Terri was naturally affectionate, but she found herself stifling that tendency-at least with regards to Bastien in front of Kate and Lucern-because she didn't know where she stood with Bastien. And she knew she would still feel that way tomorrow unless he gave her some indicator. If Bastien greeted her with an affectionate kiss and hug, or put his arm around her, or took her hand, then she would feel free to allow her natural affection to show.
And why hadn't he done so in front of Kate and Lucern? Terri wondered as she tossed another finished flower in a box. He had held her hand and kissed her in public the day of the trip to the museum. But that had been in front of strangers. Bastien had taken her hand to lead her out of the hospital this morning, too. But that had only been in front of Vincent. He hadn't done anything of the sort in front of Kate and Lucern.
Perhaps he didn't want them to know what had happened between them. That seemed a good possibility. After Kate's reaction over the phone, when she'd learned that Bastien was taking Terri around the city those first couple of days, it was possible that if Terri and Bastien acted openly affectionate and revealed how far their "friendship"had gone, the woman might start making wedding plans. She was already leaning that way, and that was a lot of pressure. Especially from a new sister-in-law. It could make things a bit uncomfortable for Bastien. Especially if he was considering this just a casual relationship. Which was more than possible. They'd only met a week ago.
Terri picked up the string and began to measure out a length. It might be best to keep what had happened just between them. She didn't really want to, though. She'd rather be able to be herself; but she didn't want him feeling uncomfortable. Terri decided she would just play it by ear. If he greeted her tomorrow as just the cousin of his soon to be sister-in-law, she would respond accordingly. If Bastien greeted her with a kiss and hug or something like that, Terri would respond in kind. The ball was in his court.
"Thanks, brother.»
Lucern grimaced. "I don't want this any more than you do.»
"Yeah, but you agreed to it. I didn't get a vote,"Bastien muttered, walking around the bar with a glass of blood in hand. That was about the only nice thing about Terri being at Kate's; he didn't have to drink out of a bag anymore, grabbing a quick fix behind closed doors. But that was the only nice thing. And he'd gladly ingest bagged blood forever to have her back. He dropped onto the couch with a sigh.
"So?"Lucern peered at him curiously. "How is it going between you two?»
Bastien frowned, then admitted, "I don't know.»
Luc's eyebrows rose. "You don't know?»
He shrugged. "Yeah. I don't know."Sighing, he sat forward and set his glass on the coffee table and ran a frustrated hand through his hair. "I thought things were going great. I mean, Luc, you wouldn't believe how well we get along. Even I don't even believe it. It's all so perfect and natural and easy. We talk all the time, finish each other's sentences, we just… I don't know. Click. It's like she was made for me."Bastien shook his head, then added, "I'm even eating. And it tastes good. I can hardly believe now that I actually got bored with doing so in the past.»
Lucern grinned. "That's pretty serious.»
"Yeah."He nodded enthusiastically. "And every time we kiss? Pow!"Bastien slammed the palm of one hand against the other. "We have a sexual chemistry like I've never experienced. And it isn't just sexual. I mean, I want her all the time-but it isn't just wanting sex. I want to…"He paused, searching for the words to explain. "I want to give her pleasure. I want to hold her while she finds her pleasure. I want to take her inside me, my heart, and keep her there warm and safe and always a part of me.»
"Yeah. That's how I feel about Kate,"Luc said softly. "Have you tried to read her yet?»
"Yes, I have. And no, I can't.»
"It's sounding pretty good then.»
"Yeah.»
"But?"Luc asked when Bastien sighed.
"But I don't know how she feels,"he said miserably. "I just assumed that she felt the same, but then you guys showed up and she hardly looked at me after that.»
"Oh, well, I wouldn't worry. She was probably just happy to see Kate. They're pretty close and-other than those few minutes last Friday when Kate dropped off Chris and grabbed me to go to that conference-they haven't seen each other in over six months."Luc clapped a reassuring hand on his shoulder. "They'll talk up a storm tonight and get all that girl stuff out of the way. Then, tomorrow at the rehearsal, she'll be all over you.»
Bastien nodded, but wasn't sure he believed the prediction. He understood that Terri hadn't seen Kate in a while, but she hadn't even looked at him tonight. What if she regretted what they'd done? Or what if she didn't want Kate to know about it? Maybe she was thinking of this as just some vacation fling and wanted to keep it secret to avoid pressure from Kate. He really didn't think Terri was the type-he was almost positive she wasn't-but then again, he never would have predicted that once Kate and Lucern showed up, she'd avoid touching or even looking at him.
Bastien supposed he'd have to wait until the rehearsal to get a better idea of what was going on. He'd wait to see how Terri greeted him and go from there. If she acted like her normal cheerful and affectionate self, he'd know it was all going to be okay. But if she acted reserved and avoided eye contact, he'd know something wasn't as it should be.
Personally, Bastien hoped Terri would just walk up and either take his hand in hers or slip her arm through his, or even kiss him hello. He preferred the last option, though if she did walk up and kiss him, he couldn't promise he wouldn't kiss her senseless on the spot. But he didn't really expect that to happen-they'd be in a church after all. Still, Terri was naturally affectionate, and if she liked him as he hoped, she would greet him with some outward show of affection. That would free Bastien to be openly affectionate back. The ball was in her court.
CHAPTER 15
What is Bastien doing?"Kate asked. The minister had just finished giving his last-minute words of advice, wished them good evening, and moved off to speak to the wedding coordinator.
Lucern glanced down at her, then followed her gaze to where his brother stood silent and grim-faced beside Terri. "Standing there,"he said.
"Well, I can see that. Why isn't he talking to Terri?"Kate shook her head in exasperation. "He didn't even smile at her when we arrived today, he just nodded.»
"So? That's all she did, too,"Luc pointed out.
"Only because that's what he did. Terri wasn't sure how to greet him, and she waited for his greeting to see how she should act. He was cool, so she was cool.»
"You've been reading her mind,"he accused. There was amusement in his tone, however.
"You're darned right I have. Terri's as close-mouthed as a clam. If I didn't read her mind, I wouldn't have a clue of what was going on between those two."Kate watched her cousin and Bastien unhappily. "I don't know why he doesn't just grab her and kiss her. That's what she wants.»
"He probably wants it, too, but I think Bastien thinks Terri wouldn't welcome it because of how she acted when she was with you yesterday,"Lucern explained, finding himself also watching. The couple was studiously ignoring each other.
"What?"Kate glanced at him. "How did she act with me yesterday? And what has how she acts around me to do with Bastien thinking she doesn't want him to kiss her?»
"Well, she paid a lot of attention to you the moment we arrived, and pretty much ignored him.»
"And he's jealous? Of me?"Kate asked with disbelief.
"No. Not jealous. But Bastien said she hardly even looked at him. I think he's worried that maybe he was just… well, sort of fill-in entertainment while you were gone.»
"Oh, for heaven's sake. Terri isn't like that.»
"Perhaps not. But Bastien doesn't know that. Or at least, he can't be sure of it. They only met a little more than a week ago,"Lucern pointed out, then his eyes narrowed. "Look. They're talking. Maybe they'll work it out now.»
Across the room, Terri said, "I should thank you for allowing me to stay in the penthouse."She spoke the words almost desperately. The tension was just killing her. She and Kate had arrived at the church at the same time as the car had brought Bastien and Lucern. The men and women had met on the sidewalk, and Kate and Lucern had kissed and hugged each other as if they'd been apart forever. Terri had watched them with a small smile, then glanced to Bastien to see him watching too. Then, as if sensing her eyes on him, he'd turned her way, waited a moment as if expecting her to say something, then had nodded and murmured a polite hello.
Terri had felt disappointment drop over her, but had tried to hide it, merely nodding in return. And they had been like that ever since. All through the ceremony rehearsal, they'd been stiff and polite. Yet Terri had caught Bastien glancing at her a time or two, with a look of hunger he'd quickly veil whenever she caught his eye. Once, she'd caught him looking at her with an expression she thought might be longing, but Terri couldn't be sure. He'd cloaked that as soon as she glanced his way, too.
"There's no need to thank me. You are more than welcome in my home. And I enjoy your company.»