Wanting More(56)

Conner held his hand up and walked away from me. He talked quietly and it made me uneasy. When he got off the phone, he approached me and I knew from the look on his face what the call was about.

He sighed and grabbed my hands. "Please don't get upset, but we gotta take a rain check on that dinner."

"Why?" I knew the reason, but I wanted him to say it out loud.

"You know why."

I pulled away from him and put my hands on my hips. "No Conner, I don't know why, so why don't you start filling me in."

"Don't do this, Blaze."

"Don't do what? Get upset that you want to leave me to be with her."

He tried to grab my arm but I pulled away. "It ain't even like that and you know it."

I pointed at him, letting him know that I was pissed. "No, what I do know is that you are blowing off being with me to be with her. That's all that matters to me. With everything I'm going through, I just can't take hearing this. I can't feel this way."

"Don't you want to help my sister?"

"Not if I have to let my boyfriend screw around with the bitch that caused their problems in the first place."

He smiled and I got even more angry. I pushed my way past him and walked into the main part of the salon. "Amy, please don't do this to me now. I just need one more night."

"Are you going to sleep with her?

He shook his head and put his arms in the air. "I don't want to."

"But you will?"

"I'm a man of word, darlin'. I told Ty I would help him and I'm going to see this through."

"And I'm a woman that made a new promise to myself that I would never let another man hurt me again."

He grabbed me from behind and tucked his head in my neck. "Don't you dare do what I think you're doin'."

I let him continue to hold me, but I didn't back down on my decision. "Go, if you have to see things through. Go do what you have to do to make things right for them."

"Please turn around and look at me." I turned around with my eyes filled with jealous tears and I couldn't believe what I saw. Conner's eyes were as soaked as mine. "Tell me I'm never going to lose you."

"Please don't cry.” I reached up and brushed his tears away.

"I don't know what to do. I love you so much, but I love my family too. You think this is easy for me, but it ain't. I've never felt this way and I know that either way someone gets hurt."

I got it, I really did, but it didn't make it any easier to handle. "I can't promise you that I will be okay with what happens, but I know that I'm not going to stop loving you."



He kissed both of my hands. "Can I call you later?"



"If you don't I'll assume the worst." Picturing him with her was making my stomach turn. This would be the worst night ever. I'd need to drown my sorrows in wine to get through it.



"Well we can't have that now can we?"





Chapter 25

Conner



This was my last and final chance to make things right again for my family. I wasn't going to keep up the charade any longer, not when I had so much that I could lose. I knew that getting Heather out of our lives was just the first step in getting where I needed to be in my life. Sure, I had Amy's heart, but I needed her to be mine completely.

Heather had called in regards to a text message I had sent her. I told her I was about to leave town for a while and wanted to give her a night she'd never forget. It was all a lie, but I'm sure I'd made her lifetime.

I know I came across as shallow, but the fact was that I'd always been told I was good at satisfying a woman. Just knowing that gave me the mentality that I could be with whoever I wanted. Amy was my biggest challenge and I had no idea that one night with her would change everything I knew to be true about myself.

One night was standing in the way of my future.

I grabbed the bottle of whiskey from under my seat and drank down half of it. It burned and I had to fight it from coming back up. I needed to numb my senses; to complete the task without backing out.

I was anxious on the ride to Heather's house. For months I had been inserting myself into her life just enough to have her eating out of the palm of my hand. Tonight I needed to forget about everything else in my life and do what I knew I was good at. I needed to do the deed and wait until she fell asleep to go through her shit.

When she answered the door in a little two piece number, I didn't think about her as a person. No, she was just a little piece of ass. Her long blonde hair hung down in curls over each of her breasts and she bit down on her lip. "You ready to have some real fun?" She asked as she closed the door behind us.

This girl had her own agenda and it was clear from the get go. She led me up a set of steps, revealing that the back of her outfit was nothing but a couple of strings. I didn't like the color yellow, but the matching heels she wore showed off her leg muscles. When we got to her room, she turned around and grabbed the collar of my shirt, pulling me to follow her.