Feeling him raw, inside of me, has my adrenaline pumping so hard that I forget how to breathe. I’m not sure if I want to. I just want to feel this moment for what it is and never forget it.
I slowly peel his shirt off him while his eyes take me in; every inch of me as if he can’t get enough. His arms flex each time he enters me and his breathing picks up as he pushes himself deeper inside me. I lean my head against the wall, moaning, with each thrust.
My body becomes heated as the steam fills the shower, causing my head to become a clouded haze. Nothing else can be processed but the moment at hand. Between the water splashing against our bodies and the slow rhythm, I’m becoming hypnotized by him. It’s a cruel pleasure. He’s teasing me; ruining me. I can’t concentrate on anything; only the sensation that is building in my body each time he pushes inside me.
He presses his lips to my neck while picking up speed and pushing harder and deeper as if he can’t get enough of me. “You feel so fucking good, Aspen. This feels good.” He places a hand behind my head and pulls it to him so it presses against his forehead; our lips barely brushing. “I’m about to go soon. I can’t hold it in any longer. I need you to come, baby.”
He presses his body weight against mine and starts thrusting into me hard and deep while swirling his thumb over my clit.
I feel myself shaking in his arms and moaning as I get close to climax. It feels so good that I have to scream. I do too. The pleasure is too much for me to bear internally. I fucking scream and grab onto the shower head almost pulling it off. I feel my release as I clamp down around his thick dick and squeeze my legs around his waist.
His reaction is to speed up and go even faster. He’s ready to go now and for some reason I want to experience this in its fullest.
“I’m on birth control,” I say out of breath.
He pauses for a second, presses his lips against mine and then fucks me so hard that I bite down onto his tongue. I suck it and he moans just before he pushes as deep as he can go and I feel him release his load inside me.
He holds me up against the wall, our lips twining as we both fight for air. Neither one of us speak. We don’t need to. We just bask in our release, enjoying this moment of peace.
After a few moments, he gently sets me down, steps out of his briefs and we shower together with him cleaning me. With him touching me all over it’s so hard to not want him back inside of me.
I can see it all over him too as he takes in my body with a look; as if he’s ready to back me against the wall and own me. This want is too great for me.
He leans over my shoulder and runs his lips up my neck, stopping just below my ear. “I want you to come for a ride with me after we shower. I have things I want to tell you.”
I nod my head and close my eyes as he attends to me.
I’m not used to this kind of treatment. I mean from anyone. Is this the way he always was before his life fell apart? Is this the person he has been fighting so hard to hide?
If so . . . then I’m in deep trouble.
I FEEL AS IF A fucking weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I’ve been fighting for so long, using every bit of strength I had to keep this shit inside; to not feel the guilt and pain of losing Helena and our baby. It’s been almost three years since the accident. It’s time I realize the pain will always be there. It’s either learn to live or don’t live at all. A part of me for the last week has been wanting to live. So, I think I’ll hold onto that and go with it.
I’m just throwing on my shirt, when the bedroom door opens and Cale steps inside. He looks a hot mess as if he didn’t sleep for shit. Not a pretty sight.
“Dude. What the fuck was all that noise a bit ago? You had some chick fucking screaming like mad in the shower. It woke my ass up and probably woke Aspen up. It’s too early for this shit.”
I raise an eyebrow at him while slipping on my Chucks and fastening my belt. “It was Aspen. Don’t worry, man. She’s perfectly fucking fine. Trust me.”
He takes a step back and scrunches his forehead up. “Whoa, man. What the fuck do you mean it was Aspen?” He takes quick steps in my direction and stops right in front of me. “That has to be a fucking joke. I know you fucked her the other night. It never happens twice with you. Are you fucking with me?”
I place my hand on his shoulder and squeeze. “Nah, man. I’m not fucking with you.” I smile and slap him on the back, almost making him fall forward. “I’m taking her for a ride on my motorcycle and chilling for a bit before work.” I walk toward the door and stop to look back at him. “It’s a nice fucking day out. I don’t want to be cooped up inside.”