Be My Everything(26)

"It's wrong," he admitted. "I'm not supposed to break my own rules."

"Rules are meant to be broken." Colin sighed. "You're not the first Dom to fall in love with his sub."

"I know," Luke said. "I just don't want to screw up."

"Go to Kat," Colin ordered. "Don't fuck this up. You either have to tell  her the truth or you have to let her go. You know that better than  anyone else."

"It's all about trust," Luke said. "And honesty." Luke expected that from Katherine, so didn't she deserve the same?                       
       
           



       

"Do what you know is right," Colin said. "But if it doesn't work out, I  may be in the market for a new, young sub." He nodded in the direction  of the door.

Luke laughed as he clapped his back on his way out. "Not in this lifetime. You're not ever touching her again."

"Yeah, I kinda figured that." Colin smiled as he headed down the stairs. "I'll let myself out."

Luke ran his fingers through his hair and wondered how he let this  happen. He was always so focused and knew exactly what he wanted out of  his submissive. His feelings were different with Katherine, but he  didn't want to own them. It was easier to carry on the way they had  been. But tonight changed the dynamics of their relationship, and he  didn't know if he could continue as her Dom any longer.

But how was he going to tell her?

* * * *

Katherine quickly ran from the playroom and straight to her bedroom. She  wanted to shower and dress before Luke came looking for her. She only  had fifteen minutes, but stopped to drink the bottle of water he'd left  because that was a direct order, and she wouldn't dare disobey him. He  always made sure she was hydrated after a rigorous evening of play.

As she stepped into the shower and let the hot water hit her worked over  body, she tried to quiet her mind. She had so many emotions running  through her head. She submitted to Colin because it was what her Master  had asked her to do. She wanted to please him and hoped she had.  Katherine was extremely aroused over the fact that her Master had  commanded her to please another man. It was a freeing experience, and  she was happy she'd had the opportunity to try it. That was just another  example of Luke helping her push her limits.

As much as her body had taken to Colin, playing with him wasn't  something she wanted to do again. She'd done it for Luke, but hoped he  wouldn't ask that of her again. It wasn't as if it was unpleasant, but  it was awkward and unsettling to have Luke watch as another man touched  her. It wasn't natural, but then again, was anything about their  relationship normal or natural?

She finished her shower and put on the black nightgown Luke had left for  her. Of course, he'd left no panties. She rolled her eyes. He hated  panties.

She rushed down the hall to his bedroom with one minute to spare, so she  got on her knees and tried to clear her head. He would be there in a  few seconds, and he'd want to discuss what had happened with Colin  tonight. He'd expect her to be focused and honest. She would be  straightforward. She would tell him that playing with another Dom was  now a hard limit for her. She didn't want anyone other than him to touch  her.

Her heart rate increased when she heard him approaching. She quickly  averted her eyes to the floor when he turned the handle on the door. He  slowly entered the room and extended his hand. She was confused because  usually when he came in, she remained on her knees until he gave further  direction. She took his hand and allowed him to lead her to his bed. He  motioned for her to sit, so she did as he instructed, but she wasn't  prepared for what he did next. He dropped to his knees and fingered her  ankle bracelet. The one he had placed there six months ago to represent  her collar.

His face looked so conflicted and Katherine wasn't sure what he was  thinking. He was such a hard man to read anyway, but now he gave her no  indication as to what was going on in his head. She gasped when he  unclasped the anklet and slipped it into his pocket. She had done  everything he had asked tonight, so why would he un-collar her?

There were times in her journey when she was unsure of what her Master  wanted, but she always figured it out, usually with his help. Tonight,  she had no idea what he wanted from her.

He had removed her collar. What kind of game was he playing?

Was this a scene? Some sort of role play? She had no clue.

As she looked into his eyes, she saw something there she'd never experienced with him before.

Uncertainty.
Chapter 14

Admitting the truth …



Luke never expected to put that collar on Katherine six months ago. When  she first came to him she had been clumsy, unsure, and afraid. She had  no idea why she wanted to enter this lifestyle, but she was so damn  determined he couldn't turn her away. The only thing he was certain of  when he met her was that she was indeed a submissive. He just didn't  know if she could be his submissive.

He continued to stare at her, trying to find the right words, but  nothing sounded right in his head. He wanted to tell her he hated seeing  her with Colin. It made his blood boil and his insides hurt. He had  never wanted another man to touch her. That was the whole reason he'd  collared her so quickly in the first place.                       
       
           



       

She finally broke the painful silence.

"Why, Master?" she asked. "Why would you do this to me? After all I've done for you?"

He saw the tears forming in her eyes.

"Why are you crying?" he asked because he wasn't sure what the problem was.

"You took my collar. I thought I did what you wanted tonight."

"You did." He was such an idiot. He should have realized that removing  her collar would cause alarm "And you have no idea how much that means  to me." He joined her on the bed and gently brushed away her tears with  his thumb. "I know it wasn't easy to submit to someone other than me."

"Then why?" she asked, and he knew she was referring to the collar.

"Because I want to talk to you, but not as your Master," he said, and  again he saw the uncertainty spread across her face. "I need to know how  you feel, and in this situation, I think you'll be more honest with me  if I'm just Luke and you're Kat."

"I've never used your name before. Well, not out loud." She looked down at the floor.

"Maybe that should change." He tilted her chin up so that she had to  look into his eyes. He saw nothing but confusion staring back at him and  it was his fault. He needed to find a way to change that.

"I don't understand what you're trying to tell me."

"Kat," he said as he took her hand.

"Kat?" she whispered.

"Seeing you tonight with Colin helped to confirm some things for me." There was no going back, he had to be honest.

"What things?" she asked in a soft, shaky voice.

"I definitely didn't like sharing you," he admitted. "It bothered me more than I thought it would."

"So, we won't do it again. I don't want to be with anyone else."

Luke could hear the panic in her voice. He could see it in her beautiful brown eyes.

"Hey, I need you to relax and hear what I'm saying." He gently stroked her cheek.

She nodded.

"This has never happened to me before. I've never developed feelings for  one of my subs. I mean, I've always cared about them and I was  extremely fond of several, but with you … " he trailed off.

"What do you want from me?" she whispered.

* * * *

Katherine thought this was absurd. She didn't know whether she should  start screaming at Luke for taking her collar off after she had spent  the evening with Colin, at his request, or if she should get up and  leave. The second thought scared her to death. If she left him, he'd  never come after her, because it just wasn't who he was.

He was a proud, confident man and he could have his pick of subs. She  knew how she felt about him and maybe it was finally time for her to put  herself out there. All bets were off, no more stupid rules. He had  taken her collar off, so didn't that mean she could speak freely?

Katherine couldn't take it anymore. The tears were stinging her eyes and  now she had this huge lump in her throat. She had given this man six  months of her life. She loved him with everything she had. He hadn't  asked for her love, but sometimes people had no control over who they  fell for. She had proven herself over and over again. Tonight was just  another test, another way for her to submit, so she didn't understand  why he was doing this to her.

It was all so overwhelming. She was in overdrive. She'd been  anticipating and stressing over the encounter with Colin all week. And  then she felt relief when it was over and Luke seemed pleased, but now  she didn't know what was happening.