Worth the Fall(21)
“There’s a time limit.”
“All right. Jeez.” She took a deep breath and let it out. “I hide Lucky Charms in my closet. And I eat them,” she added. “In the closet.”
“You,” Matt began, pulling his sunglasses down enough for her to see his brown eyes twinkling with laughter, “should not tell people that.”
Her answer was automatic. “I don’t.”
“You told me.”
Abby blinked, absorbing his words. Why had she told him?
Their eyes locked in a grade-school staring contest. He was too big, too intense, too…She didn’t know, but something cut below the surface of wherever they’d been just minutes before. She caved first and looked away. “It wasn’t that interesting.”
“Wrong.” His voice was so definitive she looked up. “Everything about you interests me.”
She sat, pinned like a butterfly, weighed down under his intense gaze. Had she ever been the object of anyone’s undivided attention? And Matt wasn’t just anyone.
“Breathe,” he finally said and sat back in his chair.
She wasn’t breathing? And he’d noticed? Great.
“Mommy, I’m hungwy. Let’s get ice cweam!”
Abby checked the time. Almost four. Surprised they’d made it this long, she stood and Gracie cheered, taking the movement as a yes.
Matt got up too, and Charlie grabbed on to the bottom edges of his swim trunks.
“Looks like he’s adopted you,” Abby said, gathering her kids’ stuff, which seemed to have multiplied.
“Like a pet?” Matt ran his hand over Charlie’s white-blond hair as her son looked up at him, his cherub face all brown eyes and bright smile.
“Hmm, maybe a pony,” she teased.
“A pony? Stallion maybe.”
She smiled at the mock insult in his voice and fought not to glance at his shorts.
Matt picked up Charlie like a man who’d done so a thousand times. A few steps on the hot sand and Gracie ran to Matt’s side, arms raised, looking for a free ride. He scooped her up too, never breaking stride.
When they reached the boardwalk, Matt put Gracie down and knelt to rinse Charlie’s sandy feet. A sick feeling slithered through her. The scene was too perfect, too real. Just the type that always preceded a crushing blow.
Walk away now. Before you get attached. Before you get hurt.
“You don’t have to come,” she blurted.
He looked up from working Charlie’s feet into his little rubber shoes and sent her a questioning look over his shoulder. “You don’t want me to?”
Yes, she did. That was the problem. Stupid, said another voice. It’s ice cream, not a life promise. He was free to eat what and where he wanted.
“I just meant you don’t have to. I mean I don’t want you to think I need you. To help me, that is, because I’m pregnant and you’re a gentleman and everything.”
He straightened, freezing her with a look. “I rarely do anything I don’t want to do.”
“It’s not that I don’t appreciate it,” she said, doing her best to ignore his hot gaze. “I mean you’re always carrying bags or chairs—”
“Or people,” Matt added.
“Right, and I don’t mean to sound ungrateful. I just don’t want you to feel like you’re obligated or—”
“Abby, take a breath. I like you. I like the kids.” His mouth turned up in a smooth, easy smile and his eyes glinted with laughter. “I like ice cream.”
She bit the inside of her mouth, trying not to grin like a fool. He had that effect on her—made her nervous and giddy at the same time. “Okay, then. Let’s go get ice cream.”
They walked through the crowd of tables and people until they found a place to sit by the pool. She couldn’t blame the female gawkers as Matt passed in front of each lounge chair with Charlie on one hip, pulling at his sunglasses, and Gracie on the other, working his hair into spikes. He was heart stopping. He was a hero.
But he’s not my hero. He’s not my anything.
Matt put the kids down on the lounge chair next to her. “I’ll get in line for ice cream.” He was halfway to the snack counter when Charlie scrambled off and chased after him.
“Matty!” He weaved through the iron chairs and tables. “Matty!” Charlie’s voice carried across the crowded space, and Matt stopped and turned.
Abby witnessed the next three seconds in slow motion, each image clear, each second a snapshot in time. A big woman in a flowing, floral cover-up scooting back her chair. The toe of Charlie’s tiny Croc catching on the iron leg. His little arms raising instinctively to brace for impact, not yet coordinated enough to halt his trajectory.