Wanting More(30)
If I didn’t feel like a whore from cheating, I really felt like one now. I wasn’t torn, I knew exactly where I wanted to be, even if I knew I could never really have him.
Since Rick was on the road for a few days, I thought I would have time to sort out what I needed to do, but something happened that I just couldn’t ignore. Conner showed up on the second night right before I closed the salon. The last customer had left and he locked the door behind him.
“Amy, we need to talk.”
Chapter 13
Conner
Throughout my whole life there was one person that I would have laid down and died for. I swore to my father’s grave that I would do everything I could to protect my sister and make sure she was always happy.
Even though I thought Ty’s plan to alter the paternity test was convoluted, it still would have given Bella the future that she deserved. Behind my sister’s back, Ty had to enlist the help of one of his crazy ex’s, who took it upon herself to allegedly drug him. I said allegedly, because I wanted to give my brother-in-law the benefit of the doubt before I pulverized him.
When he called me freaking out and not knowing what had happened, I told him to keep his mouth shut and live with the lie. I don’t know what made me really set the plan into motion, but I got it in my head that I could somehow hook up with the chick and get her to tell me the truth without even Ty knowing.
I’d hooked up with my fair share of women, primarily on bets with my buddies, but this one was going to matter more than a twenty dollar bill. I needed to save my sister’s marriage and her family.
She’d hate me for it, considering she couldn’t stand the bitch in the first place and also, somehow I was on the track to sleep with someone that Ty had been with before. The thought kind of made me sick, but I kept it in the back of my head and refused to think of it that way.
The only problem I saw in my plan was getting to know the girl and there was only one person that could help me do it. I was about to really piss off someone that I may or may not have been developing real feelings for. I had to choose, my family or myself.
“Amy, we need to talk.”
We were in her salon with the doors locked and the lights dimmed. I reached over and took her hand, pulling her into my arms. I just wanted to feel her soft skin once more before she slapped the shit out of me and never talked to me again. I regretted this decision from the moment I saw her beautiful smile light up when she saw me walk through that door.
With her hands around my neck, I stole one more kiss before I shattered her smile into a million pieces. “So, what did you want to talk about? The dickhead is on the road for the next two days. Do you want to go somewhere?”
God damn it! I’m such an asshole.
“Blaze, Amy…I uh need to tell you somethin’ and you’re not goin’ to like it.”
She reached her hand up and played with my lips. “Unless you are planning on going back to being a pompous jerk, I think I can handle anything.”
I pushed her away and made her sit down on one of the chairs in the waiting room as I began pacing in front of her, finally squatting down to look her in the eyes. I grabbed her hands and played with them while I thought about exactly what I wanted to say. “Ah, hell, there is no easy way to put this, darlin’. Before I tell you, I just want you to know that I enjoy bein’ with you more than you know. You’re different and now that I’ve had a taste of you, I don’t want to let you go,” I paused and stole a kiss. My lips stayed against hers as I gave her the news she didn’t want to hear. “But I have to stop seein’ you.”
I felt her body tighten up even before I pulled away to see her shocked face. She let go of my hands and just sat there. “So, you just thought you could come here and tell me something like this and I’d be cool with it? I should have known it was just about getting in my pants. Conner, please just leave. I can’t deal with your shit right now. I have enough on my plate and if you cared at all about keeping me safe you wouldn’t have tried to be with me so hard, only to walk away once you had it.” She pushed me down on the floor and started walking away from me.
“Let me explain, before you go all crazy on me.” I jumped up and grabbed her from behind, wrapping my arms around her waist and not letting her go. I could hear her sniffling already and I felt awful, because I wanted nothing more than to pursue what was happening between us. I brushed my lips over her ear, and held her tight against my body.
“Let me go, Conner. You should just leave.”
“I ain’t leavin’ till you hear me out.” I turned her around and backed her up against a wall. She had no place to go and had to listen to my explanation. “This ain’t about you and me, I swear it. Look, somethin’ happened and Randa could lose everything if I don’t help them.”