Forever Girl(7)

"I'm having a glass of wine."

"I'll take one or three of those." Is her response.

"That was my thought exactly." I say to her with a smile.

We both laugh and I pour us each a mason jar full of wine.





The twins talk her into tucking them into bed and telling them a bedtime  story. I've given my cuddles and told them I love them both. I watch  her sit on the floor between both their beds and tell them the story  that they both chose. When she's finished telling them the story she  gives them both kisses and hugs and tells them she loves them.

"You'll talk to daddy and ask him come back home won't you?" Jamie asks in a sleepy voice.

"You can bet on it little guy. Now off to sleepy land for you." She says to him while taking a deep breath.

I walk back upstairs and fill my glass back up. I know when she comes up  here our lives will change forever. We'll have to talk about the past,  present, and the future. I'm nervous, scared, happy and excited all at  the same time.



"You've done a wonderful job with them." As she comes up the stairs.

"Thank you." I say with my emotions showing in my voice.

We each grab our glasses of wine and make our way to the couch to talk.





Chapter 6



Lyric



Then





I made an appointment with Jess' Doctor. The soonest they could get me  in was three months after I called. I went to the appointment thinking  it was the perfect time. I'm sick to my stomach and my breast hurt. I  figure I'm about to have another period. I tell Dr. Snow about not  having my first period until a couple of months ago.

"I want to run some test. I think putting you on birth control to  regulate your menstrual cycle a good idea that way your body can  straighten itself out. Are sexual active?" She asks me.

"I lost my virginity recently. I have no plans to have sex again in the future anytime soon." I tell her.

"Well let's do and ultrasound to see if everything looks normal in  there. It doesn't happen often that someone starts their period for the  first time at your age. We're also going to do a pap exam. That's also  something that should be done now that you've started you cycle." She  says with a warm smile.

After the exam is over I'm told that I can put my clothes back on and tuck the paper cloth into my waist.

"It'll be a few minutes and I'll have a technician come in to do the ultrasound."         

     



 

I put my shirt and bra back on and someone knocks on the door. I have  just enough time to put the paper cloth thing over my lower stomach and  legs when the door open. Dr. Snow comes back in with a strange look on  her face.

"I just got a test results back from your urine you provided before the exam."

I'm holding my breath thinking Okay something is seriously wrong.

"Am I dying or something?"

"You're not dying sweetheart you're pregnant." She tells me.

I swear all the oxygen is sucked out of the room with that sentence.

"You're joking right? You have to be. It was only once and I can't be  pregnant I'm only seventeen and still in school. This isn't part of my  plan. Oh my god what am I going to do know?" I say to her with  desperation in my voice.

"Let's do the ultrasound." She says and gives me a sympathetic smile.

I get up on the table and my legs are shaking so bad I think they might  give out. I can't believe I'm fucking pregnant. I think I would rather  have cancer than have to go home and tell Ali I'm pregnant. I wonder to  myself if this is how she felt when she found out she was pregnant with  me. I know one thing I'll be a better mom to my baby than she was to me.  That's my promise to him or her right now. I'm thinking about how much  money is in my saving account right now. How much longer can I work  before I have this baby? I've been saving all my money for college. I'll  have to put that on the back burner for now. I can go to BCTC that  won't be too expensive. I bet they have grants and scholarships I can  apply for that won't cost me too much out of pocket. I think about  having to sign up for welfare. I need to get Medicaid for me and the  baby until I can find a job that offers insurance. The technician comes  in with the Ultra Sound machine. Dr. Snow tells me to lay back and  relax. The technician squirts some warm gel on my stomach and takes the  probe and starts rolling it across my belly. It feels kind of weird but  it doesn't hurt or anything. She starts taking pictures and I wonder  what it is she's seeing. Dr. Snow has the tech stop and they talk for a  minute.

"Do you see that black spot that's fluttering?" She says after a few minutes.

"Which one? I see two."

"Well either one of them." She says to me.

"Yeah I see them what is it?"

"Instead of one baby you have two in there. You're having twins." She says to me.

All I can think is shit what am I really going to do now.

"The fluttering is their hearts beating." She precedes to tell me.

I think in that one moment I found what real loves is.

"Wipe the gel off your stomach and meet me in my office when you're done." She says as she starts for the door.

I get dressed as fast as I can and make my way to her office. When I get there she asks me to sit down.

"Do you have any questions for me?" She asks

"When am I due? How long can I work for?"

She tells me that I am due April 25th and I can work until I'm  thirty-six weeks if everything goes as planned with the pregnancy.





I grabbed a newspaper after I left the Doctors Office and started  looking for a place to move into. I knew I couldn't stay at Ali's any  longer. Especially being pregnant so I started calling all the ads in  the newspaper that we're reasonably priced. I hoped the people renting  wouldn't be concerned when I showed up because I was young and tried  charging me like I was a college student. I was just about to give up  and go to Ali's house for the night when I talked to a gentleman on the  phone.

"I can show you my property today." He tells me.

The place wasn't too far from the grocery store or the doctor's office.  As I wait to meet him I start looking at cars because heaven knows I'll  need one of those also. I meet up with the landlord and get an excited  feeling in the pit of my stomach. I'm really liking the town house  community and it seems to be a safe little community.

"When will it be available?" I ask after I do the walk through.

"It's available now." He says to my astonishment.

"What's the catch?" I ask him.

"My wife and I haven't been able to keep a renter in the place. We've  been renting to friends and family members and they wouldn't actually  pay rent."

"I didn't have a car would you mind giving me a ride to the bank." I ask him sheepishly.

"Sure I can give you a ride to the bank. Are you going into College?" He says with a laugh.

"I'm a senior in High School and I just found out I'm pregnant. I've  been working since I was fifteen years old and I've saved every penny.  If you give me a chance I'll pay my rent every month and you won't have a  problem with me as a tenant I promise."         

     



 

"Sometimes people just need a break. I think you're just that person.  I'll rent the place to you. You have to pay the first month's rent and  but no deposit."

"Can I have that ride to the bank please?" I ask after I give him a hug.

"Sure thing darlin." He chuckles and pats my back.



"Do you happen to know of anyone wanting to sell a reliable car?" I ask on the way to the bank.

"As a matter of fact darlin I do. I have a mechanic friend that fixes  cars and he just bought a car and fixed it up and wants to sell it."

I ask how much and he tells me that he'll call the guy while I'm in the  bank and find out for me. When I get back into the truck Brian tells me  his guy will sell the car for two thousand dollars.

"Do you mind waiting a few more minutes while I go back into the bank?" I ask sheepishly.

"I don't mind." He says with a small laugh.

As he gives another small laugh. I have a little more than $10,000 in my  savings account that Ali knows nothing about. She's always thought I  worked part time and blew my money on junk. She'd be pissed if she knew I  had that much money in the bank. I walk back in a withdraw another  $2300 so I can get plates for the car tomorrow. I walk out knowing that  I'll still have a little more than $7000 in the bank. I'll be careful  and tuck away all the money I can while I'm pregnant.





Brian takes me to purchase and pick up the car. I leave there to go to  Ali's house to get the few things I have there that I want to take with  me. I'm just going to grab my clothes, my toiletries and a few things I  don't want to leave there. If I tried to take anything else, it would be  a fight with her and that's something I don't want to do. I arrive at  her house and thank goodness she's not home. I run in and get what I'm  taking and leave her a note that says I'm moving out and I'll stop by at  some point. I don't really think that she'll care if I stop by or not. I  stop by the grocery store and pick up a few things that I'll need for  the next couple of days. Then I make my way to my new home. I walk into  the house and I'm so giddy I could scream. I do a little dance and start  putting my groceries away. It's 6 pm so I decide I need to go to the  second hand store on New Circle Rd. I also make a note to myself to go  to the Dollar Store to pick up some odds and ins. I end up finding some  excellent deals. By the time I get home I'll have a couch, love seat,  coffee table, end tables, queen size bed, and a small pub table  delivered. I'm excited that I found all off this for less than $400. I  also picked up towels, wash clothes, comforter set, pillows, dishes,  silverware, cups, glasses, pots, and pans at the dollar store. I did not  realize all the things that I would need to set up a home. At this  point I don't even care. I'm happy to start living my life on my own. I  wish I knew how to get a hold of Dean to let him know I'm pregnant. He  doesn't have a Facebook neither does Nic. The cell numbers for them  aren't working either. I tried at least once a day for the last month.  There's not much more I can do to try and find them. I'll have to do  this on my own. I will because I have two little people that remind me  that there's more important thing in the world that matter.