Forever Girl(8)

I've been working and saving all of my money since renting the  Townhouse. I had to spend some money on getting the twins' room  together. Buying two of everything is crazy expensive but they're worth  it. I found out a couple of months ago that I'm having a boy and a girl.  Jess and I painted their room a neutral color but I've bought blue and  pink for them separately. I stopped a couple months back at Ali's and as  soon as she found out I was pregnant she called me a whore and a slut.

"You'll never come back to my house. I won't help you raise your little bastards." She says to me with venom.

"You don't have to worry about that."

I walked out of her house giving her my middle finger. I got into my car  and drove away. I Graduate in May but I finished school in December  which was a blessing. I'm still debating if I'll walk in with the  Graduation Class or just ask for my Diploma to be sent to me. I have  less than two weeks before I'm off on Maternity Leave. I've got more  important things to worry myself with like saving all I can right now.  I'm almost 35 weeks now and I'm ready to have my babies here. I have an  Appointment with Dr. Stone in an hour. Which is a good thing because my  back's been aching for the past couple of hours. I get to the Dr. Snow's  early and I register with the receptionist. I get a really intense pain  radiating from my back and I have liquid running down my leg. I look  down and back at the receptionist. The receptionist looks at me and gets  up from her seat and comes hurrying out from behind her work station.  She helps get me into the back where she can get the nurse and Doctor.  Dr. Snow rushes in followed by the nurse and they help me get out of my  wet pants and onto the exam table.         

     



 

"I need to call an ambulance to transport you to the hospital Lyric. You're already dilated to 6 centimeters." Doc says to me.

I guess means the babies are on their way.

"I'll be riding to the hospital with you in case I need to deliver in the ambulance."

I'm grateful for that small miracle because I'm fucking scared right now. I call Jess before the Ambulance gets here.

"Jess, I'm getting ready to leave for the hospital. Will you come pick my car up and take to my house please."

"Don't worry about a thing. I'll also call work and let them know that  your Maternity Leave starts today. I'll see me soon and I can't wait to  see the twins." Jess says.

I hang up on her because I'm in so much pain that the phone drops from  my hand. I hold my breath trying to keep myself from screaming.

"You have to do your breathing Lyric. When the next contraction hits I'll do the breathing technic with you."

Doc says to me when she sees that I'm holding my breath. I get to the hospital with no time to spare.



As the Medics are wheeling me into the emergency room I feel like I'm getting ready to have one of them.

"I can feel one of the heads trying to coming out." I yell to whoever will listen.

The gurney stops and she's at the end of the gurney pulling the blanket  up to see what's going on down there. She shouts to someone to bring her  gloves and a gown stat. I'm in too much pain to care that everyone and  their mother can see my business as I feel the urge to push.

"Don't push yet. I need to get gloves on. You need to start your  breathing technic." Doc says and I just want to tell her to fuck off.

I feel like punching her in the face, but I couldn't do that even if I  wanted to because the pain is so intense. I feel like I'm being ripped  apart from the inside out. I vow to myself right then; that I'll never  have another child. I don't know how people can do this multiple times.

"The next time you feel like you need to push you can." Doc finally tells me.

As soon as those words leave her mouth I feel the urge.

"I need to push right now."

I feel a person on each side of me grabbing my legs and raising them  toward my chest as she tells me to go ahead and push. The pain is  immense and then there's so much pressure. I feel like I'm not going to  be able to do this and then I feel the head come through.

"Stop pushing Lyric." She tells me.

She does something down there but I'm not sure what though.

"You can push again."

I feel the baby's shoulders come out and then the rest of the body comes  out. I wait for a minute listening for the baby to start crying. When  it does start crying I feel this emotion of love wash over me that I've  never felt before.

"Say hello to your little girl." The nurse says as she brings the baby to me.

I have tears running down my face when another contraction hits and I  know I'm going to have to do it again. Everyone gets into position again  for my little boy.

"When you feel the urge to push again you can." She says to me again.

My son makes his appearance seven minutes after his sister. Both babies  are fitted with bracelets and so am I. That way when they're taken  upstairs the nurses will know who children's parents are. It's a new  Security Measure and I like the idea of not having to worry about my  babies being switched. I'm cleaned up and taken upstairs shortly after  them. I'm in my room when I decide I need a shower. I get under the  spray of the shower head and start washing my stomach. It feels so weird  not having them in there anymore and my stomach it feels like jello. I  think to myself I wish they could live in my body forever so that I can  protect them from the world. Then I think about being able to hold them  and give them cuddles and kisses and I'm going to love being able to see  my feet again. I get out of the shower and make my way to the bed just  as Jess is coming in the door with stuffed Teddy Bears and flowers for  me.

"Thank you Jess." I say to her.

I call the nurse to bring my babies into the room for their feedings.  Jess is a life saver as she's going to stay with me for a couple of  weeks to help me with the babies. I don't know what I ‘m going to do  when she moves to Colorado in a few months. She tells me all the time  that I can go with her. I also know she needs this fresh start and I  need to go to college in the fall. I'm not one for all the cold and snow  that Colorado has in the winter either. I tell her we will keep in  touch and we can Skype all the time and when the twins get older we can  come out there on vacation. I also remind her that she can always come  back here and visit as much as she wants.         

     



 





Chapter 7



Lyric



Now





I tell Nic about being pregnant and the last five years with my babies.  We laugh and we cry. I show her pictures of the twins in the album I  made for myself. I've made separate albums for the two of them. I show  her both so she can see them from birth to their last birthday.

"I've always showed them pictures of you a Dean. I told them that he had  to go away on a special trip. I didn't know what else to say to them. I  didn't want them to think that their daddy didn't want or love them. So  I lied to them about where he was and what he was doing." I tell her as  I'm looking down at my hands.

"He's going to fall in love with them." She says with a small smile on her face.

My heart does that strange flutter thing when I ask her the questions  I've been wondering all day and if I'm being truthful I've been  wondering about for years.

"Have you called and told him yet?"

"No I wanted to come talk to you before I did that." Is her response.





Chapter 8



Delia/Nic



Now





"I don't know what happened back then. One night I came home and he was pissed." I tell Lyric.

He said that he had to leave town. He wouldn't tell me exactly. All he  would say is that he had to leave or he would be going to prison and you  would be shipped to a youth center. He didn't like the position he or  you were in. I told him I'd go with him. He told me I should just  transfer back home and it shouldn't be a problem since school had not  even started yet. I asked him where he was going to go. He told me he  was going to Harlan and it was a couple hours South of Lexington. He  said he wasn't going to give up his dream of Geological/ Coal Mining  Engineering Degree just because he had to give you up. We ended up  leaving a couple of days later while you were at work. I hugged him  crying and he was trying hard not to let me see his emotions. I could  tell that whatever was going on was breaking his heart. I asked if we  should say bye to you? He said no that it was going to be better this  way. That you would forget about us and graduate and move away and have a  better life. Lyric looks at me with a stunned expression.

"What was he talking about? Prison for him and a youth home for me." She asks dumbfounded.

"I don't have the whole story. Considering you have his twins. I would  say Ali probably found out and threatened him." I say to her.

I can tell by the look on her face she's seriously pissed and hurt.

"Does he still live in Harlan?" She asks.

"He does live there still but he's not the same person he was when you knew him."