A Lick of Frost (Merry Gentry #6)(33)

“I believe in pornography I would be what is termed a fluffer. They do everything together, do the brothers. I helped keep one ready while the other finished.”
He said it as if it were the most normal thing in the world. There was no condemnation, no anger, nothing. It was the way of his world once. The only world he’d known until his king gave him to me. I tried very hard to give Kitto choices in his new life, but I had to be careful, because too many choices made him anxious. His entire world had literally changed. He had never seen electricity or a television. He was now living on the estate of one of Hollywood’s leading actresses, though he’d never seen a single one of her movies. He was much more impressed that she had once been the goddess Conchenn—a secret that Hollywood did not know.
“I will be with you tonight, Merry. I will help you.”
“I can’t ask you….”
He put his fingers against my lips. “You do not have to ask. None of your other men will know goblin culture as I do. I do not say that I could protect you from them, but I can keep you from falling into traps of custom.”
I kissed his fingers and moved his hand away from my mouth so I could lay another kiss against the palm of his hand. I wanted to say, “I can’t let you because they abused you,” but he didn’t see it that way. To tell him it was abuse when he didn’t think it was seemed wrong. It was his culture, not mine. Who was I to throw stones after what I’d seen in Andais’s bed today? Poor Crystall.
There was a soft knock on the door. I sighed, and snuggled deeper into the pillows. I did not want to deal with another crisis today. I had one all nice and scheduled for later tonight when the goblin twins arrived.
Kitto leaned over and whispered against my hair, “You are the princess. You can tell them to go away.”
“I can’t tell them to go away until I know what they want.” I called out, “Who is it?”
“It’s Rhys.”
Kitto and I exchanged a look. He widened his eyes, his version of a shrug. He was right. It would have to be something important for Rhys to willingly see me in bed with a goblin, any goblin. He even liked Kitto, or at least had sat up late with him introducing him to marathon film noir movie sessions. He’d gone along with Galen when the two of them took Kitto shopping for modern clothes. But Rhys always left if it got physical with Kitto.
Whatever would bring Rhys willingly into this room had to be important. Important today meant bad. Shit. Out loud I said, “Come in.”
Kitto started to move away from me as if he were going to leave, but I grabbed his arm and kept him propped on his elbow above me. “This is your room. You don’t leave.”
Kitto looked doubtful but he stayed where I wanted him. He was good that way. He followed orders beautifully, which was more than I could say for most of the other men.
Rhys walked in, closing the door quietly behind him. I studied his face, and he looked peaceful enough. “Doyle is a very stubborn man even for a sidhe.”
“You’re just figuring that out?” I asked.
Rhys grinned. “Fair enough. I knew it already.”“He still won’t let Merry sit by his side?” Kitto asked. He looked perfectly at ease beside me now, as if he had never considered moving away.
Rhys moved farther into the room as he spoke. “He says, ‘I am to protect her, not she me.’ He further says that you need your rest for tonight, not to sit and worry over him.”
“I would have cuddled him while we both slept,” I said.
“His loss, our gain,” Rhys said, grinning again. He took off his jacket.
“Our loss,” Kitto said, a lilt of surprise in his voice.
Rhys paused, jacket in one hand. His shoulder holster was very stark against the pale blue of his shirt. Though the shoulder holster implied that it was just for guns, that wasn’t true at all. All the men who had been with me for a few months had custom rigs made, I suspect by one of the leather workers inside faerie. No human could have made them so quickly and so perfectly. There were also intricate designs worked into the leather, and nearly ingenious ways to carry as many weapons as possible and still be able to slip modern jackets over them all.
Rhys stood there with a gun under one arm and a knife on the other. A second gun rode at his waist. There was also a short sword belted somehow across his back so that the hilt stuck a little out from behind his back on one side. He could grab it sort of like a gun worn at the small of the back.
“I touched you in the lawyer’s office, and didn’t feel all the weapons,” I said. “There’s a spell that affects sight and touch.”
“If you didn’t pick up on it, then it’s as good as promised,” Rhys replied.
“Why did I see the swords at Frost and Doyle’s back?”
“The enchantment only works if you don’t break the line of the clothing covering the holster. They keep insisting on huge swords that show around the edges of the jackets, so you see the swords. It also makes it more likely that people will notice their guns and other weapons. Once you draw attention to what amounts to an illusion, it begins to break down. You know that.”
“But I didn’t realize that that was what the leather rigs were, bespelled.”
He shrugged.
“It must have cost a pretty penny.”
“They were gifts,” he said.
I gave him wide eyes. “Not this much magical work.”
“You made yourself pretty popular among the lesser fey when you gave your little speech in the hallway, about how most of your friends were below stairs when you were a child, not among the sidhe.”
“It’s true,” I said.
“Yes, but it also helped win them to you. That and you being part brownie.”
“A lesser fey did the leatherwork?” I asked. 
He nodded. “While the sidhe have lost most of their magic, the lesser fey have held on to more than we knew. I think they were afraid to point out to the sidhe that the lesser fey hadn’t faded as much as the greater fey.”
“Wise of them,” I said.
Rhys was at the foot of the bed now. “Not that I don’t like my nifty new leather rig, but are you delaying so you can think of a polite way to send me away, or is there a question you don’t want to ask?”
“Actually, I am interested in the magic on the leather. We may need all the magical help we can get soon. But this is the first time you’ve willingly come into Kitto’s room when I’ve been with him. We’re wondering what’s up.”
He nodded and looked down, as if gathering his thoughts. “Unless you object, either of you, I’d like to join you for afternoon cuddling.” He raised his face and displayed one of the most neutral expressions I’d ever seen from him. He usually hid his emotions behind a wry humor. Today he was serious. It wasn’t like him.
“My opinion doesn’t count,” Kitto said, but he scooted down beside me, pulling the sheet up to cover most of himself.
Rhys put his jacket over one arm. “We’ve been over this, Kitto. You’re sidhe now, which means you get to be as opinionated as the rest of us.”
“Oh, please,” I said. “Not as opinionated as all that. Kitto’s sort of refreshingly undemanding.”
Rhys smiled at me. “Are we that bad?”
“Sometimes,” I said. “You’re not as bad as some.”
“Like Doyle,” he said.
“Frost,” said Kitto, then seemed shocked at his insult of the other man. He actually covered his face with the sheet, snuggling tightly against the side of my body. But there was a tension to him now that had nothing to do with sex. He was frightened.
Was he frightened of Rhys? He had tried to hurt, if not kill, Kitto on at least one occasion when I first brought him to Los Angeles. Apparently, a few movies and shopping trips couldn’t make up for earlier hostility. Sort of like parents trying to win over kids in a divorce. If you’re mean, all the treats in the world don’t make up for it later.
Rhys had been mean, and Kitto had been hiding that he was still afraid of the other man. I had missed it completely. I had thought we were as much a big happy family as we were going to get. How could I rule these people if I couldn’t even keep peace and safety among my own lovers?
“I don’t think Kitto’s comfortable with you being here, Rhys,” I said. I stroked Kitto’s back under the covers. He snuggled harder against me as if afraid of what I would ask him. I didn’t understand why “servicing” Holly and Ash didn’t bother him, but Rhys did. Maybe it was a cultural thing that I didn’t understand because I wasn’t goblin enough. I would be their high queen, but I would never truly be goblin. They were our foot soldiers, our strong arm, and most likely to be cannon fodder. The Red Caps were our shock troops. But I was missing something, right this minute, about the goblin in my bed. He was truly sidhe by birth of his magic, but in his heart he was, and always would be, goblin, just as there was more human to me because I’d gone to human schools and had human friends. That more than genetics made me more human than I would have been, more American than I would have been in the way I thought. Sometimes I wondered if my father would have found another excuse to raise me outside of faerie if Andais hadn’t tried to kill me. Father had felt that it was very important that I understand our new country.