Unwillingly, he tried to protest, and found her mouth covering his. The protest died in his throat; and she raised her body slightly, one of her small quick hands busying itself with her trousers. The hand finished its task, gave a single swift pull at the fly of his levis. Then, she had settled down upon him again, the small soft-hard body pressing harder and harder. It began to jerk, in epileptic rhythm, delicately fitting itself into and around his own body. And her lips whispered frantically, ecstatically pouring out a stumbling stream of innocent lewdness.
_And the soft moistness caressing his crotch. And the bared buttocks filling his hands. And – _
'Holy God!' He let out a yell. 'What the hell is this?'
He gave her a shove, almost yelling again at the sharp stabs of pain which the action induced. Joshie flew out of the bunk, stumbling in her lowered trousers and sat down hard on the floor.
She came to her feet, slowly pulling her pants up and fastening them; frowning at him more in wonder than in anger.
'Why you do, ol' Critch? You say you like me.'
'Why? Why, God damn it – ' He caught himself. 'Well, I do like you, Joshie. I mean it, I like you very much. That's why I couldn't let you do this.'
'Is why?'_
'Of course. When a man likes and respects a girl as much as I do you, well, uh, he doesn't do that to her. Or let her do it to herself.'
'No?' Her head tilted puzzledly to one side. 'He only fock girl he don't like?'
'Uh, well, no, I don't mean that exactly. You see, uh – ' he hesitated. 'You see, it's like this, Joshie. Nice girls aren't supposed to have relations with a man unless they're married to him.'
'No want relations. Just fock. Anyway, maybe so sometime we get married, I betcha.'
'Well, uh, yes. Maybe we will sometime. But – '
'Sure t'ing,' said Joshie with utmost certitude. 'King blood got to mix with blood of Tepaha. Is way it is.'
Critch wet his lips, nervously; mumbled that what she said was undoubtedly true. But marriage was something that lay in their future; just how far he was unprepared to say, since they had grown up in different worlds and he needed time to adjust to this one. Also –
'Also, make no God damn difference,' Joshie declared firmly. 'We gonna get married. Now we what you call engage', so is all right to fock.'
'Dammit, Joshie!' Critch started to rise from the bunk, then flopped back with a groan. 'I – didn't you hear your grandfather this morning? He said you shouldn't say such words.'
'Huh-uh, did not. He say should only be used between man 'n' woman. Anyway, don't want to say words 'bout it; just want to do it.'
'Well, you're not going to,' Critch snapped. 'You might have a baby, for God's sake! What about that?'
Joshie let out a derisive, 'Ho, ho! Squaw no want baby, no have baby.'
'Well, just the same…' Critch began; and then smoothly altered his tone, placing the issue on a practical basis. 'I've had a terrible fall, Joshie, and it's possible that I've been hurt inside. If it wasn't for that, I'd be more than willing to do what you want. Why, my God,' he avowed warmly, 'I'm probably a lot more anxious than you are. But if I tried to when I was seriously hurt – '
Joshie interrupted with the declaration that she would not allow him to take such a fearful risk. 'You hokay now?' she asked anxiously. 'I no hurt you inside some place, maybe?'
'Not seriously, if at all,' Critch said. 'I'm sure I'll be all right as long as I take it easy for a while.'
'Then you take easy. I make you, by God!' said Joshie. 'Ol' Boz, he get hurt inside, too. Make balls no God damn good. Was mean God damn bastard, anyway, but…' Her voice trailed off into silence, her small face falling at memory of the ball-less Boz. 'You my ol' husband now,' she resumed, her tone brightening. 'Same as ol' husband, anyway. We take easy now, make up plenty los' time later.'
Critch complimented her on her wisdom, suppressing an inward twinge of guilt. He had never minded lying – in fact, preferred lying to telling the truth, since it was the much more profitable of the two, in the long run, and invariably more interesting. Still, lying to someone who was so easy to deceive, so eager to believe, was hardly a thing to take pride in. Nor was the profit in it readily discernible. So why –
'Joshie,' Critch said. 'Come here.'
Joshie said hokay and came immediately. Sank down on her knees at the side of the bunk. 'What you want, ol' Critch?'
His arms went around her. He drew her close, burying his face in her hair. _I want to tell you something, Joshie. Something very important._
'Want to tell you something, Critch.' Joshie pulled her head back from his. 'Something ver' important.'
'I want to tell you…' He broke off, frowning at the seriousness of her expression. 'Yes? What is it, Joshie.'
"Bout ol' Arlie. He cut saddle cinch on horse. Is why you almost get killed.'