When Dimple Met Rishi(2)

She should be thankful I brushed my teeth this morning , Dimple thought. But Mamma would never understand Dimple's aversion to makeup and fashion. Every other week one of the aunties from the Indian Association came over to help Mamma dye her roots black while Papa was at work. He was under the impression she still had her youthful color.

"Where are your contacts? And remember when I showed you how to do kaajal ?" Kaajal was the potted eyeliner that was hugely popular in Mamma's youth, a trend which she apparently hadn't noticed had died away sometime in the '70s.

"Vividly," Dimple muttered, trying to tamp down the annoyance in her voice. From beside Mamma, Papa, ever the peacemaker, was making a surreptitious please let it go face. "I just graduated three days ago, Mamma. Can't I have this week to relax and be lazy?"

Papa's face now resembled a roti that had been left in the pan too long.

"Relax and be lazy !" Mamma thundered. Her glass bangles jangled in synchrony. "Do you think you're going to find a husband by being lazy ? Do you think, for the past twenty-two years since marrying your father, I've had a minute to myself to be lazy ?"

Of course not, Dimple thought. Because you've been too busy hovering. She bit her tongue and sank down on the sofa, knowing that once Mamma got started, she'd be at it for a while. It was better to let her talk until the words petered out, like those windup chattering teeth you could buy at the joke store. There were a million things she could say in acerbic response, of course, but Dimple still hadn't ruled out asking to enroll in Insomnia Con if the opportunity presented itself. It was in her best interest to hold back.


 

"No, I haven't," Mamma continued. " ‘Lazy' shouldn't be in a woman's vocabulary." Adjusting the violet dupatta on her gold and pink salwar kameez , Mamma settled against the couch. She looked like the brilliant Indian flower Dimple knew she herself would never be. "You know, Dimple, a grown daughter is a reflection of her mother. What do you think others in our community will think of me if they see you . . . like this?" She made a vague gesture at Dimple's person. "Not that you aren't beautiful, beti , you are, which is what makes it even more tragic-"

Dimple knew she shouldn't. But the flare of temper that overtook her made it all but impossible to stop the flood of words leaving her mouth. "That is such a misogynistic view, Mamma!" she said, jumping up, pushing her glasses up on her nose. Papa was muttering something under his breath now. He might've been praying.

Mamma looked like she couldn't believe what she was hearing. "Misogynistic! You call your own mother misogynistic?" Mamma darted an indignant look at Papa, who appeared to be extremely invested in a loose thread on his kurta. Turning back to Dimple, Mamma snapped, "This is what I'm worried about! You lose sight of the important things, Dimple. Looking nice, making an effort . . . these are the things girls value in our culture. Not this"-she made air quotes, which up until now Dimple hadn't realized she knew how to use-" ‘misogyny' business."

Dimple groaned and clutched her head, feeling like that ancient pressure cooker Mamma still used when she made idli cakes. She was sure there was an actual chance she would explode. There was no way she and Mamma were related; they may as well have been two entirely different species. "Seriously? That's what you think I should be relegating my brain space to? Looking nice? Like, if I don't make the effort to look beautiful, my entire existence is nullified? Nothing else matters-not my intellect, not my personality or my accomplishments; my hopes and dreams mean nothing if I'm not wearing eyeliner ?" Her voice had risen incrementally until it echoed off the high ceilings.

Mamma, caught up in the moment, stood to meet her glare. "Hai Ram , Dimple! It is not eyeliner-it is kaajal !"

Dimple's temper flashed, the heat tempered only slightly by the dampness of disappointment. This was an argument they'd had so many times, she and Mamma could probably say each other's lines. It was like they were constantly speaking two different languages, each trying to convince the other in an alien lexicon. Why couldn't Mamma make the smallest effort to understand where Dimple was coming from? Did she really think Dimple had nothing valuable to contribute besides her looks? The thought made Dimple's pulse skyrocket. She leaned forward, face flaming, ready to speak her mind about how she really felt- 

The doorbell chime echoed through the house, bringing them to a standstill. Dimple's heart still raced, but she felt all the million old arguments stall, unspoken behind her lips.

Mamma adjusted her dupatta , which had begun to fall off during the argument, and took a deep breath. "We have guests," she said demurely, patting her hair. "I trust you will behave for them, Dimple?"