Alexia Eden(114)

“Baby please…I’m sorry… what happened to you? Why do you seem…. so… empty?” he says miserably.

“That’s because I am…” I turn and walk towards Ronny's car where I see her and Chloe.

I don’t look back as we drive away and Ronny doesn’t say a word to me until it’s time to say goodbye. We say our goodbyes and Chloe is reluctant to leave me alone but I reassure her that I need to be alone.

I walk into the house and walk straight into the bathroom. I strip out of my clothes and unwrap the bandages on my wrists. I feel disgusting and I can’t even look at myself in the mirror so I place a towel over it.

I put the shower on above me but don’t put the plug in as I sit in the tub with the boiling water splashing on my battered skin the burning of the hot water against my cuts hurts but it’s the only way I can feel clean. I rest my cheek on my folded arms over the side of the tub as I stare at the bloodied bandages on the floor, I lift my one hand and stare at the wound that Drake's belt caused …it wraps around my entire wrist like a perfect pink ribbon, I continue to repeat over and over…I love him. I deserved everything I got for betraying him.

I don’t notice Drake leaning against the doorway because I’ve been so focused on my wrist, I turn and look at his red sneakers then turn back to look at my wrist ignoring his presence even though on the inside I’m terrified there may be a repeat of last night.





CHAPTER 36:

JAX POV

I haven’t been myself since that night when Lexi saw that girl walk out of my room, she looked heartbroken and it killed me. It looked bad but I never slept with her, I tried, really hard…but I couldn’t get Lexi’s beautiful face out of my head and I felt disgusting when the girl started touching me.

When I saw Lexi crying on the floor in the dark kitchen, it broke my heart. Then she told me that she loved me and inside I was so happy that I just wanted to take her right there and mark her but I could never do that.

Lexi is so small and weak, I know deep down that I would never be able to mark her because she would never survive the turn, especially if an Alpha marked her; she is just not strong enough. I thought that there was some chance that she was a wolf and that she was just weak that’s why she didn’t smell like a wolf but when we found out that Georgina wasn’t her mother, I knew that Lexi was human after all. I thought I would be okay with it and I still wanted to be with her but after she mentioned her being intimate with Drake I lost it.

She had such a miserable look in her eyes as I just stood there after she just admitted to loving me and how guilty she felt when she was intimate with Drake. I knew I should have said something to her but I knew I couldn’t tell her how much I truly love her. I couldn’t betray Drake like that if she decided to leave him for me but after seeing her tonight I know I made the biggest mistake of my life by not telling her how much I love her when I had the chance.

These two weeks that I haven’t had contact with her have been horrible. I miss her terribly and I battle to sleep because she is the only thing on my mind….I thought I was doing what was best for us.

I was so excited to see her tonight at the restaurant although I was nervous that she wouldn’t want to see me and even if she ignored me the entire evening at least I would be able to see her and be around her.

I saw Drake coming up as I was chatting to Mark, I noticed he wasn’t holding Lexi close like he usually does. From behind him Lexi appeared, she walked straight past me and sat on the other end of the table near Chloe and Ron.

She seemed different, not her usual happy self, she didn’t give everyone her tight hugs or even that beautiful smile and the rest of the group also noticed this. She sat on the other side of the table stiffly as if she didn’t want to be here in the first place, I noticed her jagged movements and how jumpy she was too.

Did we cause this? Malek asked me and I really wasn’t sure. I hope not…

I watched as Rachel spoke to her and Lexi gave her a straight blank answer with a soft voice, her face was void of emotion even the smile she gave Rachel was fake.

“Why is she acting strange?” Rachel asked through the mind link.

I watched as Drake tensed next to me as he replied, “Not sure, just ignore her.” He says ignorantly and it immediately pisses me off that he doesn't care.

I chat with the boys a while as I observe Lexi and how she moved away from Drake when he put his arm around her, he pushes her roughly against his shoulder making her wince. I can feel my wolf becoming agitated at Drakes attitude towards our girl.

Those two haven't been their usual selves. They haven't said one word to each other the entire time and they're not all touchy feely like usual. Lexi sits there blankly as if she doesn’t hear a word everyone says and she continues to stare off into the ocean. I observed Chloe’s worried expression and I’ve seen her sad expression when she looks at Lexi and the death glare she’s been giving Drake since he got here.