Dark Promises(26)

He inhaled her scent, her amazing fragrance, and then he dropped his hands and stepped back, clothing her and releasing her at the same time. She sank to the ground, wrapping her arms around herself, her hair in disarray, her beautiful gray eyes swimming with tears, but still glaring defiantly.

“Do your worst,” she hissed.

He bowed to her, a low courtly bow. “I apologize for my behavior.”

“I could put a stake through your heart and not even think twice,” she spat. “You controlled me. Forced me.”

He nodded, taking another step back. She wasn’t safe. He wasn’t safe. No one was. “I have not felt any emotion in over a thousand years. Longer. Much longer. It is no excuse, but being so close to the undead, walking that edge and then finding you, the woman I . . .” He broke off. Shook his head. “I fear I could not see anything beyond your treachery. On the next rising, I give you my word, you will walk out of here a free woman. I will leave you now and no one will harm you. Seek the ground in one of the unoccupied buildings. Do not take a chance on open ground.”

Gabrielle studied his face. He sounded like he meant what he said and hope blossomed. She licked her lips, trying to stop the strange reluctance blooming along with the hope she felt. “If you mean what you say, why not allow me to leave now? The others are still close by. I would be escorted to safety.”

He sent her a quelling look. One of disgust. Almost a sneer. Gabrielle didn’t want to feel it, but she did. That look hurt. The look made her feel guilty when she had nothing to feel guilty over. He was still holding her prisoner. Gary and the others were still outside the gates. He just had to open them and she would be free.

“I have lived my life in honor. I will not allow one such as you, so deceitful, a selfish Carpathian woman who is willing to force her lifemate to choose between dishonor and death, to have her way. You know what that bond is and still, you broke it. I am far too close to darkness to watch you go to him. You can wait one rising. I will walk into the sun, and you can go to ground satisfied that I will no longer keep you and your lover apart.”

Gabrielle stared up into his face. She could see the sorrow in him. She felt it, a great weight pressing down on her. She felt the centuries there, centuries of darkness. Of loneliness. Of a barren, cold world without color, emotions, family or caring. He had endured all of that. At the end there was . . . nothing. Nothing but Gabrielle. Nothing but a woman who didn’t want him.

She saw that there in his eyes. In the lines carved in his face. That knowledge shamed her, even as she sought to excuse herself. She wasn’t Carpathian. She was in love with another man, and she had been for a long time. She didn’t know the first thing about lifemates, only what she’d observed. When she was working in the laboratory, they talked work. Since she’d been converted, no one had given her any advice. She felt human, not Carpathian.

She knew the rudiments. She could shift, which she rarely did. But she couldn’t feed. Someone always provided for her. She slept above ground and someone always opened it after she fell asleep and before she awakened. She wasn’t really Carpathian. Still, all that aside, she felt a deep sorrow in him and she had a terrible inkling of what could happen if she left. She didn’t know what exactly, but there was something about the set of his shoulders. The mask on his face.

He turned away from her. For some insane reason she didn’t understand, she couldn’t let him just walk away.

“He isn’t my lover. He’s never been my lover. I don’t have lovers.” She blurted the truth out in a low voice. So low it was a mere thread of sound.

He turned back to her slowly. His eyes found hers. Searching. She knew he didn’t believe her. His face could have been carved from stone, but his eyes were alive with contempt. That shamed her more.

“Do not speak. It is best that no more lies come from your mouth. I am uncertain how strong I am. You . . .” He trailed off and shook his head, turning away from her a second time.

She tightened her arms around her middle, terrified her churning stomach would let loose and she’d be sick everywhere right in front of him. She had no idea why it was important to her he knew she wasn’t lying to him.

“I’m not lying. I’ve worked in a laboratory and I get caught up in my research. I’ve never had time for relationships. Or the inclination. I’ve never had a lover.”

Gabrielle bit down on her lower lip. She bit down so hard she actually drew blood, all the while fighting the desire to run from him—or from herself. Suddenly she was terrified. Terrified of herself. Of what was inside of her. What Gary kept at bay. It was right there in her stomach, rising up, reaching out, threatening to consume her. She gasped, and he turned again, his frown deep as his burning gaze took her in.