Crush (Crash #3)(99)

In between rooting for my favorite football team and changing diapers, I was still hell-bent on working in some sort of capacity, but I'd come to realize I wanted to work not so much because I needed to make my own money, but because I wanted to make a difference. Pairing that desire with my obsession for dance . . . well, the dance studio was the result. The knowledge that one day I could possibly influence a young girl the way Madame Fontaine had influenced me felt like it was the cherry on top of a very fulfilling sundae.

"Go, Uncle Jude," LJ said, careful not to shout with Annalise in his arms.

"Here, buddy," I said, reaching for her. "Let me take her so you can get up and bounce and scream for Uncle Jude. You know he can hear you out there, right?"

"I know," LJ said importantly, letting me take Annalise.

"Come here, sweet girl. Let's cheer for your daddy." Kissing Annalise's head, I stood up just as the center hiked the ball.

Jude didn't even fake a pass; he just cradled that ball against himself and sprinted for the end zone.

I held my breath as everyone around the arena exploded. When he'd hit the ten I let myself exhale. He was going to do it.

When his foot landed in the end zone, the roof felt like it was going to blow off the place from the noise. I just stood there and grinned down at him. He was still a show-off.

Dropping the ball, he turned and jogged down the sidelines.

He high-fived a few of his teammates in passing, but he couldn't be stopped. Coming to a pause in front of us, he grinned up.

"That one was for my girls," he said, sliding his helmet off.

"And consider your girls sufficiently impressed," I shouted, leaning forward. Annalise was really wriggling now that she'd caught sight of her daddy. She was smiling and making spit bubbles from her excitement.

"Come here, baby girl," he said, lifting his arms. I surrendered her to his strong hands. "You want to see the best seat in the house?"



       
         
       
        

Annalise jolted, shaking her baby arms. She was such a daddy's girl.

"Okay, okay." He laughed, tucking her close to him. "But first I got to get a little something-something from your mama."

Smiling that smile of his that made my stomach drop, he tilted his head up at me.

Leaning down, I kissed him and, no different from the first time we'd done this, the rest of the world faded away. It was just Jude and me and our little girl.

It was what you'd call something of a full-circle moment.

"Love you, Luce," he said, after Annalise's little hand had poked up between our mouths. She'd grabbed onto Jude's lower lip and wasn't letting go.

"Love you, Jude."

Turning around, Jude carried Annalise out onto the field. He didn't stop until he came to the middle of the fifty-yard line. Cradling her in his arms, he did a slow spin. Cameras were flashing, fans were screaming, and it was controlled anarchy, but I knew there was no one else but Jude and his little girl out there right now to him.

As I watched them, I felt the same thing. We were in our own bubble, and it was a good one. My life wasn't how I planned it would be. It wasn't even close.

It was a thousand times better.

Sybill had been right: The few things I'd sacrificed, or put on hold, to be with my husband and baby were worth it. That broken boy on the beach seemed like a lifetime ago. Years had passed, college and the NFL, marriage and a baby, but every once in a while, when Jude looked over at me and gave me that slow, knowing smile of his, I was that girl in a black string bikini all over again, longing for a boy I never thought could be mine.