Broken Wings (An Angel Eyes Novel)(22)

I watch the big city reporter with her big city hair, but all I really see is my dad in the background standing over a mound of dirt, Sheriff Cahill's arm around his shoulders. The sheriff's not a tall man, so he has to actually reach up to accomplish the feat, but it's a sentimental shot.

A rip-out-your-heart kind of shot.

And it kills me that my family's given the media another one of those shots to splash about.

I walk to the television and snap it off.

I turn away, toward Jake. Toward the one person I know would never mess with my emotions. He's staring at me, his eyes soft.

"I'm so sorry, Elle."

"Let's just get outta here, okay? Before we have reporters camped out on the doorstep."

"Good call," Jake says. "You still up for a stop at Jelly's? We don't have to, if you'd rather not."

"No, let's. I haven't had a single cup of bad coffee today. I'm due."

Jake and I have this Sunday morning tradition. It's silly, really, and it started as kind of a joke. When Kaylee realized that Jake was a churchgoer and that he'd "dragged me into the Jesus stuff"-please note the air quotes-she gave him a hard time. Nothing awful, just Kaylee being Kaylee in her awkward, clumsy, goofing-on-everybody kind of way.

But Jake wasn't fazed by her good-natured contempt. Instead, he went out of his way to invite her to church. Almost daily. Slipping it into conversations. Texting her. Sending her Evites. He even signed her yearbook, "See you at church!"

Her excuse, as always, was that she works on Sundays.

So we stop by Jelly's.

Every Sunday.

And Jake comes up with new ways to torment her. And even though Delia's tried to shove her out the door with us a few times, we still haven't gotten Kaylee into a pew.

But it's a lot of fun trying.

I shake my hair out. This morning I could use a little fun.

"So what's the plan today?" I ask, forcing my mind away from Dad, away from what he's probably seeing right now-or not seeing, as the case may be.

"Doughnuts."

"No, I mean for Kaylee."

"So do I."

Jake waggles his eyebrows but says nothing more.

I squint at him, but this is a secret I can let him keep. For now.

Jelly's is packed. We park across the street in front of the theatre, and I start toward the diner.

"The Donut Factory first," Jake says, taking my hand and leading me across the street. "You look gorgeous today, by the way."

I'm wearing a pale green slip dress and three-inch heels that make me nearly as tall as he is. But the real stunner, I'm sure, is that I've actually done my hair-I mean, beyond a simple braid or a knot on top of my head. I got the blow-dryer out and everything. It's silky and shiny because I feel a fraction better about the world when I'm all dressed up.

"Thought a good scrubbing was in order," I say. "I think I've rolled around in the mud enough for a while."

"You don't look half bad caked in mud either," he says.

"Yes, well. I'd rather not repeat last night if it can be avoided."

The back of his hand grazes my cheek. "Point taken."

The ever-present trio of old men are holding court in front of The Donut Factory as we approach. Custard-filled long johns and the upcoming elections seem to be on the agenda for today. Based on what I pick up as we close in, Bob's throwing his name into the ring for president.

Woody-short, square, hobbitish-whistles as I step onto the curb. I give him a slight curtsy.

"Donut, Jake?" Bob says.

Jake slaps Bob on the shoulder, throwing his aviator cap forward.

"Thanks, but I've got an order waiting for me inside. Rain check?"

"Depends. Who you voting for?"

"You're kidding, right? I've got my Bob Cobb for President T-shirt on order, and take a look at my bumper."

We all turn. Sure enough, the Karmann Ghia's dented bumper sports a red, white, and blue sticker with the words Bobb Cobb for President printed on it.

How did I not notice that before?

"Does Bobb really have two Bs?"

Jake shushes me.

I bite my lip to keep from laughing, but Bob's oblivious-to both my question and the typo.

"Good man," he says. "You can share my table anytime."

Woody whistles once again, and I give him a little wink. We leave them to their politics and step into The Donut Factory where you don't breathe oxygen-you breathe coffee and sugar. Two things that will forever remind me of Jake.

"You have doughnuts on order?" I ask.

Another eyebrow waggle.

"Thanks, Lizzie," Jake says, bypassing the line of customers and taking a pink box from the girl behind the counter.

"Sure, Jake."

"Don't you have to pay her?" I ask as we step back onto the sidewalk.

"Nah. She'll just put it on my tab."

"You have an open tab at The Donut Factory?"

"Better than having one at Beers and Bikes, right?"

I cringe, pretty sure that Dad has a tab there.

"So, you gonna show me?" I ask.

"Show you what?"

"The doughnuts!"

"I don't think so," he says, opening the door to Jelly's. "Let's just say I've been doing some research."

Kaylee's sitting in a booth. Alone. Which is funny, because the place is crammed with people, shoulder to shoulder, waiting for a table. She sits, with only a glass of OJ and a book called The Idiot's Guide to Peru.

I drop into the seat next to her. "Hey."

"You're here! I so did not expect to see you guys this morning." She closes her book, looking strange and sympathetic.

My stomach twists. I hate that look. The one that says she feels sorry for me. That she wishes there was something she could do to help, when clearly there's not.

I had enough of that after Ali.

"Delia said she saw on the news-your mom's grave? I'm so sorry, Elle."

I look away, tuck my hair behind my ear, straighten my dress-anything to avoid the pity on her face.

"What's up with-"

"My dad burying an empty casket?" I shrug. "Really couldn't tell ya."

Her mouth drops open. I hear it pop and look up.

"The casket was empty?" She grabs my hand. "What does that . . . I don't think that was on the news, Elle. Delia would have said something."

"Yeah, well. Let's talk about you, okay? I'm kinda done talking about me for a while."

"Sure," she says. "Sure."

We all go silent, allowing the clink and clank of the diner to invade our booth. I can't think of a thing to say.

"So what's this?" Jake says, thumbing her book. "Elle says you've been studying Peru since freshmen year. What don't you know?"

"I don't know," she says. "That's the point. I don't know what I don't know, and if I'm going to be assigned there . . ."

"You got your Peace Corps assignment?"

"I wish. It's taking forever. But if I'm going to live there for a year, I need to know everything. Anyway," she says, yanking the book from Jake's hands, "don't try to be all interested in my book. I know why you're here."

"I don't think you do," Jake says, opening the pink box.

Kaylee's face wrinkles like a squished pear. I really can't blame her. The contents of the box are unexpected, to say the least. We're looking at a dozen or so of these onion-ring-looking things.

"What are they?" I ask.

"Picarones," Kay says, her face brightening.

"That's right!" Jake says. "I can't believe you know what they are."

"I've had them before," she says, hooking one with her finger. "At a cultural seminar I took in Portland." She breaks off a piece and slides it into her mouth. "Oh my gosh. I forgot how good they are. How did you . . . Where did you . . ."

"There was this lady who worked for Canaan at the orphanage in Chicago-one of the kitchen staff. She was from Peru, and she made these picarones for the kids from time to time. I hold her solely responsible for my doughnut preoccupation, by the way. Anyway, I got Lizzie at The Donut Factory to give the recipe a shot. This is her first batch, but she loved them so much she's going to get her dad to add them to the menu."

"Jaaaaake. You really are the nicest guy in the whole wide world." She leans across the table, squishing half the donuts and pulling Jake in for a hug. When she settles back down, her shirt is covered with crumbs and her eyes are full of tears. "Thank you. Really. I mean, holy cow, is it weird to say that a box of Peruvian doughnuts is the best gift I've ever gotten?"

I beam at Jake. Talk about knocking this one out of the park.

"What about the Furby Delia got you for Christmas that one year? She tackled Liam Hanson's dad to get you that thing."

"Forgot about that," she says, giggling and shoving another bite into her mouth. "I won't tell Delia, then, but, Jake, seriously. Best. Gift. Ever."

"You won't tell me what?" Delia asks from a couple booths away.

"Nothing," we all say.

Delia sets down a couple plates and shoves past a slew of diners to get to our table.

"You're taking this girl to church, aren't ya?"

"Auntie, I can't, remember?" She looks to Jake. "But I really, truly have a good excuse this time."

"Let's hear it, then," Jake says, feigning frustration.

"My mom and dad are stopping by."

"We'll see," Delia huffs, her stomach moving up and down, bumping the table.

"Well, anyway, that's why I'm not working today. They don't know about my Peace Corps plans yet, and I thought I should at least let them know."