take. Them. Without. Me.”

I salute her.

The second Heather walks away I toss all three pills in my mouth and wash them down with my beer.

The guys from the football team arrive. Colton, Jet, Declan, Holden, and even Sean swarm around me. The music seems to be turned up louder. The guys all crowd my space and they’re causing me to feel like I’m knocking on the doors to hell with how hot it is in here.

Heather comes back from the bathroom and Declan gets a goofy smile on his face when he sees her.

He kisses her cheek and then scoots her way over to me. “You sure you want to do this?”

I nod and the room tilts a little.

She shakes her head in disbelief. “Alright. Where are they?”

I smile. Warmth comes over my body. It’s getting hotter in here by the minute.

“You took them didn’t you?”

I nod.

“Fuck, Macy.” Heather says.

I’m burning up now. I can literally feel the warmth in my cheeks rising. It’s actually… nice. I kind of like this feeling. No wonder people take drugs.

Jesus. It’s like a rollercoaster ride but you never quite fall.

“I wanna dance!” I try hopping off the chair and almost fall but Heather reaches out and steadies me. “With him.” I say pointing at Holden.

“That’s not such a good idea.” Heather says looking at Holden.

He winks at me. Oh yeah. It’s a good idea.

“It’s a perfect idea. Loosen up, Heather.” I say tapping her cheek gently with my hand. “Go fuck Declan all you want.”

Heather’s jaw hits the floor. “This is going to be a long fucking night.” She mumbles as I walk away.

Holden’s smiles grows a little. “What’s up, Macy?”

I grab his hand tugging him to the dance floor. “I wanna dance with you.”

He chuckles as Jet high fives him.

Holden and I start dancing to the beat of the song. Our hips swaying in perfect rhythm. I’m sweaty but I can’t stop moving my body. He’s keeping up. Every once in a while I feel his hands slide down and grip my ass bringing me closer to him. He’s hard and it’s turning me on. I turn in his arm, he grips my hips and brings me back to him. I reach behind me and run my hands through his hair as we continue to grind into each other. It feels like I’m having sex with him but we’re still fully clothed.

My shirt is soaked by the end of the fourth song. Holden’s hair is wet too but he never once tries to stop us from dancing. The fifth song is a bit slower. Holden turns me so I’m facing him again. He keeps a hand on my lower back. His fingers dipping into the waist band of my jeans. We’re staring into each other’s eyes but I have to keep closing my eyes as they have grown really heavy quite suddenly. I lean forward needing to rest my head due to the ringing through my ears. Holden’s other hand slips up under my shirt on the side and it feels fucking great. His hands are cold against my burning skin. He nuzzles his face into my neck and starts kissing it.

Every sensation in my body comes to life feeling him kiss me like that. I know it’s the drugs talking but damn, it’s nice.

“Whoa,” Heather cuts into my daze. I feel someone pulling me and it feels like I’m free falling before I land against something really hard with a thud. “We need to get you home, Mace.”

I try to talk and tell her that I’m fine and to leave me alone but my tongue feels heavy.

“Dammit, Macy.” I hear someone say as everything fades away.

My mouth is dry and it’s fucking hot as hell in here. I go to push the covers off of me but I can’t seem to move my arms. Damn, what the hell happened last night? I peel one eye open and the room has a soft glow to it. The rays of the sun rising spilling into the room painting the walls an orange color. Knowing it’s safe, at least for right now, I peel open my other eye. My head starts hammering and my stomach rolls. Fuck, I’m going to get sick.

Light snores have me whipping my head to the side. My eyes snap shut and I cringe from the movement. When everything settles I open them again. Landon is lying beside me with his hands tucked under his face. His brown hair is a mess sticking up all over the place. His lips are red and swollen and he has a faint bruise forming under his right eye. He has stubble growing that’s barely visible unless you’re up close and personal. My eyes continue down to his chest, it’s bare. I close my eyes realizing suddenly that I’m shirtless too. I reach down because my body feels numb. I have no shorts on. Shit! And I also have no panties on.