The Dark Tower-Part 1#-2#(32)
Mordred Deschain, on the other hand, had two fathers.
One of whom now slept on the screen before him.
You're old, Father, he thought. It gave him vicious pleasure to think so; it also made him feel small and mean, no more than … well, no more than a spider, looking down from its web. Mordred was twins, and would remain twins until Roland of the Eld was dead and the last ka-tet broken. And the longing voice that told him to go to Roland, and call him father? To call Eddie and Jake his brothers, Susannah his sister? That was the gullible voice of his mother. They'd kill him before he could get a single word out of his mouth (assuming he had reached a stage where he could do more than gurgle baby-talk). They'd cut off his balls and feed them to the brat's bumbler. They'd bury his castrated corpse, and shit on the ground where he lay, and then move on.
You 're finally old, Father, and now you walk with a limp, and at end of day I see you rub your hip with a hand that's picked up the tiniest bit of a shake.
Look, if you would. Here sits a baby with blood streaking his fair skin. Here sits a baby weeping his silent, eerie tears. Here sits a baby that knows both too much and too little, and although we must keep our fingers away from his mouth (he snaps, this one; snaps like a baby crocodile), we are allowed to pity him a litde.
If ka is a train-and it is, a vast, hurding mono, maybe sane, maybe not-then this nasty litde lycanthrope is its most vulnerable hostage, not tied to the tracks like little Nell but strapped to the thing's very headlight.
He may tell himself he has two fathers, and diere may be some truth to it, but there is no father here and no mother, either. He ate his mother alive, say true, ate her big-big, she was his first meal, and what choice did he have about that? He is the last miracle ever to be spawned by the still-standing Dark Tower, the scarred wedding of the rational and the irrational, the natural and die supernatural, and yet he is alone, and he is a-hungry. Destiny might have intended him to rule a chain of universes (or destroy them all), but so far he has succeeded in establishing dominion over nothing but one old domestic robot who has now gone to the clearing at the end of the path.
He looks at the sleeping gunslinger with love and hate, loathing and longing. But suppose he went to them and was not killed? What if they were to welcome him in? Ridiculous idea, yes, but allow it for the sake of argument. Even then he would be expected to set Roland above him, accept Roland as dinh, and that he will never do, never do, no, never do.
<h3>Chapter III:THE SHINING WIRE</h3>
ONE
"You were watching them," said a soft, laughing voice. Then it lilted a bit of cradle nonsense Roland would have remembered well from his own early childhood: "'Penny, posy, Jack's a-nosy!
Do ya say so? Yes I do-so! He's my sneaky, peeky, darling bah-bo!"
Did you like what you saw before you fell asleep? Did you watch them move on with the rest of the failing world?"
Perhaps ten hours had passed since Nigel the domestic robot had performed his last duty. Mordred, who in fact had fallen deeply asleep, turned his head toward the voice of the stranger with no residual fuzzy-headedness or surprise. He saw a man in bluejeans and a hooded parka standing on the gray tiles of the Control Center. His gunna-nothing more than a beat-up duffelbag-lay at his feet. His cheeks were flushed, his face handsome, his eyes burning hot. In his hand was an automatic pistol, and as he looked into the dark eye of its muzzle,
Mordred Deschain for the second time realized that even gods could die once their divinity had been diluted with human blood. But he wasn't afraid. Not of this one. He did look back into the monitors that showed Nigel's apartment, and confirmed that the newcomer was right: it was empty.
The smiling stranger, who seemed to have sprung from the very floor, raised the hand not holding the gun to the hood of his parka and turned a bit of it outward. Mordred saw a flash of metal. Some kind of woven wire coated the inside of the hood.
"I call it my 'thinking-cap,'" said the stranger. "I can't hear your thoughts, which is a drawback, but you can't get into my head, which is a-"
(which is a definite advantage, wouldn't you say)
"-which is a definite advantage, wouldn't you say?"
There were two patches on the jacket. One read U.S. ARMY and showed a bird-the eagle-bird, not the hoo-hoo bird. The other patch was a name: RANDALL FLAGG. Mordred discovered
(also with no surprise) that he could read easily.
"Because, if you're anything like your father-the redone, that is-then your mental powers may exceed mere communication."
The man in the parka tittered. He didn't want Mordred to know he was afraid. Perhaps he'd convinced himself he wasn't afraid, that he'd come here of his own free will. Maybe he had. It didn't matter to Mordred one way or the other. Nor did the man's plans, which jumbled and ran in his head like hot soup. Did the man really believe the "thinking-cap" had closed off his thoughts? Mordred looked closer, pried deeper, and saw the answer was yes. Very convenient.
"In any case, I believe a bit of protection to be very prudent.
Prudence is always the wisest course; how else did I survive the fall of Farson and the death of Gilead? I wouldn't want you to get in my head and walk me off a high building, now would I?
Although why would you? You need me or someone, now that yon bucket of bolts has gone silent and you just a bah-bo who can't tie his own clout across the crack of his shitty ass!"
The stranger-who was really no stranger at all-laughed.
Mordred sat in the chair and watched him. On the side of the child's cheek was a pink weal, for he'd gone to sleep with his small hand against the side of his small face.
The newcomer said, "I think we can communicate very well if I talk and you nod for yes or shake your head for no.
Knock on your chair if you don't understand. Simple enough!
Do you agree?"
Mordred nodded. The newcomer found the steady blue glare of those eyes unsettling-tres unsettling-but tried not to show it. He wondered again if coming here had been the right thing to do, but he had tracked Mia's course ever since she had kindled, and why, if not for this? It was a dangerous game, agreed, but now there were only two creatures who could unlock the door at the foot of the Tower before the Tower fell which it would, and soon, because the writer had only days left to live in his world, and the final Books of the Tower-three of them-remained unwritten. In the last one that was written in that key world, Roland's ka-tet had banished sai Randy Flagg from a dream-palace on an interstate highway, a palace that had looked to Eddie, Susannah, and Jake like the Castle of Oz the Great and Terrible (Oz the Green King, may it do ya fine). They had, in fact, almost killed that bad old bumhug Walter o' Dim, thereby providing what some would no doubt call a happy ending. But beyond page 676 of Wizard and Glass not a word about Roland and the Dark Tower had Stephen King written, and Walter considered this the real happy ending. The people of Calla Bryn Sturgis, the roont children, Mia and Mia's baby: all those things were still sleeping inchoate in the writer's subconscious, creatures without breath pent behind an unfound door. And now Walter judged it was too late to set them free.
Damnably quick though King had been throughout his career-a genuinely talented writer who'd turned himself into a shoddy (but rich) quick-sketch artist, a rhymeless Algernon Swinburne, do it please ya-he couldn't get through even the first hundred pages of the remaining tale in the time he had left, not if he wrote day and night.
Too late.
There had been a day of choice, as Walter well knew: he had been at he Casse Roi Russe, and had seen it in the glass ball the Old Red Thing still possessed (although by now it no doubt lay forgotten in some castle corner). By the summer of 1997, King had clearly known the story of the Wolves, the twins, and the flying plates called Orizas. But to the writer, all that had seemed like too much work. He had chosen a book of loosely interlocked stories called Hearts in Atlantis instead, and even now, in his home on Turtleback Lane (where he had never seen so much as a single walk-in), the writer was frittering away the last of his time writing about peace and love and Vietnam. It was true that one character in what would be King's last book had a part to play in the Dark Tower's history as it might be, but that fellow-an old man with talented brains-would never get a chance to speak lines that really mattered. Lovely.
In the only world that really mattered, the true world where time never turns back and there are no second chances (tell ya true), it was June 12th of 1999. The writer's time had shrunk to less than two hundred hours.
Walter o' Dim knew he didn't have quite that long to reach the Dark Tower, because time (like the metabolism of certain spiders) ran faster and hotter on this side of things. Say five days.
Five and a half at the outside. He had that long to reach the Tower with Mordred Deschain's birthmarked, amputated foot in his gunna … to open the door at the bottom and mount those murmuring stairs … to bypass the trapped Red King …
If he could find a vehicle … or the right door …
Was it too late to become the God of All?
Perhaps not. In any case, what harm in trying?