“That’s all nice Xavier but as you said it’s very junior high. And you’re an idiot because that’s not what I was pissed about. I want respect and I sure as hell don’t want to hear you tell some guy that he should steer clear of feelings. Like I’m some ball and chain.”
“That’s not what I meant. Damn Taelyn I just asked you to be mine. I just basically gave you my balls.”
“I had them before. You get the respect part down and we can talk. Now even though you think I act like a child doesn’t mean I do. I have responsibilities so you need to leave so I can get ready for work.”
“Tell me what to say then because I have no clue what more I can say to you.”
“Nothing okay. Just give me space.”
“Fine.” He started walking away and my heart felt like it was breaking. “One more thing. These feelings I have for you are real. I’ve never felt it before. If I had there would be no way in hell I would have been able to walk away. So what we have is ours, it’s the real deal and I’m just waiting for you to be done feeling like shit because you have the same feelings for me. It was from day one and you know it. So I need some space too because I know that I want you fully and completely. When you’re ready let me know.”
He started to walk away and I was so mad at him I couldn’t let him.
“That’s a cop out. You wanna be a man then you don’t get to do it in bed or when you feel like it. You want me to trust you tell me why I should. Tell me why I should lay wide open for you. Tell me why you demand trust from me when you don’t trust in yourself or what you say we have. Give name to the feelings because I am so scared that you’re gonna crush me worse than anyone ever has or anyone ever could. You have me by the feet dangling me upside down over a snake pit and you don’t know if you would pull me up or let me go. If you wanna be the one to save me, protect me, control me, you better damn well man up.”
“I’m not dangling you Irish I’m holding you the fuck up. Giving you what you can handle. If you’re sure you are ready I have no problem admitting that I am in love with you.” He stormed towards me and grabbed my face positioning it where he wanted it. “I love you. You know it just like I know you love me.”
I closed my eyes and let his words continue to consume me.
When I opened them he was staring straight into my eyes.
“Does it scare you?”
“No Taelyn. Not even a little.”
“What happens next?”
“Shower, then fuck like monkeys.”
“Will you ever make love to me?”
“It’ll be a first.”
“Xavier?”
His lips were on my temple.
“Say it again.”
“I love you Taelyn Patrick.”
“I love you too.”
“I know.” He kissed my lips and I laughed. “We’re gonna be late for work.”
Chapter 25
Love - X
We rode into work together and as much as I hate to admit it she was right, I did have post cum-snuggle syndrome. I didn’t want to let go of the girl who fucked me stupid like my brothers chicks had done to them. I thought of Dad a lot last night. I really wished he could meet her, Carly, Bekah, and Tara. He would be damn proud of our choices. We loved deeper than we fucked and let’s be honest, we fucked pretty deep.
I opened the door and held my hand out for her and she took my hand. When we opened the door Abe was standing there smiling.
“You did good X. This place looks great. Your family is gonna be proud of you.”
“We have work to do still. Gotta make the money now.” I squeezed Taelyns' hand.
“You two?”
“He loves me,” Taelyn said and smiled.
Abe’s eyebrows shot up and he looked at me.
“It happens.” I told him.
“Falcon’s done?”
“Yeah and moved up to Tarrytown. He’s gotta get Cyrus’s place done.”