A Mate for Lazarus(38)

This was such a colossal mess.

Then she realized that Sarah was talking to her. “Are you sure you’re fine? You look pale and like you’re about to hyperventilate or something. Hey, Alex…” She waved a hand in front of her face and Alex snapped out of it.

“Um…yeah…sorry. Too much ice cream,” she mumbled. “I’m not feeling all that good. I think I need a nice hot bath and a nap…or something.” Blood would be good. Her stomach lurched and she covered her mouth.

“Oh no. You ate too much too quickly.” Her eyes clouded with concern. “Do you have brain freeze? Tummy ache?”

“I must have.” Alex nodded her head. “Thanks so much for coming and for the ice cream.” Please leave before I stick my fangs into you. Before I suck your blood. Alex made a gagging noise and slapped a hand over her mouth.

“Oh no! Maybe nausea is a sign that you are pregnant? I think I should stay. Should I call a doctor?”

Alex shook her head. “No, it’s not like that, just too much ice-cream. They never mentioned nausea. Look…” Alex stood up off the bed. “I really just need to rest. I’ll feel better in no time.”

Sarah narrowed her eyes and for a few seconds there Alex was sure that her friend would insist on staying. Then she cocked her head and nodded. “Okay, but I’m coming back in an hour or two.”

“Sure thing. I’m sure I’ll feel much better by then.” Or…not. Alex made her way to the door and opened it. Thankfully Sarah stood up and followed her.

“You promise me that you’ll be okay?”

“I’m fine.” I’m pregnant not dying. Oh my god…I’m pregnant. She felt her eyes prick but blinked a few times to get rid of her tears. She forced a smile, keeping her mouth pursed.

“I’ll be back soon.”

Alex nodded some more. She closed the door and turned the lock. She leaned her forehead against the door for a bit, trying to regain her composure. Falling apart was not going to help anything. Then she walked back to her bed and sat down.

Alex had been trying so hard not to touch her belly. Her hands shook as she rubbed them against her stomach. “Looks like it’s just you and me kid.” Her voice hitched. She should let someone know about this. The only problem was that she didn’t want to because she still didn’t know what to do.





Chapter 18




Two days later…

The sound of laughing in the suite down the hall was enough to grate the hell out of every nerve in his body. It had been going on for an hour and enough was e-fucking-nough. Lazarus slammed his door shut and strode in the direction of the noise.

As he drew closer he realized who it was. No fucking way. He would rather put up with the racket. The air was thick with hearts and cupid’s arrows. It made him sick to his stomach. Just as he was turning around, Griffin strode from the room. “Hi, Lazarus…we were just talking about you.”

The human female that had stood up for Griffin, a few days before, walked into the hallway as well.

“Lazarus!” York bellowed from inside the suite. “Get your ass in here. I have news.”

He had to roll his eyes and he took a step back. Lazarus did not want to be here. Fuck no! “I was just leaving.” He grunted, jamming his hands into his pockets.

“I’m going to be a dad. My Cass is with child. We found out this morning!” York shouted. A loud, feminine giggle erupted. Lazarus could hear York murmuring words of love to his female.

“Lazarus.” Gideon put his head around the jamb. “Please come in. This is my new place.”

“Our new place.” Jenna said as she wound her arms around Gideon who had made a full recovery. The male looked like nothing had happened. He looked so fucking happy that it made Lazarus feel sick just looking at him. At them. Then he felt guilty because they were his friends. He wanted them to be happy and content. He just couldn’t bare the sight of it right now.

“Congratulations all round.” He tried to sound like he meant it and failed. The joy had been sucked out of him. He wanted to be happy for his friends but he couldn’t. Not when he felt dead inside.

“Please come in.” Gideon gestured into his suite.

“Yeah. We’ve missed you.” Jenna smiled.

“Not too fucking much I hope.” Gideon narrowed his eyes at his female. The male was still smiling.

Jenna giggled and slapped his arm, reminding him of how Alexandra used to slap him on his arm like that.

“You should spend some time with your friends,” Griffin said. “We need to go though, so maybe later?” He looked down at the human at his side and then back at Lazarus.

Lazarus didn’t respond.

“You should call me, we could…talk.” Griffin gave Lazarus a look.

Lazarus nodded, taking another step back. He didn’t feel like chit fucking chats. There would be no calls.

“Come on. Come inside.” Gideon pulled his female more firmly against him and Lazarus only felt emptier watching them. More fucking heart sore than ever. It made him want to hurt things. Break things.

He shook his head. “Next time.”

“Promise?” Jenna raised her brows.

Lazarus grunted, not wanting to commit to anything. He put a hand up and turned to leave.

“Wait.” It was the human at Griffin’s side. “I need to have a quick word, please.”

He gave a shake of the head. No fucking way. She would try to talk to him about Alexandra. So far he had done a good job of avoiding her. At least, he had avoided her when she had tried to see him initially. It seemed as if she had given up and so damned soon. It was clear that the female had never felt anything for him. Lazarus took another step in the opposite direction. He wasn’t sure what he would do if she was with child. Fuck!

“I’m worried.” She did sound fearful. Her voice shook a little. “Please. One minute.”

Fuck!

His heart beat faster. Was there something wrong with Alexandra? Was she ill?

Lazarus swung back around. “What is it?” He growled and the female flinched. He sucked in a deep breath. “I’m sorry. I won’t hurt you. Please just say what you need to say.”

The little human looked from Griffin to where Jenna and Gideon stood in the doorway and then her gaze flew back to him. “I need a minute…alone.” She emphasized the word.

Her eyes were overly large and her heart raced. Lazarus could see that the female was afraid of him yet she still wanted to talk in private. It must be important. He nodded once. “Come with me.”

She swallowed hard and walked towards him. At the last second, she turned back to Griffin. “I’ll be right back.”

The male’s jaw was clenched and his whole frame radiated tension. After a few beats, he nodded. “I’ll wait here.” He folded his arms and gave Lazarus a hard stare. Then his demeanor softened and he gave Lazarus a small nod.

They walked down the hall a ways, stopping outside his suite. “Do you want to come in?” He tried hard not to growl or to narrow his eyes.

“No, this is fine.” She wrung her hands together in front of her. “I haven’t seen Alexandra in two days. She won’t open her door or accept my calls.”

Lazarus wasn’t sure what to make of that.

“She wasn’t herself when I saw her last either. She seemed really sick or…I don’t know. I can’t put my finger on it. There is something wrong though, I just know it.” Her eyes were filled with concern.

“You are a good female,” Lazarus finally said. “You look for the good in others. Alexandra is doing this to try and get attention. She wants to speak to me about what happened. This is exactly what she was angling for.”

Sarah shook her head. “You’re so wrong. Alex told me everything and she didn’t go easy on herself either. I don’t agree with what she did but I understand. The bottom line is that she really loves you. She didn’t expect to fall in love, but she did.” The human inhaled deeply. “Look, I didn’t come to see you to try and get you guys back together. You have every right to be angry. I wouldn’t blame you if you didn’t take her back. People make mistakes though. Some people learn from their mistakes and grow. I think that Alex is one of those people.”

He felt like putting his fingers in his ears and making strange noises because he sure as hell didn’t want to listen to these sob fucking stories. He didn’t want to hear how much Alexandra loved him. Hearing those words was like silver to his wounds.

If he was truly honest with himself though, hearing Sarah talk made him want to run back to the human. Made him want to forget her lies and deception but it wasn’t going to happen.

“I know that she’s upset. I realize that she might not want company right now but there’s more to it than that. Something is wrong. She won’t let them clean her room and she makes the kitchen staff leave her food outside the door. No one has seen her in two days. I was the last person to see her and she looked…ill. I’m really worried.”

Two days prior would have put her at two days after she had been in heat which was too soon for her to start craving blood. It couldn’t be that. He would expect those symptoms to show up today or tomorrow. What the fuck? He didn’t like the sound of this. Not one fucking bit. Mostly because it felt like a trap.