"When did you stop feeling grief over the loss of your friends?"
He gave me a sad smile. "Never. You never get over it. I lost them in the first year of deployment. Two guys, and I'll never forget them."
"Me either but that's good, right?"
"Damn straight." He moved his hand from the steering wheel to my face, tucking back the stray hairs that wouldn’t stay put. I held my breath because I wasn't certain if I wanted to shake his hand off or turn and taste his entire hand. I didn't have to decipher my feelings for more than a second because he allowed his hand to drop back into his own lap. My twinge of emotion was a mixture of regret and relief.
"What do you do when you aren't mixing drinks?" His question caught me off guard and I wished I could say something adventurous like “I teach skydiving.” At my hesitation, Gray wiggled an eyebrow. "Can't be that bad."
I released an embarrassed little laugh. "It's just so stereotypical. I might as well buy my red hat and dye my hair blue and call it a day."
"Now you're speaking another language."
"I knit," I admitted. "The most exciting thing I’ve ever done was to yarn bomb the lampposts at Central College's sculpture gardens."
"What's that? Throwing balls of yarn at something?"
"No, like putting sweaters on things secretly in the dark."
Silence.
"Not very adventurous, right?"
"Hell, who am I to judge?" he offered magnanimously. "It's creative."
I couldn't tell if he was interested or thought it was silly. "Not very exciting though, not like skydiving."
He shrugged. "You could've been caught."
"We had the administration's permission."
"Yeah, not very dangerous." He grinned at me and I caught a glimpse of white even teeth and crinkles around his eyes. It was a smile that made me feel warm and tingly inside. It made me want to smile back and so I did. "Knitting seems cool. Will you make me something?"
This made me laugh again. "That's everyone's response when I tell them I knit."
"Damn, I'm not very original. But does that mean no?"
"You don't think that it's a little dull?"
"Not really." He shook his head. "Has someone said that to you?"
"Not about knitting specifically. I'm just kind of a non-adventurous type of person. Will always said I kept him grounded." I always took it as a compliment as Will intended it to be.
Gray didn't comment on that, but instead he asked me, "What kind of things do you think are adventurous?"
"Jumping out of airplanes?" I peeked at him. Whatever had shadowed his thoughts earlier were gone. Instead, a mischievous smile was directed toward me, as if he had some grand idea. It made me smile in return.
“Jumping out of airplanes is good but there are a lot of other things we could do.”
We? I liked the sound of that. “Like what?”
He gave me a mysterious look. “Leave that up to me.”
“What happened earlier?”
The hand went back to the neck. Gray wasn’t very difficult to read but this time I didn’t think it was tension that made him grip his neck as much as it was embarrassment. “That was me being stupid and I’d like to make that up to you.”
Was that like an invitation for coffee? I couldn't figure it out, but I wasn’t sure I wanted to put the effort into mulling it over. I put the car into gear and coasted down Adam's driveway toward the house.
“I’m not agreeing to anything but if I did, what would I need to bring?”
“Wear sturdy boots. Shorts. T-shirt. Bring your knitting." He jumped out almost before I'd pulled to a complete stop leaving me with unanswered questions and an uncertain tomorrow.
I backed out and headed to my parents’ house. In the driveway, I pulled out my phone to text Eve. She was either sleeping, having sex with Randy, or winding down by watching some television. Hopefully the last one, because I wanted some more advice. I hadn’t been able to close the deal with Gray physically, but the car ride to Adam’s house wasn’t just meaningless small talk.
I asked him to coffee but he turned me down.
Way to go! And I'm SORRY! He's a douche. You are WAY too good for him. Where are you?
Oh, Eve, such a good friend.
Parents’ house. Took him up to my condo. We were friendly then he decided to go home. Guess he didn’t like the taste of my coffee.
I’ve had your coffee. You have great coffee. Randy says U should stay AWAY. Too Ducking dumb. God, I meant F UCKING. STUPID PHONE. R says guy who doesn't know a coffee invitation means sex can't find your C L I T anyway. STUPID PHONE typed CLOT.