Wicked Grind (Stark World #1)(10)

A wave of embarrassment crashes over me, and I want to kick myself for being such a fool. My apology was for running away twelve minutes ago. But Wyatt obviously thought I was apologizing for what happened twelve years ago.

I expect him to order me out. To tell me firmly and plainly that I have no business being there.

But he says none of that. All he does is look at me so deeply I'm certain he can see all the way to my soul.

I shift under his inspection, feeling raw and naked and exposed. I want to explain. To tell him how confused I was. How much he meant to me. How badly I screwed up. How many people I hurt.

But I can't. The words just don't come. Instead, I can only manage a breathy little gasp before I force out his name, "Wyatt, I-"

"I'm not hiring you, Kelsey. Did you really expect that I would?"

"I-I didn't know it was you," I admit.

"And now you do." He starts to pivot, dismissing me.

"Dammit, Wyatt!"

He stops. His eyes are wide, and I think he's as surprised as I am that a curse escaped my lips. The teenager inside me actually cringes, but my father isn't here. It's only Wyatt, and my outburst has at least snagged his attention.



       
         
       
        

"You need a model," I say. "I need the work."

"This isn't the job for you, Kelsey. We both know that."

I lift my chin. "You don't know me at all."

"No, I don't. I thought I did," he adds, his harsh words making me cringe. "But I know enough to know this isn't you." He indicates the three photographs without drapes. "Or this," he adds, yanking more drapes to the ground to reveal two riveting photos of women who are entirely nude, yet staring out at the camera without an ounce of shame, as if they owned the world and everything in it.

"And certainly not her," he continues, uncovering another, this one in virginal white bridal lingerie, her wrists and ankles bound with red ribbons, her face alight with ecstasy. "Or am I wrong? Is that really what you want, Kelsey? Or are you just here for another piece of me?"

Another piece of me? I have no idea what he means by that, but I don't ask him. I can't. I'm too distracted by the way my heart is beating wildly, and not just in reaction to the waves of restrained anger pulsing off this man, but because of the images he's revealed. Bold women. Brash women.

Fearless women who ask for-and get-what they want. But that isn't me. It never has been. How can it be when I know only too well the price I'd have to pay?

"Well?" Wyatt demands, and when I remain silent, he makes a scoffing noise. "Like I said, that's not who you are."

I bristle. "Did you really just say that? Are you actually telling me that I ought to be ashamed for wanting to pose for you? That those women should be ashamed of their bodies? Their emotions?"

"Ashamed?" He sounds genuinely surprised. "Hell no."

"Then what?"

With a soft chuckle, he saunters toward me. He stops only inches away, his proximity making my head spin.

When he reaches out, I start to take a step back, but force myself to stay perfectly still. This is a test, I'm certain of it. And it's one I'm determined to pass.

Even so, I can't stifle the soft exhale of breath when he gently brushes my hair off my face, his fingertip grazing my ear in the process. I feel that touch all the way in my core, and I have to forcibly press my lips together in order not to whimper.

Slowly, he traces his fingertip down the line of my jaw, then down my neck, lower and lower until I'm not breathing, and it's taking all of my strength to stand perfectly still and not run.

"What I'm saying," he says as his fingertip rises with the curve of my breast, "is that I don't think you can handle it."

"I can," I say, though my voice comes out shaky and not firm at all. 

"Is that so? The kindergarten teacher has a wild side? The dancer's abandoning beginning ballet and tap for more exotic pursuits?"

"How do you know what I've been-?"

But he continues speaking as if I hadn't said a word. "You're willing to do this?" he asks, putting his hands on my shoulders as he steps behind me, so that we are both facing the wall of exposed photos.

"You're actually going to reveal yourself to the camera? To me?" His hands graze down my arms as he speaks, making it difficult for me to concentrate on his words, which are drowned out by the pounding of my blood.

"And it's not just your body on display, but what's inside you. Are you willing to show that fire? That heat? To expose yourself like that, open and vulnerable, to whoever stands in front of those photos? And to me, too, Kelsey. Can you handle knowing I'll see you raw and vulnerable? And not just see you. Do you understand that I'm the one who's going to take you there?"