One
Adele Russell didn’t much care for telephones. They were, of course, a necessity. An integral part of daily life. She couldn’t imagine being without one but, unlike many of her friends, she spent as little time on the phone as possible. She liked eye contact, and to be able to read body language, especially when she was doing business. There were so many opportunities to be misunderstood on the phone. It was harder to say the things you really wanted to say, and so much could be left unsaid. And one rarely allowed oneself the luxury of silence: a moment to ruminate before replying. Perhaps this was a hangover from the days when a telephone call was an indulgence, when one kept the imparting of information to a bare minimum, conscious of the cost?
Adele would have preferred to have today’s conversation in person, but she didn’t have that option. She had put the call off for long enough already. Adele had never been a procrastinator, but burying the past had taken such a supreme effort of will at the time, she was reluctant to unearth it again. As she picked up the phone, she told herself she wasn’t being greedy or grabby or grasping. She was simply asking for what was rightly hers. And it wasn’t as if she even wanted it for herself.
Imogen. Her granddaughter’s image flickered in her mind for a moment. She felt a mixture of pride and guilt and worry. If it weren’t for Imogen, she would be leaving Pandora’s box firmly shut, she thought. Or would she? Once again, she reminded herself that she had every right to do what she was doing.
Her finger, with its brightly painted nail, hovered over the first zero for a moment before she pressed it. She might be eighty-four, but she still kept herself groomed and glamorous. She heard the long tone of an overseas ring. While she waited for it to be answered, she remembered how many times she had phoned him in secret all those years ago, heart pounding, nose filled with the telephone-box smell of stale smoke, pushing in the money as the pips sounded . . .
‘Hello?’ The voice was young, female, English. Confident.
Adele ran through the possibilities: daughter, lover, second wife, housekeeper . . . ? Wrong number?
‘May I speak to Jack Molloy?’
‘Sure.’ The disinterest in the speaker’s voice told Adele there was no emotional involvement. Probably a housekeeper, then. ‘Who’s calling, please?’
This was just a routine question, not paranoia.
‘Tell him it’s Adele Russell.’
‘Will he know what it’s about?’ Again, routine, not interrogative.
‘He will.’ Of this she was certain.
‘One moment.’ Adele heard the speaker put the phone down. Footsteps. Voices.
Then Jack.
‘Adele. How very lovely. It’s been a long time.’
He sounded totally unfazed to hear from her. His tone was dry, amused, teasing. As ever. But all those years on, it did not have the same effect it once had. She had thought she was so grown up at the time, but she had been so very far from grown up. Every decision she had made had been immature and selfish, until the very end. That’s when her journey into adulthood had really begun, with the realisation that the world didn’t revolve around Adele Russell and her needs.
‘I had to wait until the time was right,’ she replied.
‘I saw William’s obituary. I’m sorry.’
Three lines in the newspaper. Beloved husband, father and grandfather. No flowers. Donations to his favourite charity. Adele spread her fingers out on the desktop and looked at her wedding and engagement rings. She still wore them. She was still William’s wife.
‘This isn’t a social call,’ she told him, sounding as businesslike as she could. ‘I’m calling about The Inamorata.’
There was a pause while he processed the information.
‘Of course,’ he replied. His tone was light, but she sensed he was crestfallen by her briskness. ‘Well, it’s here. I’ve looked after it for you with the greatest of care. She’s ready for you to collect. Any time you like.’
Adele felt almost deflated. She had been ready for a fight.
‘Good. I shall send somebody over.’
‘Oh.’ There was genuine disappointment in his voice. ‘I was hoping to see you. To take you for dinner at least. You’d like where I am. Giudecca . . .’
Had he forgotten that she’d already been there? He couldn’t have. Surely.
‘I’m sure I would. But I no longer fly, I’m afraid.’ It was all too much for her these days. The waiting, the discomfort, the inevitable delays. She had seen enough of the world over the years. She didn’t feel the need to see any more of it.
‘There’s always the train. The Orient Express . . . Remember?’