Claiming Serenity(51)

He’d been frozen by her presence, by the fierce, unsettling way he now knew he loved her. She fascinated him and it scared the hell out of him.

Now, all he could think of was kissing her, thanking her for giving even the smallest shit if he lived or died. He wanted to touch her, to taste her, to tell her with his mouth and tongue and body that he was tired of their emotionless agreement. He knew she wouldn’t love him back, he knew that if he even hinted that he wanted more from her, she’d bolt. So, if he couldn’t have all of her, he’d try for what she would give him. If he couldn’t love her in the open, he’d put each hidden thought, each secret emotion into the way he touched her, the way he would make love to her.

“…I don’t think you need any stitches, and you should be okay for practice, though you’re probably going to be stiff in the morning so make sure you hide it when Declan or my dad…” And then, those round, luscious lips stopped moving and Donovan blinked, caught by her low drawl of “What?”

Donovan shook his head, not sure how to approach this. Not sure if he could touch her, love her like he wanted and keep what he felt from her. She stared a little too long at his face and then her eyes shifted to the left. “Your cheek is still bleeding.” He didn’t’ even feel the bite from the alcohol or feel the burn of the ointment as she rubbed it into his skin.

That’s when Donovan stopped her, unable to keep from touching her. Her skin was cold as he pulled her hand from his face, overturning the bottle of alcohol in her lap when he reached for her. He would have her how he wanted, but it would be different from before. It would be soft and gentle and it would mean something, even if she never discovered what that something was. It would mean something to him.

“Come here.”

And she did. Layla let him kiss her, let him slide his fingers through her hair, pick her up and carry her to his bed. She didn’t argue. She didn’t fight him and for once, Donovan was grateful for the silence.





Donovan couldn’t give her the fairytale. She was Cinderella, at least she wanted to be and though it was unrealistic, though she knew that any intelligent woman would balk at the notion of a Prince Charming, that small girl Layla had once been still wanted a happily ever after.

But her cousin and his father had ripped from Donovan any princely inheritances, any ability to give Layla what she wanted. She knew this. It was forefront in her mind, but that did not stop her from taking what it was he could give her. His fingers fell to her skin and the touch wasn’t hurried, wasn’t eager. Donovan touched her like he wasn’t desperate for the sensation. His movements were slow, like their melding, their touching, was there for comfort, not need, were not the same anxious pulls and grabs that told Layla he needed release. And she returned those slow movements for once, letting him lead, letting him find what he wanted from her. It was not control. This wasn’t the bickering dance they’d been moving through for years. Donovan touched Layla like he loved her, like for one brief moment, she didn’t infuriate him. Like he thought she was precious.

It was just one night. She’d only allow herself one night with him like this. She knew this would not last, that his reaction, his tenderness was just the expression of some primal need to claim her, to let her know he’d never try to do what Walter had. He was tempting her with something he’d never offer her beyond these walls.

“Donovan…”

“This body is perfect,” he said, kissing between her breasts, moving his fingers over her nipples, holding the heavy weight between his palms. “I’ve never seen someone more perfect.”

She couldn’t stop him, couldn’t ask him to be rough, to be harder with her, to stop distracting her from the truth she knew would come at the end of this. Not when he said things like that, not when he touched her like every trace meant something. It might not last, this new appreciation he praised on her body, but that didn’t mean she didn’t love it.

“Sometimes when you leave, I sleep with my pillow under my chin.” He rolled over, pulling her leg up, slipping inside of her and closing his eyes like her body, the way she felt around him, was a sensation his body craved. “Sometimes I can still smell you on my clothes.” His thrusts were slow, calculated and Layla arched her back, digging her fingers into his skin as he drove into her deeper. “I like the way you smell, Layla. On my pillow, on my sheets, on my t-shirts. That scent settles me, makes the bullshit of my day more bearable.”

She wanted to cry. This emotion his confessions, his slow, steady rhythm and those looks he gave her; those raw, overwhelming looks of respect, of awe, made her ache for what she would never have with him.