Xavier FINAL(109)

     “We have sex Zandor. I’m just less--.”

     “Of a man?” Cyrus laughed.

     “Laugh now, wait until Tara is knocked up, you’ll want to be gentle too.”

     “Nah.” Cyrus had a shit eating grin on his face.

     “Okay tell me that when she’s pregnant.”

     He chuckled.

     He looked up at me and we locked eyes. Very discreetly he shook his head no.

     I smiled and looked at the ground then up and he winked.

     We went to Cyrus’s place first to drop him off and I made up some bullshit about needing to grab something because I had to know.

     We walked in and he looked at me, “Don’t ask ‘cause I won’t answer you.”

     “You happy?”

     “Un- fucking- believably happy bro.”

     “When is she--.”

     “Can’t say shit. We get married next weekend that happens first. I want her to have that moment. I want her to have everything that she lost.”

     I gave him a hug, “Lips are sealed.”

     I grabbed a bottle of wine out of the fridge. “Gotta make it look good.”

     “We don’t need it anyways. See you Sunday?”

     “See you Sunday.”

     ~

     I punched in the code, opened the door, kicked of my shoes, and walked into the kitchen. I grabbed two glasses out of the cupboard, grabbed the wine. Then I skipped my happy ass up the stairs. I had to say I was sorry, explain I was being a douche, give her a sweet kiss, some puppy dog eyes, a glass of wine, and then she was getting the D.

     I had this shit all figured out.





Chapter 27



     The Girls



     I threw up for an hour straight before I called my Mom after Mrs. Steel had dropped me off. Yes even at my age I wanted her when I wasn’t feeling well. She convinced me that I should go to the doctors. It was flu season and I had forgotten to get my shot.

     I called a cab, I didn’t want to bother James and I didn’t want to upset Xavier more than I already had.

     They got me right in and did the nasal swab test. While I waited they did blood work and a urine sample. It was a half an hour before they came back in. The nurse informed me that I didn’t have the flu. She thought I had a cold. I was sent home and told to sleep and drink as much water as I could.

     I called Mom to let her know I was fine. She asked that I please come home during spring break. I agreed to. It would be just a Friday and through the weekend. I told her work was busy and important to me.

     I didn’t tell her I was in love with Xavier. I didn’t want her to think I was crazy or tell me it was too soon. I had been telling myself that enough I didn’t need outside reinforcements.

     I looked at me phone several times before I finally fell asleep.

     ~

     I woke feeling the bed dip behind me, “Taelyn.” His lips touched my neck first. “I’m sorry about earlier. It won’t happen again.” I pretended to be asleep. “It’s only seven o’clock, wake up and tell me you accept my apology.”

     “Tell me what I did. That’s all I asked earlier. Please just tell me what I did.” I realized I was pleading with him and the way he looked at me hurt. I knew he looked shaken.

     “It was all me. Jealous, not wanting to share you, not wanting to share my time with you and I fucked up. I promised if you were mine you would never spend Friday night alone. I already fucked that up.”

     “You’re here now.”

     “Tomorrow is Saturday you’ll wake up in the morning with my tongue between your legs and don’t tell me you’re bleeding.”

     “I haven’t all day.”

     “I told you if you were mine no one would hurt you and live to see the next day. I’ve hurt you but I won’t again. Ever.”

     I rolled over and looked at him. “Please don’t! It hurts so much more with you than --.”

     “If you love me you won’t say his name again.”